The Beggar Maid

Here's another poem I love.

Enjoy...

Love EJ

The Beggar Maid
by Alfred Tennyson

Her arms across her breast she laid;
She was more fair than words can say:
Bare-footed came a beggar maid
Before the king of Cophetua.
In robe and crown the king stept down,
To meet and greet her on her way;
'It is no wonder,' said the lords,
'She is more beautiful than day.'

As shines the moon in clouded skies,
She in her poor attire was seen:
One praised her ankles, one her eyes,
One her dark hair and lovesome mien.
So sweet a face, such angel grace,
In all that land had never been:
Cophetua swore a royal oath:
'This beggar maid shall be my queen!'

Source: The Beggar Maid

The Tortoiseshell Cat

I've always loved this poem. When I first heard it at school, it was supposed to illustrate the use of imagery and metaphors, which went way above my head at the time. I loved it because it was a poem about cats. I love cats.

Thanks to our friend, the Internet, I can now share it with you. Hope you love it like I do.

Meow!

EJ

THE TORTOISESHELL CAT
by Patrick Reginald Chalmers (first published in Punch magazine, 4 March 1914)

The Tortoiseshell cat
She sits on the mat
As gay as a sunflower, she;
In orange and black you see her blink,
And her waistcoat's white, and her nose is pink
And her eyes are green of the sea.
But all is vanity, all the way;
Twilight's coming and close of day,
And every cat in the twilight's gray,
Every possible cat.

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The tortoiseshell cat
She is smooth and fat,
And we call her Josephine,
Because she weareth upon her back
This coat of colors, this raven black,
This red of the tangerine.
But all is vanity, all the way;
Twilight follows the brightest day,
And every cat in the twilight's gray,
Every possible cat.

Source: Cat Quotations

Life Lesson No. 666 - To Get More, Use What You Have

"For unto every one that hath shall be given, and he shall have abundance: but from him that hath not shall be taken away even that which he hath." (Matthew 25: 29)

"And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us, (and we beheld his glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth." (John 1: 14)

In my previous Life Lesson, I wrote about how my Yahoo email storage space had been increased to take into account my current needs.

I have a thought. What if my need is the equivalent of my realisation of infinity? Infinity is way too abstract to be applied in a practical way. What if the way to translate the infinite into a concrete form is for me to use what I have and I will receive more? Does this mean I need to give to receive? Yes and no. When I give/or use what I have, it's in my conscious awareness what I have to use or give.

For instance, I've noticed when I have an idea about something, it only becomes more lucid when I write the ideas down. Then I get more understanding and further insights.

In the same way, my email storage appears to demonstrate the above principle to "to get more, use what you have." In theory, my email storage is a zillion megabytes, but this means nothing in practical terms. What's the use of having a zillion megabytes if you're not using it? (Bear in mind, I'm referring to the free email service Yahoo provides, as I'm sure they offer a lot more if you pay). I would imagine Yahoo only gets a fair idea of its users requirements when they show how much they are using the Yahoo facilities. Thus, my storage space is increased as I use it more.

I know that everyone has access to infinite wealth but it remains a theory if you're not practising using what you already have. How does one practise what one has? By experiencing one's identity. I practise by Contemplation, Realisation, Meditation and Imagination. I practise Contemplation when I am writing and sharing ideas about how I experience my truth. I practise Realisation when my contemplations give me insights into who I am. I practise Meditation when I am still. I practise Imagination when I am visualising myself as Energy. As I practise being who I am, which is the same as using what I have, I am translating the Infinite, abstract, into the concrete. This way, Spirit is made flesh.

At least, this is my theory of Life Lesson no. 666.

Love always,
Enocia

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Life Lesson No. 989,888,990,001,987,123.00989

This is an important life lesson so listen well.

Yesterday, I had a thought that my storage size is decreasing as I have 238 articles in one folder alone, let alone the others.

Later in the afternoon, I tried to get into my Yahoo email account and couldn't. I could have panicked that I would never be able to access them again. Actually, I did for a few seconds, then I let it go. In any case, I have another Yahoo email account which I was able to access. How very odd! I tried my other account again and I couldn't access it.

This morning, everything is working well but there is a noticeable difference. My account storage size has been increased from 100 mb to 250 mb. Yesterday, I was using 11% of my account. Now I'm only using 4%. Yahoo! I've even noticed they've added new facilities that I really love.

I also note that in my other Yahoo account, where I haven't got much info, the storage size remains the same at 100 mb. The Universe is taking care of my needs automatically. Brilliant or what!

My life lesson is to never take appearances seriously. If at first you can't log in, you could very well end up with a nice surprise.

Yahoo!

Enocia

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Poems about Food

When I was growing up there were two poems which put the fear of God in me about eating. One reminded me what would happen if I didn't eat and the other if I ate too much.

Enjoy...but don't take them too seriously. I haven't.

Love EJ

The Story of Augustus, Who Would Not Have Any Soup
Heinrich Hoffmann

In which we see the inevitable result of not eating enough of the right stuff.

Augustus was a chubby lad;
Fat, ruddy cheeks Augustus had;
And everybody saw with joy
The plump and hearty, healthy boy.
He ate and drank as he was told,
And never let his soup get cold.
But one day, one cold winter's day,
He screamed out -- "Take the soup away!
O take the nasty soup away!
I won't have any soup today."

Next day begins his tale of woes;
Quite lank and lean Augustus grows.
Yet, though he feels so weak and ill,
The naughty fellow cries out still --

"Not any soup for me, I say:
O take the nasty soup away!
I won't have any soup today."

The third day comes; O what a sin!
To make himself so pale and thin.
Yet, when the soup is put on table,
He screams, as loud as he is able-
"Not any soup for me, I say:
O take the nasty soup away!
I won't have any soup today."
Look at him, now the fourth day's come!
He scarcely weighs a sugarplum;
He's like a little bit of thread,
And on the fifth day, he was -- dead!


The Vulture
Hilaire Belloc

This one belongs on the refrigerator door.

The Vulture eats between his meals,
And that's the reason why
He very, very rarely feels
As well as you or I.
His eye is dull, his head is bald,
His neck is growing thinner.
Oh, what a lesson for us all
To only eat at dinner.

Source: The Book of Virtues

It's Only a Game - Part 2

In Part 1 of, we talked about what it means to experience life. I then asked how one can take control of one's life. How can one live consciously?

Let's start with recapping what I said in our previous dialogue. To experience life you need to have a desire. Since you are Source, desire has to be only make believe, as you cannot have a need for something when you already have it. You have to pretend you don't have such and such and wish to experience it. This wish or need is projected into your movie of life so you can experience it as a form. This is experience of life in the physical universe.

To be in control of your life, you need to have a constant awareness that you are All There Is. In other words, All There Is is your consciousness of Source. All There Is is Enocia. This means Enocia's consciousness is always in communication with Enocia's consciousness.

Remember the example of you wanting to find the ladies' toilet. You pretend you want to find the public toilets and you are already there. You as Enocia at the toilet, flashes out a signal to You as Enocia pretending to want to use it. You follow your own signals and find it. This is "like attracting like." Then you pretend to yourself how clever you are for finding it. Of course you're clever, you're only looking for yourself? Can you lose yourself when there is only you?

When you put it that way, it sounds like this game of life is a mad chase to nowhere.

Well said.

So I'm pretending to be what I already am. How do I become aware that I am playing a game? How do I prevent myself from being sucked into the movie instead of having fun with it?

You need to be aware that life is exactly like in a sleeping dream. Forget all the symbols and what a dream appears to be saying. Your dream is always about you. You are the one creating symbols to convey your own meanings. You are the dreamer and it's always about you and your take on reality. While you may from time to time pick up on other people's stuff, it is because you are choosing to. Start from the premise that there's no one else but you. Only One exists and it is You.

Second, since there is only You, everything that happens is about you. The universe has enough space for everyone to interact without interference. You all appear to be sharing lives but, in truth, each of you is dreaming your own dream. The game of life is Self-expression.

Though each of you has your own dream, your dreams are sometimes fulfilment of another's dream. The fact that you are here experiencing life is fulfilling your dream of self-expression on the one hand, while fulfilling your mother's dream of self-expressing as a "mother," on the other. You are expressing your joy of writing, which might fulfil another's love of exploring new ideas. You are dreaming possibilities for one another so you can all have fun together or apart. Yet, what you are dreaming are dreams only. A dream enables you to pretend to create what you believe you don't already have.

To wake up from the dream, first, you need to be aware of your real identity - the One who already has it all. Second, that your dreams are games of make-believe, which you use for that purpose only but don't take them literally.

I understand all this. What if I no longer wish to play the game? How do I opt out?

By choosing not to play it. Let's say you've believed so long that sickness is real. Since all around you is a dream, you know that sickness is not real. You've simply forgotten your real self is wholeness. If you're seeking health, you're actually pretending to be in need of health, which is another illusion. Wholeness knows neither sickness nor health. Wholeness knows no duality.

You're awake and no longer wish to play that game. How do you stop the pain or illness now that you know you've been playing a game? You have to let go of that particular dream. Another word for "letting go" is healing. Let go of the dream and be yourself.

You remember in the first part of our dialogue, I asked you to enter the state of Silence, and you stopped having the desire for chocolate? That is always the first step, to be the You that is consciousness, the observer who knows the truth that it is all a dream. Next, you may choose to continue to playing the game while being yourself.

You see, when you experience Silence, you stop experiencing the dream. In other words, you create a new reality. But once you're out of the Silence, you're back to the dream realm. The dilemma is do you stay in Silence? Yes you can stay in Silence and operate from Silence. You can be aware that you are pretending on the one hand, and not pretending on the other.

I thought we established that you can't feel desire and desirelessness at the same time?

Are you having any thoughts now?

No.

You are typing this article effortlessly, are you not?

I guess.

It's because you are in a state of Silence. You started off with the premise that you wish to pretend you are expressing Wisdom. Then you let Wisdom express through you. You're still playing the game, however. If you want to completely opt out of the system, you're going to have to be in Silence forever, or "rest." I take it you have no intention of taking a "rest" any time soon?

Absolutely not!

That's what I thought. Inner Silence enables you to be in the system and yet out of the system. You realise that you're playing a game. You choose the game you wish to play, and you play the game in Silence i.e. let it express through you. You are now focused on being the You that is no longer playing the game on someone else's terms but on your terms only.

What do you mean by "You are now focused on being the You that is no longer playing the game on someone else's terms but on your terms only."

Let's take your love for chocolate as an example. You know that you like it because you wish to experience it, not because it can make you feel good about yourself. You know that you already can feel happy without chocolate. This is playing the game on your terms. Since you have decided to continue playing this game, you can always choose whether you wish to or not. If you get an urge for chocolate, you can check whether you really want some or whether you don't because you know you don't need it. There may come a time when you'll stop playing that game.

As a matter of fact, I've gone for about five years without thinking about chocolate.

Precisely. It always depends on what game you wish to play. Whatever game you play, always ensure that it is on your terms and not someone else's.

As a matter of fact, if All There Is is me, am I not therefore always always playing on my terms only?

Yes you are. You have been listening. (smile)

Let's continue the discussion about health. You have pain and you wish to be healthy. This is because you wish to stop playing the game of illness. You revert to Source. You let Source as health express through you. Note that you are playing a new game because there is no such thing as "health." Source knows neither sickness nor health, but you are choosing to play this game.

What if the dream reality tries to distract you?

Pay no attention to the dream. Do not react against the dream. Do not try to change the dream. Simply focus on who you are, consciousness experiencing reality in a detached way. When you react against the dream, you are forgetting that All There Is is You. Be the dream you wish to experience.

How do you opt out of a reality that you have been collectively dreaming?

By realising that only One is having life. There is only You, EJ, in the universe. You focus on who you are. You let whatever you wish to experience, whatever need you are creating, express through you. You don't listen to others because no one else exists, or they exist because you're dreaming they exist. Have you not noticed that you only see what you want to see? Someone might be standing in front of you and you pay no attention. Only if the other has something for you in terms of information does he come into your awareness.

When you live with the awareness that "Only You exist", you will find things happening when you need them. You will find roads clear up when you need to cross; the rain stops when you wish to go out; money is available when you need it; a train/plane seat available when you need to travel; business opportunities etc. This is because there is only You having life. You are watching the movie from your perspective and enjoying the movie. The same is true for others, naturally.

That sounds cool. It involves a lot of trust.

Remember, since you're pretending to have needs, you're going to have to be specific about what needs you don't have so it can be expressed through you. If you have a need that you don't have a home, you need to be specific about what kind of house you want. Ditto boyfriend, car, food, friends, body weight, etc. Once you are aware of what you wish to experience, there's no need to think or trust. You simply know that you are experiencing life how you wish and it is done.

Cool!

One final thing I wish to discuss is how to stay connected to Source. You are of course Source, but while you're living in a dream, you need to have a strategy to remind yourself that you are Source. One way is of course being in Silence. Since being in Silence is not always practical, there's another way.

Imagine you're standing waiting for a bus. Imagine your hands and feet are like roots and branches of a tree connecting you to your surroundings. Know that you are connected to an Energy grid. Though, you appear to be moving around, you're a mass of Infinite Energy that is stillness. You are the totality of Energy, All There Is, Source.

This is great. I feel that way sometimes when I feel myself so at one with everything. I then have no sense of hot/cold, up/down, time/space, I simply am.

Source knows no duality. There's no need for you to feel the changing temperature unless you wish to play that game. Practise feeling yourself as Energy in motion. In truth, you are always still.

Thank you.

It is I who should thank you for giving me this opportunity to pretend that I am Wisdom expressing through you.

I am All There Is,
Enocia

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It's Only a Game - Part 1

It's the previous day. I'm about to catch my bus at a station, but I feel the need to have a pee. I see a sign pointing to the ladies. I'm off looking for it. The sign points to a local shopping mall. I enter the mall. Now where is it, upstairs or downstairs? Without thinking, I let my legs lead the way. In a few seconds my legs take me to the toilets. How did this happen? Was there an invisible force pulling me to where I wanted to be?

You were only playing a game.

What do you mean?

You heard me the first time.

Now you're talking in riddles, and you know how I hate riddles!

Isn't that interesting? You say you hate riddles, yet, your life is a riddle.

Now, you've lost me.

OK, I'm going to give you a quick exercise. I know how much you love chocolate. I want you to imagine you have a strong desire for chocolate and that you need to have some right now or your life wouldn't have any meaning.

Yup, I'm there. I really want some chocolate. Now what?"

Now I want you to enter that space of Silence. Be in that state for about a minute. [Pause}

Now come out of that space and continue this dialogue. Tell me, did you feel a desire for chocolate when you were in Silence?

Of course not!

Why?

Because when I'm in Silence, I have no desires. I am complete and whole and therefore in need of nothing.

If you can have no need while you're in Silence, who is the one who had desire for chocolate?

Good question. I know I can't have a need and have a need at the same time. I either want something or I don't. That's very interesting. Go on, you tell me Ms Know It All, how come I have a need and I don't have a need.

Because you're pretending you have a need. In order to experience life as form, you have to pretend you have a need. In truth you have no need. But if you were to have no need, there wouldn't be any point expressing life, so you create an illusion of needing something, or having a desire to express yourself, in order for the game to continue.

This makes so much sense. I know that life is like a game of pretence. I wish to experience a certain state of mind, I pretend I don't have it. Hang on, there's another way to look at it. I already know I am all there is. So when I have a need for something, I usually feel my oneness with whatever it is, then I project that oneness outwards so I can have the experience in form. I can't pretend when I am consciously projecting it outwards and wanting to experience it, can I?

First, why have a need when you are already what you need? To experience whatever you desire in form, you still have to pretend you have the desire to experience it in form.

Second, why experience what you need in a physical form? Don't you know that by thinking an experience, you are already experiencing it. There's no need to experience anything in form. If you can think it, you already know what it feels like. Physical forms are solid thought-forms. You could choose to experience forms in idea forms and still have the same realisations as when you experience them as solid thought-forms.

Then why do I need to have the experiences as solid thought-forms?

Why do you?

Because it's fun to experience life as solid form. In the same way that it's fun to have a solid body.

In that case, if it is fun, why complain when things don't happen as fast as they do in the state of ideas?

Oh, I don't know! I guess I want to test out whether I can make things happen as quickly as they do in the idea state. I guess I wish to prove to myself that just because I appear to be physical doesn't mean I am. I am Spirit in form.

That is a great realisation!

It still doesn't answer why you need to experience life as a thought-form - solid or ideas. You know you are already one with all. Why bother expressing yourself in a long-winded way? Why create a need or desire for something when you already have it all? I will tell you. Because you are here to play a game of riddles. Even when you know you are all there is, you have to pretend you have a need to create something.

Right now, you're playing a game of communication on the Internet. Why bother writing something when you are all wisdom? You have to pretend that you need Wisdom in order to understand your life as human. You could let Wisdom sort out your life; but even that is a game as Wisdom needs an instrument to work through. If you didn't have a form there will be no need to express Wisdom.

It sounds like the universe was created this way in order for Source to express Self. The universe is a simulation that Source uses to have different expressions.

Exactly. Everyone is part of the game. The universe has been specifically designed in order that life can be expressed as forms. It's an opportunity to test out ideas. You can then decide how you want to play it, by prolonging the process or breezing your way through it.

I don't understand what you mean by "breezing your way through it."

I meant, do you take the easy route or hard route. Let me give you an example. Have you noticed that in an Internet forum, the Administrator usually assigns ranks to members based on their number of posts?

Yes. So?

Let's pretend that the Administrator is following a discipleship hierarchy. You could start off being an initiate, then a disciple, a chela, a teacher, a guru etc.

If I were the Administrator of my own forum, I would have a rank system based on the adage: "empty buckets make the most noise." So members start with their buckets full and the more posts they write, the emptier their buckets get. I would ensure that the highest level, "empty bucket," is diffcult to achieve. I will keep moving the "goal post" from, say 2,000 to 5,000 etc. I wouldn't want my members to feel insecure, would I?

Very funny. There's nothing stopping the members from creating new usernames so they always appear intelligent i.e. at the "full bucket" rank.

Very true.

Isn't "moving the goalpost" what humans do? If things are too easy you complain there is no challenge, so you create challenges.

If humans are creating challenges, surely it is because they are part of the system that creates challenges for challenges sake? As you said, the universe was created purely for the sake of make belief - to pretend you need to experience what you already have.

This is only partly true. You see the universe has been created as a simulation. The problem starts when you take the simulation as gospel truth instead of a projection, a manifestation of solidified thought-forms. You're meant to use the projections as tools to experience life not life itself.

You say "You're meant to use the projections as tools to experience life not life itself." What is life?

I'll give you an analogy. Imagine you're at the cinema. The cinema is packed full and you're all watching the same movie. Each of you has his own interpretation of the movie. When the movie is over I arrange a discussion panel so you can all share your perceptions of what you've witnessed. I'm sure you will all agree on the main theme of the movie. When it comes to interpretations, some of you will agree and many will disagree because of your disparate beliefs.

Life, as you are experiencing it, is like watching a movie. The only difference is you're interacting with the movie. Each of you is creating your movie reality by interaction, identification, interpretation, and detachment. You have forgotten that the movie is hypersensitive and is influenced by your thoughts. You have forgotten that, if you choose to interact with the movie, you can consciously influence the movie the way you want it to go. You have forgotten that you can choose to opt out of a scene at any moment, by detachment. You've forgotten that the objective of the movie is to enjoy it for what it is.

Think of life as your dreams. You are always the star of your dreams. Whether you are conscious that you are the dreamer or not, you're either dreaming experiences you like or ones you are scared of. You are still the dreamer. In the same way, you're the star of your life and in complete control of how you wish things to appear. Your life as a physical form is another dream world where you can make things happen exactly how you wish, or they will happen unconsciously based on what you are fearful of.

You asked "what is life?" Life is consciousness; consciousness is the way one experiences one's life-movie.

How do I consciously experience the movie of life? How do I take control?

This is a subject we shall discuss in the next part. Is there anything else you would like to ask?

I wish to recap. I started off by asking why I had been drawn to the ladies toilet when I had no conscious awareness of where it was.

And I responded that you were playing a game of needing to use the toilet. As you are All There Is, you already knew where the toilets were. You were effectively pulling yourself to where you needed to be. I will discuss this in the next part of our dialogue.

OK. So what you're saying in this part of our dialogue is that I am playing a game of make-believe. You're saying that I am already complete and need nothing. When I have a need, I'm playing a game of need. You're saying that I could easily create this need as an idea which will fulfil that need but I take it to the next level of creating it as a solid thought-form. You're saying that this physical universe is a device created so we can play this game.

Yes. The physical universe has been created so you can pretend to have a need and create it a solid way. Creation depends on whether you feel it needs to be done the hard way, by physical or mental means; or you can try the easy way by letting it happen, the way things do so effortlessly in your dreams.

You also said that life is like a movie where we are influencing the simulation based on our beliefs and thoughts. You said that life is the consciousness influencing the movie, not the movie itself.

Precisely.

I look forward to our next dialogue.

Enocia

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How do you know there is a Higher Self?

I read the following in a discussion forum which I have copied here. I also attach my response to this question.

"A reader emailed me this question:
How do you know for sure that there is a higher self, and not just certain impersonal qualities that can be manifested as product of one's mind?

We can believe that there is a higher, more perfected aspect in ourselves and simply come into play with it through suggestion...that's not impossible.

If the ego is one's mind, as they are interelated supposibly, you can't tell whether it's your mind convincing itself of a higher state in itself, or actually the higher self through intuition, if there is such a thing.

From a broader perspective history constantly repeats itself, and society is always looking for itself through new beliefs or old beliefs. People need something to hold onto and believe in, in other cases it is a way to create fear in the general public, hence order. This concept of the Higher self is a new belief, a new concept in time...it could be just another form of escaping from reality, (or of salvation) eg-not listening to one's lower self, mind, ego which go so hand in hand with reality, as it is reality as a mirror that causes so much suffering, and hopelesness.

Do you astral travel? I have not been able to personally, though maybe there, there is Truth, as this plane has a mass of confusion, distortion from Truth, in all it's forms.

ps-I hope we are not escaping from the emptyness that every human being carries inside, or the lack of sense that there is outside, by putting false tangling beliefs of sense,direction and meaningin order to keep one busy and away from madness. It's saner than drugs and alcohol, that's for sure."

Hi Susan,

This is a great question! I would like to focus only on the "higher self" if I may.

First of all let me state my belief. I believe that Source is all there is. What is Source? Source contains and unifies all realities: form and formless. Since Source is all there is, I am Source. On the other hand, I am my perception and experience of Source. My perception/experience of Source is what I believe to be my real personality/identity. This doesn't mean, however, that my personality is a form. While I sometimes use symbols to represent my personality, I know I am inherently formless. When my personality is, however, projected outwards to experience life as form, as it is now in this human body, my unique personality emanates an energetic frequency that is uniquely mine. I also sense unique frequencies emanating from other people, and it is how I can read someone's telepathic signals.

Reminds me of an episode of an American tv series called "Smallville," which depicts the early years of Superman. In one episode we learn how the young Superman gets his super-hearing through some kind of reaction to a frequency. It starts off with him hearing loud noises that drive him up the wall. He is not able to distinguish between the sounds. Then he learns to focus on what he wants to hear, while tuning the rest out.

You wrote:

"This concept of the Higher self is a new belief, a new concept in time...it could be just another form of escaping from reality, (or of salvation) eg-not listening to one's lower self, mind, ego which go so hand in hand with reality, as it is reality as a mirror that causes so much suffering, and hopelesness."

It's an interesting point you raise there, whether the higher self is a concept. I believe it is. My sense of self is that of my personality which comprise of my unique view and experience of Source. Who I am knows nothing of higher or lower self. While I can distinguish another from me, it doesn't mean I'm higher or lower than the other. The "higher self" is therefore meaningless.

I perceive all realities of forms in the universe, whether you are aware of them or not, as dreams. In whatever dream you are living in, you can create what you like and be the best you want to be, according to your standards. Let's say your understanding of a "higher self" is a state where you're always being loving and peaceful and wise. If one is always loving, is that not choosing one polarity over another? Besides, what is love? People have their own ideas about love and we don't always agree on definitions. So the individual has to decide what love means for her. Then she can choose whether to experience her dream of a "higher self" or another dream.

I see Source as the ultimate reality. Source unifies all realities. Source is impersonal and knows nothing of duality. I believe evil is to have a knowledge of duality: good versus evil; right versus wrong, etc. It is my belief that Source embraces all realities as experiences only, without judgment.

In conclusion, I believe that Source is all there is. I also believe that my personality/identity is a combination of my perception and experience of Source. I therefore cannot accept "higher self" as real. I believe "higher self" is a construct of the human dream.

Thanks for raising this point.

Love always,
Enocia

ps: I have copied this to my blog.

see Perceptions of Me Versus the Real Me

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Working with Source Energy

I see Source as containing all realities, whether we are aware of them or not; whether they already exist as forms, or are only ideas or possibilities. Everyone has access to Source but our experiences of Source is subjective.

This happened about a week ago. I'm thinking about the various ways to use Energy. I imagine myself bathed in purple light like the character in the movie She, starring Ursula Andress. I start visualising the movie in detail. In case you haven't seen it, Ayesha ("She Who Must Be Obeyed") is the immortal and ruthless ruler of a mythical lost city. She's been waiting for centuries for her lover to be reincarnated so they can be together and rule for eternity. When they are finally reunited, Ayesha makes the fatal mistake of bathing in the blue light, which had made her immortal. You only need to bathe in it once. The effect is the reverse of immortality, and she rapidly ages in a gruesome way until she is destroyed. (Shudder!)

It's the day after and I am browsing at a bookshop. I pick up a book called "Soul Mates." In the first chapter I am guided to read, the author refers to the same movie "She" starring Ursula Andress. He talks about soul mates reincarnating together. Isn't it incredible how I had been "directed" to a book reflecting my thoughts?

I've noticed whenever I am thinking about something I reach out energetically for all relevant information available on the subject; or is it all information available on the subject and I merge into one? Oneness with whatever I seek leads, me sooner or later, to the form equivalent, when I am guided to pick up a book at random, or so I think. If I'm drawn to read a book, it doesn't mean I always share the same interpretation as the author, since we are all unique, but I'm lead to that source anyway and it's up to me to decide whether this is the information I seek.

A few days ago, I wrote an article called What is Love? The next day I was at another bookshop and picked up another book called "Soul Mates" (not the same one as before). In my article I talked about two types of love: personal and impersonal. This book talked about two types of love: "personal and impersonal." While we agreed on the fundamental principles, our approaches were totally different. Thus, it is the same Source but how one expresses Source is an individual matter.

I see Source as an eight pointed star above my crown, expressing infinite rays of purple light. Each ray represents whatever I wish to experience in life.

Let's say I want to experience eternal youth. I see myself looking eternally young as whatever age I wish to appear as. Then I see that eternal self as a ray of energy emanating from Source (star) and expressing through me for eternity. Since the expression is for eternity, there's no longer any need for me to think about it. I trust in Source to do the work.

I can use the same technique for everything and anything. Thus, I have a ray for perfect health, a ray for unlimited wealth, a ray for love, a ray for friendships, a ray for peace, a ray for business opportunities, a ray for wisdom, a ray for joy etc, etc. As soon as I think about something I would like to experience, I give it a ray, knowing that it is forever being expressed through me.

Isn't it wonderful how Source makes it so easy to look after me and you and all of us? It's a matter of trusting and it is done.

I am Source,
Enocia

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Life is Art

The world is only art
painted by the eye of the beholder
all things are just colors
and shapes on a page
some view it as peaceful
some view it, and are outraged
in the eye of the beholder
the weight of your beliefs
are carried only on your shoulders

(From: "The World is Only Art" by Shyloh)

A while back, I took my mother to see an art collection at Kenwood House in Hampstead Health in London, which holds works by Turner, Rembrandt and others.

When we came out of the House, we went for a walk around the woods. I compared the picturesque surroundings of the woods, the lake and visitors with the paintings we'd just seen. My mother agreed. We could very easily have been moving in an interactive painting.

I believe life is like art appearing in innumerable shades of light. I like Turner's paintings because there is a fluidity to his work which suggests creation is in constant motion. I guess it is how I perceive the universe - a constant flow of shapes and forms emerging from and merging into masses of light. Here's a picture I like by Turner called Shipwreck, which illustrates the movement of creation.

I see my life as art in motion. I, the Artist, create what I would like to experience from what already exists as formless Energy/Light. I, the Artist, am the source of all Inspiration. Every moment I, the Source of inspiration, am pouring out ideas. Inspiration needs an instrument to work through, which is my personality self. I believe it is our personalities which give art its diversity, dimension and depth. If everyone thought the same way, all art would be the same. There wouldn't be any point expressing art. It is my personality, my way of seeing, which makes me love Turner's paintings.

How do you see a painting? Are you into analysing art? Do you put the art into a historical and cultural framework? Are you interested in what was going on during the period the painting was produced? How did that particular epoch influence the artist? What does the art say about the artist? Does the art stand the test of time? How does your view of reality influence the way you see the painting? Is it good or bad art?

One can analyse one's life experiences the same way one does art. Do you blame yourself for your experiences? Do you accept your choices because you know you're doing the best you can? Do you judge others or are you accepting of others? Are your experiences steeped in regret? Do you believe your past affects the present or future? Do you believe every experience is new and self-contained, and bears no relevance to another?

Does it matter what the painting looks like? Why not enjoy the art for what it is, as Art seeking expression. I see Art as Energy which is forever seeking channels of expression. How Art is expressed depends on the instrument/personality. It, therefore, shouldn't matter whether the personality was feeling anger, fear, shame, or joy while painting because one's emotions help give the painting depth and authenticity. Remember, Art is pure Energy pouring through different chalices without judgment. Whatever is in the chalice is what will be manifested on the canvas of life. It doesn't mean the painting is good or bad.

If you apply the principle of "enjoying art for art sake" to one's life, does this mean you shouldn't change your life paintings? Trying to change a painting on a canvas is like trying to change Turner's Shipwreck because you don't agree with the theme. Why bother? Why not enjoy the painting for what it is, as a representation of what was in the artist's mind at the time? If you want to produce a new kind of painting, fill your chalice with the relevant thoughts and your next life painting is a new expression.

One thing I've never understood is the value placed on certain paintings over another. I've heard of paintings sold for millions of Pounds, while others don't even get a look in. Since all art is coming from the same source and only different because of the chalices (personalities), why should one painting have more value than another?

This is what happens in life, where professions are not given the same value. Actors and performers are paid exceedingly more than, say, a doctor or a teacher. Maybe, entertainment is considered more important because it gives you temporary freedom from whatever reality you find yourself in, which people value over, say, a politician.

It still doesn't explain why one profession is given more value than another. Do we not all emanate from the same source? We do but our motivations are different. Let's say, a teacher gives out an assignment to her class to write an essay about the same topic. The teacher grades the essays according to standards set by the local educational authority. She ends up giving top marks to a few pupils. Let's say I am an external examiner asked to give my unbiased opinion. I may very well agree with the teacher's assessments. Why have a few pupil's essays been judged "excellent" while the majority are considered "mediocre?" It is possible that the pupils who excel are encouraged to be the best they can; and there are those who are not encouraged or who believe they are not good enough. A pupil's mental attitude is bound to affect his performance.

When I was at secondary school, I had two friends who were the top students in my year. One friend's parents expected her to be the best. She was also very intelligent. She was only allowed out on a rare occasion. Her parents believed she should stay home and study.

My other friend's parents believed she should go out and have fun, but encouraged her to do her best. She always had top marks in her tests. Not only was she very generous and loving, she was also one of the most popular girls in school. I couldn't believe it when, in our final year, we became best friends. She taught me that love was about not judging anyone.

Now that I have read the essays and judged them according to human educational standards, am I saying one essay is better than another? Certainly not! Just because Turner appeals to me doesn't make Turner more arty than Dali. I wouldn't call Turner's paintings "art" and Picasso's "houses." Art is art is art. It's up to individuals to appreciate art for art sake, or judge them as good or bad. In an ideal world, a teacher will appreciate all essays as examples of different styles of writing essays; not good or bad essays. Just as there is no good or bad life, just people choosing to live in different ways.

In a reality of choices, is it possible to experience a reality where people are paid the same money or are equally appreciated for their contributions to society? Can a Rembrandt painting be given equal value to a Turner painting? Of course! This is already happening among people who judge nothing as good or bad. Whether this view will become the norm for the majority is based on choice.

It would seem that life, like art, is already perfect. We appear to live in a reality where people are not equal, but that is only because of people's perceptions of reality.

Life is art. How one experiences art is truly "in the eye of the beholder."

I am Life-Art,
Enocia

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The Hard Way or the Easy Way?

"Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit, saith the LORD of hosts." (Zechariah 4: 6)

I'm sitting around doing nothing in particular when a genie appears.

"Hi Enocia," he says.
"Who are you?"
"I'm your genie."
"So? What do you want from me?"
"It's not what I want from you, it's what I can do for you."
"What do you mean?"
"What can I do for you? Name it and it's yours. Do you want money, your dream house, a gorgeous mate? Do you want me to fly you to the moon? Ask and it's done."
"Are you sure about this?"
"Of course."
"Hmmm!"

I am deep in thought about what I want.

"Well?" the genie says.
"Well, I'm thinking...am I you or are you me? I'm thinking, are you an extension of me or am I projecting my thoughts to appear as a genie. I'm thinking that if you manifest a house, is it I creating it or the universal intelligence within all life? I'm thinking..."
"Ah, forget it," the genie snaps. "Why don't you have a long think about my offer. I'm off to have a nap in my lamp. Give it a good rub if you ever need my assistance."

What's he getting so het up about? I was only trying to help.

Jokes aside, isn't that what we're doing. We're trying to get in the way of things happening, thinking too much about stuff. Wisdom is very useful when it's to help me see how dream-like appearances are. It is when I get too deeply into analysing stuff that I get in the way of things happening.

It is yesterday evening, and I'm about to have a bowl of breakfast cereal for my supper. I try to open a bottle of milk. The lid is tightly shut. I can't open it with my hand. I try a kitchen towel so I can get a better grip, it still won't budge. I say to the lid, "open, will you?" I leave it alone for a few seconds. I try opening it again and the lid moves effortlessly, as if a genie has opened it for me. I point this out to my mother. She says "There's nothing too small for God to handle. It's a shame we don't ask enough."

I agree with my mother. It seems I can experience life in two ways, the hard way or the easy way. I can try to do things on my own, using my own strength and willpower or I can let Energy do the work as the following story illustrates:

"A Bhakta and a jnani (a follower of the jnana marga) were walking through a forest and became very thirsty. They came to a deep well with water far down and the sides overgrown with bush and briar. There was no way of obtaining water. The jnani overcame the difficulty by expending great psychic force to assume the form of a bird. Then he flew down through the bushes and briars, losing many feathers on the way. On the other hand, the bhakta yearned for the Lord's grace and called fervently on His name. The Lord hearing and responding, the waters rose to the level of the bhakta who was thus able to slake his thirst completely." (From: "Sai Baba, Man of Miracles," by Howard Murphet)

It was my faith in the infinite intelligence of Universal Energy that opened the bottle of milk. I could have tried to figure out mentally, but what's the use? Why not let it open itself?

Have you ever heard kids praying? They don't pray complicated prayers or try to understand how it happens, they just ask and expect results. I pray that way sometimes, by simply thanking Universal Intelligence for doing such and such and it's done.

Last night in my dreams, I was aware of two versions of myself. There was the me analysing stuff in the dream, then I woke up and thought of the many levels of the dream state. Another part of me said all realities are dreams. I went back to sleep and I was aware of a voice reminding me that every scene was a dream.

Now, in this reality, I don't swim. I'm not scared of water or anything like that, I'm just not into swimming. I am an excellent doggie paddler though. I've had lots of dreams where I can swim. In one dream I had last night, I came across water that looked very murky. I thought I could wade across but it was way too deep. A man took such delight telling me that the water was too deep for me and, at that level, I should expect that kind of depth. He said I would never be able to swim across so I should just forget it. I gave up on the idea and watched others swimming across. Then I heard a voice telling me it was only a dream, and I could change the dream to appear how I wanted. I decided to think myself to the other side. No point getting yourself wet if you don't have to.

Since all levels are dreams, and I can consciously change the events with thought, surely I can apply the same principle to this dream reality we call Earth? This is why I can ask the bottle to open and it does. My dream is to become like my idol, Mary Poppins, whose oneness with all enables her to change her reality instantly.

On second thoughts, maybe I should just get that lazy sod of a genie out of his magic lamp. Hey genie, come out, come out wherever you are!

With love,
Enocia

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The Problem is Your Browser

This piece is dedicated to my Beloved Friend - You know who you are. I love you!

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My friend and I have got similar blogs, but we have different experiences of our blogs. How? It all started when I tried to edit my blog template. I previewed what I had done and it looked as if the template had been updated. When I tried to view my actual blog, which is the web page people see when they log into my blog, I noticed the template hadn't changed. I checked my template and found my edits were not there. How odd! I re-entered the codes and saved them. Again, the edits weren't showing up on the web page. I asked my friend to log in to my blog and check whether I had edited the template or had I dreamt I had changed the template. She checked and found my edits. How peculiar! It kept happening again and again until we both realised the problem was the browser I was using, i.e. the programme that enables one to view websites on the Internet. The browser I was working on was, basically, shite! It only registers changes if I log off and log on again.

It was hilarious having my friend tell me she could see what I'd written, while in my reality, they did not exist. I was living in a physical reality which takes a while for ideas to be made manifest in order for me to experience them as real. To put it another way, my friend was vibrating at a higher frequency so she could experience far more than I could at my lower vibration. Sounds a lot like the 3-D realm here on planet Earth.

Browsers remind me of different paradigms of reality. Everyone has their dominant view of reality i.e. how you interpret reality. Your view might be influenced by a religious, political or philosophical doctrine, and this is how you will perceive reality. Someone else, who is not into the doctrines you follow, will see the world in a different way. What if you have no interest in that religion, does that mean you're not going to understand the other person's point of view? It depends. If you want to have an understanding of the other, you either need to have some kind of background of where the other is coming from; or you have to be at a level where you have an overview of all experiences.

What is this level where one can have an overview of all experiences? It is a level where all is in agreement, regardless of experiences. It is a level that transcends beliefs and doctrines. I believe this level to be Source. Source unifies all perspectives. Source appreciates all perspectives. Source judges no experience as right or wrong. Source embraces all.

Source is the ultimate all knowing, all seeing browser.

If you're ever having problems relating to someone, it could be your browser. I would recommend you try version SOURCE, and you will find you have no problems at all.

All my love,
Enocia

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Money, Transaction and Free Market

Money, that thing people strive for. You fight to have it, work hard for it, con people to get more of it, and even kill for it. Is it worth it? Well, we live in a reality where everything appears to have a price.

Speaking of killing for money, I watched a movie recently called "A Perfect Murder." Stephen Taylor, a powerful businessman, suspects his wife, Emily, of having an affair. Emily is having an affair with an artist called David. Stephen is in financial crisis and hires David, of all people, to murder his wife, so he can inherit her wealth. After the first attempt when Emily kills her assailant, she discovers her husband is in financial dire straights. Emily suspects her husband of hiring someone to kill her. When she confronts Stephen, he denies it. He says, "there's a sea of money out there, I can make it back anytime." Stephen's idea of making money is to have his wife killed. Unfortunately for him, his wife is no push-over; she ends up killing him. I liked the line "sea of money." Imagine what the world would be like if everyone thought of the universe as a sea or ocean of money! Hold that thought!

Look around you, what do you see? Do you see people, cars, businesses, houses etc? I see money. Money, money, money everywhere! Naturally, not all forms appear as bank notes. To have those readies, you need to convert them. An individual's market value is based on one's qualifications, skills and experience. You convert your skills and experience into a job; and in exchange you get access to readies, which you convert to another commodity like a house, food or clothes. Transaction is how majority of people experience this reality? Is transaction the only way? Of course not. I will discuss the free option later.

There are other ways people have created to have access to their good. They have come up with tithing, where you are supposed to give God 10% of what you have, which will be returned to you multiplied. As it is written in the scriptures:

Bring ye all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be meat in mine house, and prove me now herewith, saith the LORD of hosts, if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it. (Malachi 3: 10)

Why would God, who is supposed to have it all, want anything from us? Unless tithing was a means of getting people to give to those self-professed mediators, who stand between man and God. I've never bought into tithing. It reeks of manipulation. Besides, it is another method of transaction.

Humans have also come up with the idea of giving and it will be given to you. You can give to others whatever you choose or you can bless others. (Tithing is part of this system). Those who follow the biblical Jesus' teachings will remember that he says:

Give, and it shall be given unto you; good measure, pressed down, and shaken together, and running over, shall men give into your bosom. For with the same measure that ye mete withal it shall be measured to you again. (Luke 6: 38)

I see this as another example of exchange. You give and it is given back to you. That's cool! But what's to stop you from expecting what you have given to return to you multiplied a million-fold or more? Who makes up the rules about how much something should be multiplied? Hey, why not go for broke and demand that all your good deeds, as we collectively understand good deeds, be multiplied and return to you NOW? It is your life, you make the rules up. Don't let someone else tell you what or how you should receive.

Now it's become popular for people, particularly those within "spiritual" communities, to provide a service and, instead of asking for a price, they ask for a donation. That confuses me. It's like going to church and in the middle of the service, the collection bag comes round. How much do you give? What if you don't want to give? You end up feeling guilty for not doing your part. You even believe God is not going to bless you as you haven't tithed your 10%. You've been given a service you thought was free but it wasn't. Why don't people who ask for donations just come clean? You have provided a service and you want something back? Put a price on it, whatever you think it's worth. No one's going to judge you for it because everyone knows that in this reality you need money to survive. Your service is not free if you are expecting donations!

I have to hand it to the Hari Krishna religion. I used to go to their temples to chant. They believe in exchange of services. All those people you see chanting "Hari Krishna" do their part within the temples and within the Hari Krishna community, working for Krishna. You might get food but you're expected to give something back in return.

There are some organisations that ask for donations and have a suggested amount. That's fine. It's the ones that don't state an amount that I'm suspicious of. Why? Because I know what goes on behind the scenes. Believe me, I've paid good money to be taught how to programme people. Did you know that you can programme brochures you send out so that people are attracted to your course. Now don't go analysing brochures, flyers or newsletters for the embedded commands, as you're not going to find them. It's a lot more sophisticated than that. Programming is done at a subliminal level. It is called the power of intent. It is like prayer but a lot more sophisticated. I can write an article, for instance, and intend that people reading it will feel x or y or they will do z. You can intend anything you like, if you believe it is possible. So those organisations that don't ask for a specific amount can easily intend how much they expect to receive from their clients and they will have it.

I respect spiritual organisations who are very committed to their cause and know how to have their needs met. Take the one that promotes the teachings of the ascended masters. They teach decrees you can use to have your supplies met.

BELOVED Mighty I AM Presence, beloved Mighty Victory and Your Limitless Legions of Cosmic Victory, I command the Ascended Masters' Indestructible Victory of Perfection without limit of all the Cosmic Supply, riches, and money I could ever require in my service to the Light! You release into my hands and use now, tax free, the millions of dollars that I desire to assist beloved Saint Germain in His Great Work of the centuries! I demand the Ascended Masters' Indestructible Victory of Eternal, ever-expanding, never-ending Supply, come into my hands and use now! Charge me with the Ascended Masters' Management of all the Supply, riches and money that You release to me! And charge me with Your Ascended Master Judgment and Wisdom of how to use this money! (SUPPLY)

With such a decree, do you think this organisation will ever go without? Not blooming likely!

Is it possible to live in a reality where all things are free? Of course it is. If you can ask the question, it already exists. It is just that people are not open to this possibility. People who are living in this reality give without expecting anything in return. In this reality, everything is free, and I mean everything: money, fuel, clothes, housing, healing, travel, food, ideas etc. The way it works is you either receive what you need for free or you receive free money which you end up converting into whatever you need, since we live in a reality of conversion and exchange. As this reality is free, you wouldn't dream of asking for something back, unless you have to (which I shall discuss shortly). I guess it becomes so ingrained in you that you naturally give everything for free.

Just because majority of people are experiencing a reality of exchange, doesn't make them wrong for doing so. Someone is not bad because she wants to make heaps of money in the world's sense of transaction. I will always support the rights of individuals to experience life according to their beliefs.

In a similar vein, If you decide to experience a reality based on everything being free, then that is also your choice. Let's say you are living in a reality of giving without expectations, but the one you're giving to is of a transactional mentality. What usually happens is that when you give for free, the other will feel inclined to want to give back in return. I hold no judgment if someone reacts in that way. I will graciously accept the offer. On the other hand, if someone of a transactional mentality gives expecting something in return, I will have to give according to her expectations.

I believe a reality of transaction is not better than a reality where everything is free. When you think about it, even if you were to spend every moment of eternity giving, you won't make a dent on infinity. So it makes no difference how you choose to give. I say, let people experience whatever reality they believe to be true.

I believe money is very important and is neither good nor bad, it's how you choose to use it that counts.

I am Money,
Enocia

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The Eight-Pointed Star

One way I see myself is as an eight-pointed star. This eight-pointed star is my personality Self which is all love, power and wisdom. The eight-pointed star is me as Source.

Every moment, liquid light is being poured from this star like a shower all over my body. I feel the liquid light is purple, a colour I can resonate with. The light never stops pouring through me. It is like a volcanic eruption which concretises any thoughts or beliefs I have, like molten lava solidifying into rocks. Since the flow is continuous, this means every moment I have the opportunity to create myself anew.

When I have no thoughts or beliefs, the flow is effectively my Perfect unlimited Self pouring through. When I am writing, it is the liquid light I am transmuting into words. If I ever have a moment when I need clarity, I have to remind myself that the liquid light is forever pouring through me and ask it to become the clarity I need, and it is so.

I also use the eight-pointed star during healing. This morning I felt stiffness in my back. I moved the Star to my back and let it permeate through me and I was instantly healed. I now realise the Star can be called upon to do so much more. It gives its impersonal love to me, according to my expectations.

I am aware that everyone has their version of Source. You might perceive Source in a different form but it is present. For Source is who you are.

I am the Eight-Pointed Star,
Enocia

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Perceptions of Me Versus the Real Me

Have you ever wondered how others see you? Maybe people see the outer shell and draw conclusions from that shell. Maybe others get a glimpse into what you are like behind the shell, and it is that person they love. How do you see yourself?

As I am in a black body, I would imagine there are many who perceive me in a particular way, based on their perception of what it means to be black. I used to identify myself as black and took things so personally when my "black brothers and sisters" were racially abused. Then I moved out of that identity. I realised I was a lot more than a skin colour.

I also went through a phase of trying to understand myself as a woman. I felt I was treated differently because I was a woman and I wanted to understand why.I studied feminist ideas, joined women's groups and got outraged. Then I realised I was a lot more than a gender, so much more.

I've been told by many people that I either look like a student or a teacher. I remember meeting a man who was interested in going out with me. He said I looked like a teacher. What does a teacher look like? I am very curious because as a child I always knew I would be a writer, but I also had fantasies about becoming a teacher.

I spent hours and hours playing with my imaginary friends. My "friends" were my pupils and I was a primary school teacher. My pupils were as thick as two short planks. As they always got my questions wrong, they always got whacked. I was a strict disciplinarian, like my real life teachers who doled out corporal punishments at the drop of a hat. Just as well my invisible friends didn't have physical bodies.

So, when a few people have said I look like a teacher, I wonder whether I look like a stern, no-nonsense, type; or a kind, very accessible type. What difference does it make? It's only another mask of how others perceive me. It is not who I am.

I've been told by others that I could have been a model. I have been told I am very pretty in an exotic way, whatever that means, and I would make a good cat walk model. Again, that's another way of perceiving me. I personally think my physical body is very attractive, but then, so what? It is not who I am.

Others who I haven't met in person have drawn conclusions from my writings. While my writings are part of me, they are an infinitesimal part of who I am. I am a whole lot more.

One question I have asked myself is "what do I really look like?" I have had various bodies presented to me, no doubt, based on my belief at the time. I see myself as a body of light. I see myself as a diamond. I see myself as a purple amorphous mass. I see myself as an eight-pointed star. I see myself as White Light. The latest is that I am a symbol of Infinity. One thing I've never seen myself as is a humanoid form. I have imagined myself looking like a real babe, but in reality, it is not what my real identity is. Now that I know what I look like in reality, I can create my physical body to look however I want, as my physical attributes have nothing to do with who I am. My body is just an illusion.

How others see me depends on their beliefs and expectations which is meaningless. How I see myself is based on changing beliefs, which is also meaningless. But the real Me is not confined to a body in time and space. The real Me is unlimited. That sounds good to Me.

I Am What I Am,
Enocia

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Freedom - Breaking the Habit of a Lifetime

Two days ago, I met a lovely woman on the bus. She was from Bulgaria but now lives in Germany. She and her husband were in London for two days. She was trying to get to a toy store in central London. As our bus had only gone part of the way, I offered to walk her to the store. She was looking frazzled as she was supposed to meet her husband outside the store, but she was running late. She said she was always late and her husband would have left by now. I tried to reassure her that maybe he was still waiting for her, but she was adamant he had already left. She said she tries her best to be punctual, but there's always something preventing her from being punctual. There had been a problem on the tube (underground train), that's why she ended up coming by bus. When we arrived at the toy store her husband had already left, as she had expected. We exchanged hugs and best wishes and I left her to enjoy her shopping.

Later, I pondered over habits. Was my friend always late because she's got into that habit; and was her husband in the habit of expecting her to be late? It would seem that the Universe was helping her to turn up late. I would imagine there is always the option for her to be on time, but she is probably so used to being late, she ends up creating tardy experiences.

How do you break away from a habit that you consciously don't wish to experience? Breaking away involves freeing yourself from that reality, but in order to be free you have to be disciplined. It sounds like a contradiction, doesn't it? How can you experience freedom and discipline when discipline suggests rules and regimen?

Let's take the example of the woman who is always late, though she tries her best to be punctual. She has got into the habit which has become automatic. Even when she consciously wishes to be punctual, the habitual pattern of being late seems to be in control, or is it? From my experience, I know that any decision one wishes to experience already exists. However, if your belief is not congruent with your goal, you're likely to create a parallel reality opposing your goal. When you are focused only on your goal you end up creating it. On the other hand, if you wish to achieve such and such and have doubts that it will manifest, you are likely to create that which you give more attention to. "Where attention goes, energy flows." For the new reality to manifest, it requires discipline.

The woman who was always late has to see herself arriving on time and knows she can do it. I'm sure there have been many times when she has arrived on time. She might have had a job when she had to be punctual. She, therefore, has evidence of punctuality. It's a matter of transferring evidence of punctuality over to the way she relates to her husband. She might even want to ask her husband to recall times when she was on time. I'm sure there have been many, it's just that her husband only focuses on the times when she is late, which becomes their shared reality.

Discipline, in the above example, is a willingness to be open to a new reality, a determination to be focused only on what you choose to experience. Discipline is also a willingness to find evidence that the reality you wish to experience already exists. If you can see it, you can have it.

I have had experiences of following a particular teaching then I realise I wish to relinquish that paradigm and experience a new reality. I've found the transition period hard - letting go of old ideas and friends associated with that school of thought. I have found that I have had to be ruthless. Fortunately, I have a lot of evidence of ruthlessness.

For years, I did contract work and I got into the practice of disconnecting from the company and my colleagues the moment I walked out of the door. Naturally, I developed good friendships in majority of my contracts. The friendships which survived were those that were open to new experiences, not simply confined to our shared work reality. I have a dear friend I met at a contract nearly 10 years ago who I've stayed in contact with. We don't see much of each other but we keep in contact by email. We've both changed a lot over the years yet our friendship has sustained because we appreciate each other's experiences.

In terms of leaving a paradigm, just because you are no longer physically with a group doesn't mean you're not still connected to that group. There have been times when I have found myself being influenced by the group or school of thought, even when I was physically disconnected. In that case, I wasn't free, I was still in mental bondage to that group. To be mentally free is when you are able to express yourself in your unique way without reverting to a group's idea of how one should live one's life. I am free when I do what I love in the way I choose. I am free when I wish people in a particular group all the very best in their choices and have no desire to be in that group.

I have experienced freedom in two ways: the hard way and the easy way. The hard way is when I have tried to be free by mentally freeing myself. I will find myself thinking of x that I wish to be free from and have to develop strategies of not thinking of x. Or I try to understand the truth behind why I'm still attached to x. While some techniques work they are only temporary or I end up only getting over x by replacing x with y. And so it continues.

When I studied energy healing, we were advised how to cut the energetic strings that attach you to ideas and people. A healer, for instance, must disconnect from her patient or she is likely to fall ill from the same disease or worse. In the same way, we were taught how to instantly disconnect from recurring thoughts and habits that you no longer wish to experience as reality. The problem with old habits is you disconnect and disconnect and they're back for more. This is the hard route of attaining freedom. This route reminds me of the Jnana path of yoga where you are seeking freedom through your understanding of truth. It could take you ages.

The second approach to freedom is very easy. It involves submitting to Freedom. I trust in the concept Freedom to do the work. So if I have a desire to be free of a certain idea, I become one with Freedom from the idea. My oneness with Freedom removes the desire to have the experience. Where there is no desire for experience, there is no longer an attachment to an idea. For instance, if you are trying to give up smoking, you can try to understand why you smoke and the benefits of smoking, or whether it is true that smoking kills. Or you can be at one with Freedom from smoking, where this oneness removes the desire for cigarettes and beliefs that smoking kills. You end up living in a reality where smoking and its related beliefs have no existence. Freedom has effectively wiped out all memories - personal and shared - of smoking. This approach reminds me of the Bhakti path of Yoga, which is the path of Love.

A word or two about memories. I believe we only have memories because we've got into the habit of believing memories enable one to experience life. You could say, another word for memories is lessons. I observe humans to have two types of memories: ones that help you experience life, and ones that are meaningless.

Brushing one's teeth is the first type of memory. I brush my teeth every day. I have it on memory how to do it so I don't have to think about it. I only think about brushing my teeth when I need to. Memories can be stored away to be used as and when.

The second type - meaningless memories - are ones I can't do anything with. I see hundreds of people every day. While part of me records them, I don't consciously feel they are relevant to my life. The experiences that mean anything are those that are part of my life experience, like the encounter I had with the woman I described earlier.

Do we really need memories to experience life? Do I need to remember to brush my teeth or how to brush my teeth? I believe we don't. I believe that when I trust implicitly in Freedom, It will annihilate all memories and I will have a different experience of life. What do I mean? How can we not need memories? Are you losing your memory?

I believe when I experience Freedom, every moment is new. I believe eternity is unchanging and every moment emerges from and dissolves into eternity. Each moment is a stand-alone moment that is pristine and new. Let me put it another way. I believe I have infinite bodies that are beautiful, perfect, ageless and unlimited. Every moment, a body emerges from Infinity, which should wipe out all evidence of aging. The reason why it doesn't happen is because of memory. You have on the one hand infinite beauty, perfection, eternal youth and freedom being thrust upon you; on the other hand, you have the memory body fighting for dear life, reminding you that every moment you are aging and approaching death. Who wins? Immortality in the long run. Instead of experiencing immortality at every moment, we experience immortality in segments. These segments are popularly called lifetimes. You have a bit of life here, and another life there, evolving to become an immortal being rather than experiencing immortality now. I believe oneness with Freedom wipes out all memories, and every moment is new. Only then does mortality cease to have reality.

For argument's sake, I'm now experiencing immortality in every moment, where every moment is new, what is the point of recording life experiences in music, art and drama? Why write when every moment is new? Good point! I believe I record my experiences for two reasons. The first is pure narcissism - to record the fact that I have lived. The second reason is a demonstration of ever new experiences. You see, I have a ritual I follow after writing every article. After I have finished the article, I usually ponder over it for a short while, then I disconnect from the experience. Why? Because I know tomorrow is another day with new revelations. If I hold on to the old, I will not open myself up to the new. Thus, my writings are an opportunity to demonstrate that every day brings a new adventure.

I travel a lot on the bus and I can tell you that no bus journey is ever the same. I like to think of bus routes as eternity; they never change. But the actual bus journey is the equivalent of a day emerging from eternity, which is ever new and filled with rich possibilities.

What I'm saying is that when I submit to Freedom, I can experience untold realities because, in truth, every moment is new. It is the belief that memories/lessons help me to experience life which blocks out infinite possibilities. Imagine a reality where you can experience life afresh every moment. This will annihilate all memories or need to have memories. There's no need to brush my teeth when my teeth are forever sparkling and new. No need to have a bath as my body is forever perfect and clean. No need to eat as every moment I am energised and full. Imagine living in a reality where you are completely whole in every moment! Imagine living in a reality where you are already immortal! Surely that is what true Freedom is about?

In a reality where I'm whole and complete, would I need to have experiences of forms? Maybe that is the ultimate purpose of life, to experience freedom to the extent where you realise that it is pointless having a form experience since I'm already perfect. Or it could be that I am so whole and complete that I can see the dream body for what it is - a simulation; which I can choose to experience knowing full well that the simulation has no effect on what is already free. I can eat knowing full that the meal and the body are simulations. At least that's my excuse for indulging in chocolate. What's yours?

Breaking the habit of a lifetime requires Freedom. You need discipline in order to be free. If you are doing it the hard way, you have to be disciplined in your thoughts. If you are doing it the easy way you still need discipline in letting Freedom do the work, letting Freedom reveal to you untold possibilities.

I feel so excited thinking about these possibilities.

I now firmly declare, "Freedom, I am all yours. Let's do it!"

I am Freedom,
Enocia

For other writings see Vector8 writings

What is Love?

I've heard the word "love" used so many times. I have pondered over what love means and whether we all mean the same thing. I've come to the conclusion that, as long as I know what it means for me and live that principle, it's the only thing that matters. I am now going to share my understanding of love. If we share the same definition, good. If we don't, good.

I believe there are two types of love: impersonal and personal.

Impersonal love stems from Source, that which is the source of life and experiences. Source is Energy. Source is eternal, was never born nor can it ever die. It is Source that is having life as me, through my unique personality. By personality, I'm referring to my uniqueness as immortal Spirit, which is the real me. When I wish to have an experience, Source provides the Energy necessary. Source doesn't judge my experiences as good or bad. It is up to me, the personality, to decide whether I like that experience or I can choose again. This way, I am a free Spirit.

Impersonal love is therefore one that encourages me to be myself, to choose what I would like to experience, and to accept all experiences without judgment. In other words to express freedom. I believe impersonal love is my basic nature. No matter what I'm going through I always feel impersonal love. I believe impersonal love is the essence of all life.

The second type of love, personal, is what enables one to experience life. As my unique Spirit self, I can create universes, species etc. But to experience life in, say, a human form with other unique Spirit entities, there has to be a kind of symbiosis. This symbiosis is the second type of personal love, which arises from a personal desire to experience life. Personal love is a state of oneness, a temporary creation of one mind, where you have commonalities or share experiences, objectives and view points. It is personal love that enables humanity to survive, and all species for that matter.

I observe personal love can manifest in various ways, such as personal desires for something - food, writing, travel, politics, media - love for friends, family, nature, humanity, all life, etc. Personal love is motivated by desire for experiences and lasts as long as the experience. Thus, personal love is temporal.

I believe when many people describe love for another they are referring to personal love. You can't compel someone to love you since personal love is dependent on a wish to share an experience together for a while.

Take, for example, human intimate relationships. You are attracted to someone because he meets your requirements of a partner. It is possible you could have pre-arranged this meeting in order for you to experience life together. You are of one mind and are expressing personal love for one another. I have noticed some couples who are of such one mind that they start to resemble each other. What happens when the relationship doesn't work out? It could be that you have stopped feeling personal love for one another due to the fact that you no longer share the same desires or you wish to have new experiences. Although you no longer wish to be together, you still feel impersonal love for one another, the love that wishes the other well and respects the other person's choice to experience life. That is the ideal situation.

Unfortunately, for most people, when a relationship ends you are far from being in a state of impersonal love. You might be feeling hurt and you want to lash out at the other. Since you are not realising you are fundamentally impersonal love, who is here to experience life, and that all is free to experience life, you are only thinking of your personal love and want to impose that love on your partner. It is a bitter split and you never want to lay eyes on the other again. It might take you a long time to get over that individual.

Personal love can extend to include family and close friends only. This is why you will find a man who loves his family and friends so much, he will do anything for them, even lay down his life for them, but may appear not to give a hoot about his neighbour. It doesn't make him a bad person, it just means he's not aware of his impersonal loving nature.

There are people who feel intense personal love for a cause or belief. I've heard of animal activists who feel such personal love for animals and nature, they will kill to protect a tree or an animal.

There are those whose personal love reach far and wide to embrace their nation or humanity as a whole, where this love wishes to serve humanity. That is fine if that's what the individual wishes to experience. The danger is personal love can lead to mental slavery where some people want to impose their love for their country on another, resulting in ideologies where people are under control.

I believe the ideal way to love is realising you are impersonal love whose nature is non-judgmental, accepting of people's choices, considerate and free to experience life. When you feel that way, you allow others to be the same. So whether you choose to experience personal love or not, you are always being yourself - impersonal love.

While I was pondering over these ideas on the bus, I heard a young man on his mobile phone. He was speaking to his girlfriend. The intensity in his voice revealed his feelings for her. He was trying to reassure her that he would be at her place as soon as he could. He said "Promise you'll text me. Promise." After that conversation, his phone rang again. This time it sounded like a male friend. The conversation only lasted a few minutes which was straight to the point. His friend wanted information, he responded and that was the end of their conversation. His voice sounded brusque but friendly in a "guy to guy" way, as some men have been conditioned to behave. I observed the two phone calls as two versions of personal love: friendship and intimate relationship.

On the same bus, I noticed a man sitting near a window. Soon, another man and his young daughter got on and were looking for seats. The man near the window offered his seat so the man and his daughter could sit together. That was a demonstration of impersonal love.

Although I know my nature is impersonal love, I have fun with personal love. Sometimes it feels as if I'm only experiencing personal love. When I feel immense personal love, I feel joyful and playful. I am at one mind with whoever I'm communicating with and it feels magical, in the sense that we express each other's thoughts. Our relationship is easy and harmonious. When I feel personal love, I'm in harmony with whatever I am doing. It could be harmony with my fellow passengers, or friends, colleagues, and family. When I'm feeling personal love and I'm on my own, I explore things I love and have lots of fun. I attract people who love what I love for that moment only or it could be the beginning of a long friendship. No matter what, personal love is always fun.

There are many times when I feel impersonal love. If I am not in rapport with someone i.e. the other's behaviour is not in harmony with my personal choice, I express impersonal love. I see the other as a spirit being expressing himself the way he chooses and I give him the freedom to be. If someone is being critical of me, I become myself, impersonal love, where, again, I give the other the freedom to express self according to belief. My words, when I'm feeling impersonal love, might sound cold and detached, but that is me expressing what I innately am.

According to my understanding of love, I am always expressing love.

I am Love,
Enocia

For other writings see Vector8 writings

The YES ZONE

I am my unique personality experiencing life. Every experience is supported by Source, which I believe is the Energy needed to experience one's objective. Source Energy is how I define Love. This Love judges no one.

I have heard it said that there is a God who gives you what is good for you, rather than what you want. What would be the point of experiencing life on your own if this God judges what is good for you? In any case, if "God" gave you what was good for you rather what you want, how come I've attracted circumstances in my life which I later regretted? I believe there is only Source and our unique personalities. I believe that it is I, as Source, giving myself, the personality the opportunity to experience life. Thus, Source says "Yes" to all experiences.

As I believe Source says Yes to all experiences I, the personality, have to say Yes in order for the experience to be made manifest. I call it being in the YES ZONE. I put out the intent and stay open for the experience, which is a state of oneness with the goal. If I block the "channel" by having conflicting feelings then I lose the opportunity at that moment to be in oneness with the goal, and attract a reality that is in opposition to that particular oneness.

One sure way I have found to be in conflict is when you are in a position of denial or defence.

Yesterday , I put myself in a state of defence. I guess it was playing on my mind on the way home last night. I saw a woman, I met recently on another bus, at the bus stop. She asked me whether I was getting a particular bus into the west end. I said no. I had a thought that maybe I should go into town and not go home as yet. But I was feeling cold and it had started to rain. When I arrived home, my mother was out. I only have the top key so I couldn't let myself in. I thought I would wait for her at the local station. I also sent a thought to my mother telling her where I was waiting.

I realised I had received the signs to delay my journey home but I had ignored them. In the meantime, it was getting colder and raining hard. At one point I could feel my bones rattling. The more I focused on how cold it was, the colder it became. Then I changed my thoughts. I thought about how warm I was feeling. Suddenly a waft of warm air blew in my face. Since I was standing outside, I knew it wasn't a physical heat. I was in the YES ZONE, where I was at one with warmth and it was manifested.

Another bus came along. I took it, hoping my mother had taken another route home. My mother had still not arrived. Again, I walked back to the station. I had a thought what time she would arrive. It had stopped raining. Was it my imagination or had it turned a lot milder? I felt warmth all over. I waited at the bus stop for my mother. When our bus arrived, I saw my mother. I hadn't noticed that she'd been waiting upstairs, exactly where I had been waiting earlier. It would seem she had received my "telepathic" message after all. I could have saved myself a lot of hassle if I had waited. She had also arrived at the time I had thought she would.

My mother said she would have been home hours earlier but her journey by tube (underground) was delayed. She had resorted to using the bus which had taken a long time. She also said she'd been expecting me to be in the west end. I now understood why I had considered going to the west end, which would have been an opportunity to synchronise our journeys. I had been in the YES ZONE all along but I had failed to listen to the signs. Instead, the state of defence I had been in earlier had distracted me into experiencing an alternate reality - failing to synchronise our journeys.

I believe Energy says Yes to all experiences. But in order for the experience to manifest, I have to be in the YES ZONE. The YES ZONE is a state of oneness with one's goal, which may or may not involve others. You could also define the YES ZONE as being of One Mind at that moment. In the YES ZONE I have to be open and not get defensive, otherwise I end up creating an alternate reality (or realities) in opposition to my goal.

The truth is the YES ZONE is always present.

Source says Yes to all experiences. It is up to me to shout Yes in return by being in the YES ZONE.

I am the YES ZONE,
Enocia

For other writings see Vector8 writings

Are We of the One Mind?

The genetic mind is the equivalent of a universal belief system that penetrates, to varying degrees, the human instrument of all entities. In some, it immobilizes their ability to think original thoughts and feel original feelings. In most, it entrains their belief system to harmonize with the accepted belief systems of the Hierarchy. In a few, it exerts no significant force nor has any bearing on the development of their personal belief system.

...The genetic mind is different from the subconscious or universal mind as it is sometimes referred to in your psychology texts, in that the genetic mind has a peculiar focus on the accumulated beliefs of all the people on a planet from its most distant past to its present time. These accumulated beliefs are actually manipulations of the Hierarchy, which imprint on the genetic mind in order to cast the boundaries of what is acceptable to believe.

So compelling is this manipulation and the boundaries that are imposed by the Hierarchy that virtually no one is aware of the manipulations of their beliefs. (The Genetic Mind)

Have you ever met people who try to make decisions for you based on their beliefs? They think they are doing it for your own good. "We are all One, therefore, my idea of morality is your idea of morality." When you stand firm in your principles, you're considered an iconoclast, a rebel or anti-social. Everyone is free to have their own views and live how they want. I will not stand for anyone imposing their beliefs on me.

What people, who want us to think the same way, don't realise is they are also being manipulated by the "system." Before you know it, you hear people speaking and acting the same way. All forms of uniqueness have been stamped out. Why don't you just make people into robots and get it over and done with?

Imagine you're in a library and you get an urge for chocolate. Suddenly, everyone gets up and leave. What's going on, you wonder? You haven't heard the fire alarm go off. Why are they all leaving? You ask someone and he says he's off to the shops to get some chocolate. Small world, you think! You ask another woman and she says she's going to the shops to buy some chocolate. How bizarre! You ask a third person and he says he's off to get some chocolate. Incredible! Out of curiousity, you follow everyone and sure enough they are all heading off to the local shops. You notice people coming out of the shops eating chocolates. You enter a shop and you see a long queue; each customer is buying chocolate. You notice the shop assistants are also eating chocolate. It is then you realise that your desire for chocolate has inspired everyone to have chocolate.

How did this happen? Because you are the equivalent of the Queen Bee. Thus, whenever you have a thought, the worker bees, humanity, act on your thoughts. How do you feel having so much power over all? If you are a "worker" bee, would you like to be at someone's beck and call all the time? Wouldn't you like to have your own desires?

I'm a big fan of Star Trek. There is a particular alien species called the Borg. The Borgs are half-human and half machine. The Borgs go around assimilating other species. Their objective is to create a perfect One Mind species. All Borgs are connected to this grid system and they all share the same thoughts. Every Borg's objective is to act out the plan of the Borg collective. In a way you are never alone, but you never have any privacy.

I've been thinking, is this what the "hierarchy" referred to in the above quote, want humanity to be like, to have a Borg mentality? I am seeing this happen a lot where the government wants to do our thinking for us, and media companies want to select the kind of programmes we should watch, etc.

Let's return to the people who rushed off to the shops to buy chocolate. They had no desires of their own. Is this how Source, that which I believe is Energy and source of life, wants us to act? What would be the point of experiencing life if we all had the same thoughts and motivations? The game would be over, surely? I'm thinking that reality must have been designed in a way where everyone gets to experience life the way they choose. The plan must be that everyone is Source, while also having unique personalities, in order that there will be infinite experiences. More about our uniqueness later.

If I was designed to have a unique experience, what's all this about humans "falling from Grace," and that we are in lack because we have disobeyed the "Father's will?" If all is Source and Source has designed life so everyone can experience life how they choose, doesn't this mean we are experiencing the one will of Source? Can you be in lack when you are Source? Unless the very people who are teaching others how to live have been feeding their students misinformation, so they can keep people under bondage.

What do I mean by bondage? Bondage come in many ways. You could be led to believe you need a teacher, that you can't know yourself any other way. You could be programmed into believing you are separated from Source because of your self-will, and you have to surrender to the "Father's will," i.e. the programmer's idea of what the "Father's will" is. Maybe the teachers don't know any better and have also been programmed.

Well sod this for a game of soldiers! My bullshit-o-metre can see right through the scam. I see that there is no separation and no fall from Grace. I see that I am Source, have always been Source and will always be Source. The only separation that occurs is those who step in the way acting as teachers to guide humanity back home. I am already home. I am Source. I am to experience life how I choose to, knowing full well who I am. As Source, everyone has a choice. You can choose to experience a live of tests and lessons, or you can have a ball being yourself without limits.

The irony for those who impose their beliefs on others or believing thinking for others is for their highest good is that they are caught in a trap. If it is so ingrained in you that everyone needs everyone else to move forward or attain enlightenment, that is all you are going to experience. So in a way they are only acting out of what they believe to be true, they don't know any better.

Here's another irony. An individual who knows her identity as Source ends up, unwittingly, controlling the collective. How is that possible? The prevalent belief is there is only one Mind. One Mind means just that one Mind which does the thinking for you. When someone realises that she is the One Mind, effectively, she becomes the thinker. So whatever the thinker thinks, the mass will have to obey. It is the belief in One Mind that makes people think that the whole needs everyone in order to succeed. What if that wasn't the case at all? What if we were all individual personality Gods, since we are Infinite Energy/Source. How we experience life is up to us. You can choose to experience what it feels like to be of One Mind, or you opt out of it.

I believe that there isn't just One Mind, but you can create One Mind to achieve a goal. When a group of people are trying to achieve an objective, they are acting with One Mind. This is what also goes on in companies. Each employee has his role within the company and working to fulfil the company's mission statement. But it's a choice you make to be within that setting. When you have had enough or you wish to experience another reality, you can disconnect from that version of One Mind.

What I object to is when people want to force a One Mind view on everyone so they can think the same way in all situations. There is already collective consciousness or One Mind mentality in races, cultures, gender, sexuality, family, politics, philosophies, medicine etc. Now they want us to be One Mind humans. What about our uniqueness. Am I supposed to squander my uniqueness for a One Mind reality?

I believe we are all unique because of my personal experiences. It could be argued that I see people as unique because I have that belief anyway. Be that as it may, this is my experience. Anyway, just last night while I was on the bus, I had a thought about a man I met recently. He's only an acquaintance but he came to mind. A few stops down, he got on the bus. Why had I thought about him? Because I had sensed his energy signature which is uniquely his.

A few days ago I had a thought about my mother's niece. I wondered whether my mother had been in touch with her when her brother died, as she hadn't telephoned. My mother was out at the time so I made a mental note to ask her when she returned. The phone rang while I was having this thought. I let the answer-phone pick it up. Since it is an internal answering system, I couldn't hear who the caller was. Later I asked my mother about her niece. She went to pick up her phone messages and found a message from her niece's partner, who had called at the very same time I had the thought earlier. The interesting thing is I have spoken to her on the phone a few times, but I have never met her in person. Yet I was able to pick up on her signals, albeit through her partner, whom I've never met either. How had I picked up on her signal? Because of its uniqueness.

I pick up people's signals all the time. Many times I choose not to respond or filter out the signals. Just like material science proves we have unique finger prints, I believe we all have energetic "finger prints" which you can read. I am convinced of our uniqueness.

So I no longer buy into the "truth" of the One Mind. I believe you can form One Mind to achieve an objective. People who follow a common pursuit seem to achieve a lot with the One Mind. I believe being of One Mind is a choice you make. It's like joining a political group where you tap into the collective philosophy and you share similar views.This is how various legislations are passed through parliament due to the One Mind consciousness working towards a goal.

Some of us choose to walk alone because we have chosen to disconnect from the One Mind mentality in all forms. Personally, it is because I am so resolute in my uniqueness, the "hierarchy" has no power over me.

"In a few, it exerts no significant force nor has any bearing on the development of their personal belief system." (The Genetic Mind)

I believe there is a purpose for one's uniqueness which is to experience life in all its glory. You have a choice to be in a group or not. I believe the notion of separation is an illusion. I believe to "wake" up to who I am is to realise that I am unique with my own mind which consists of Source + my unique personality. I believe every entity has been created the same way.

I believe we have, during our many experiences, formed groups and alliances which end up creating races and other species. These alliances have helped to create a belief of One Mind, which can make you feel "disconnected" from your unique personality.

Most of all, I believe in my unique personality and Source. It is Source that enables my uniqueness to come into being.

Source + Uniqueness = Experience = Love = Enocia

For other writings see Vector8 writings

Time Versus No-Time

"For a thousand years in thy sight are but as yesterday when it is past, and as a watch in the night." (Psalm 90: 4)

""I AM" is the present tense for all time" (Christ in You)

Is time real? Does time exist? What is the purpose of time?

I am taking a walk at night. I look up at the sky and I see strobe lights darting back and forth, making multicoloured patterns on the purple sky. I could very easily be in a planetarium or watching a movie with special effects and I will not be able to tell the difference. Tonight feels very mild, warmer than it was during the day. Curious! Earlier, I spoke to a girl I have been seeing on my bus. She's from Belgium. I asked her what the French word for mild was. It feels like it could be mild for eternity.

I personally see time as not happening. I believe every day emerges from and dissolves into eternity. Each day is the same as the one before and the one to come. When you experience days as the same, and every moment as the same, you are getting a glimpse into No-Time.

What is she going on about, no time? How can someone have no time when we appear to experience time? We all have 24 hours each day to do as we wish, don't we?

I'm saying we don't all have time in our hands. We appear to have 24 hours a day only if you believe you have time. There are two types of people/entities: those who have time and those who don't - Time versus No-Time people/entities.

Time is very much real to Time people. When you have time, you automatically project yourself or ideas in time and space. Even the language you use has time connotations:

"I will achieve such and such."
"I will feel better."
"I will do such and such."

While many Time-people know how to manipulate time, they still have time. When I was a student, I was a master of waiting till the last minute before I wrote my essays. I had so programmed myself that that was the only way I could work, it was the only time I was inspired to write. I found when I was under pressure I was even more creative because I was open to new ideas, any idea, to get me out of the mess I was in. I achieved so much in so little time. It was as if I was expanding time.

I'm sure there are many realities where, as the scriptures indicate, a thousand Earth years is the equivalent of one day in another reality. I imagine there are realities where hundreds and thousands of Earth years is the equivalent of a day in other realms. I'm sure the reverse is also true, where an Earth day is the equivalent of a month in another reality. I would imagine a snail's day to be extremely long.

When there is a huge discrepancy between 3-D Earth time and another reality, it indicates how fast things are moving in the other reality. Is it any wonder why we cannot perceive those who have "passed away?" It's because they are moving so fast that our minds cannot perceive them even when they are standing right beside us. You might spot a flash of light from time to time.

No matter how fast one is moving or how huge the time discrepancy, it still means you have time. You are still measuring time. You are still projecting yourself from A to B, where time and space is required. You are still a Time entity.

No-Time people have no time. What does it mean to have no time? No-Time people realise who they are is infinite, existing everywhere. Time is meaningless. Let's say a No-Time person needs to be in America, she's already there. How? Because the No-Time entity knows she is omnipresent.

There is a wonderful story in the book "Autobiography of a Yogi," which documents the lives of Yogis who are self-realised. In this story, Yogananda visits a yogi who demonstrates omnipresence. The yogi is sitting in meditation in front of Yogananda in one reality, while in another he has manifested a body to meet someone. This is what the yogi says to Yogananda who is dumbfounded when he finds out:

"Why are you stupefied at all this? The subtle unity of the phenomenal world is not hidden from true yogis. I instantly see and converse with my disciples in distant Calcutta. They can similarly transcend at will every obstacle of gross matter." (The Saint With Two Bodies ).

There are several accounts of omnipresence in the same book.

A No-Time type of communication might sound very strange to Time people. A Time person is always looking for hard evidence. How can you be somewhere else when you are here? How can you experience something that hasn't happened yet? Time-people do not understand when you have no time, everything is already present. If you can think it, it already exists. You then think and speak in accordance with what is.

Since majority of us are Time people, I will focus more on this reality. There is nothing more frustrating than a Time person trying to manifest what is already present. They end up sabotaging themselves by the use of language or force of habit. If you are a Time person it is very logical for you to project an event into the future because in your reality there is past, present and future. If reincarnation and evolution is very much real for you, why would you try to have no-time experiences? I'm not saying Time people don't experience "miracles." I know they do. When Time people experience miracles it could be because at that moment, the individual has stepped out of time and experiences the eternal now. It could also be because the individual is under the influence of a No-Time entity. Other ways miracles occur is when you master time and space.

It is a popular and shared belief in spiritual and esoteric literature that man is threefold: body, soul and spirit; Father, Son and Holy Spirit. It is believed that it is the soul/son that is evolving in time and space. While the soul is hundreds of times more powerful than the human personality, the soul is very much a Time entity. If you believe you are evolving in time and space in order to grow, you are possibly of the belief you have a soul. If, however, you know your identity as Spirit only, regardless how you are experiencing life, you are a No-Time entity.

What does evolution entail? It could be you are here to master time and space. Many esoteric schools teach how one can achieve mastery. Some schools have even developed different levels or ranks - a kind of hierarchy indicating what position the individual has evolved to. You could be an initiate, a disciple, an Avatar or a Cosmic being, depending on the lessons you have learned. This is a system of belief, of course, nor do I subscribe to this belief.

The way I see it, whether you attain mastery over time by slowing down time, speeding time and stopping time, you are still a Time entity. Say you wanted to heal someone, you could speed the healing time which could manifest instantaneously. You could slow time so you don't age so fast. However you manipulate time, you are still a Time entity.

If you want to stop experiencing time you have to step out of time and experience No-Time. How is this achieved? By being the You that is No-Time. Remember I said there are two dominant views of experiencing life: ones who believe they are the soul evolving in time and space to learn lessons and grow; and Ones who know they are the eternal Spirit? I am all for people being themselves but be careful what self you are being. Are you the self that some schools believe have to go through a structured system of lessons and tests in order to be elevated to another level? Or are you the Self that is Spirit and exists in eternity? Choose well who you are going to serve.

I have heard people say when you are awake you will be able to teleport, i.e. moving yourself to a location by thinking yourself there. Hmmm! I'm not sure about that. Does this mean entities who have "passed on" from the human realm can't teleport? Of course they can. It doesn't mean they are No-Time entities. They are simply being themselves, as non-restricted Time entities. If you've ever had out-of-body-experiences you will know what I'm talking about. I have felt myself many times out of my body moving at incredible speed and yet I was very much attached to a body in time/space.

Another reason why people who teleport cannot be No-Time entities is because to teleport from A to B, there needs to be some space between the two. While you might appear at your destination in no time, you are still aware of Time. In other words, time and space go together like horse and carriage. When you know you are already present and can appear at the other place while still being where you are, you have stepped out of time.

I am all for people "waking" up to who they are. I'm saying, if your idea of Self is the entity/soul evolving in time and space, stop trying to be something you are not. It's no use expecting instant healing when you are going to sabotage the result by projection and thinking it will happen in the future. Time people can visualise events that are manifested in time. If you want to go for broke and be a No-Time individual, your whole concept of reality changes. Sadly, here is neither the time nor the place, excuse the pun, for me to go into this.

There is one thing that limits one in time and space - language. When we use language we are trying to interpret what already exists into some kind of framework - time and space. How do you express the truth of having a house in "spirit" when you don't have one in the 3-D Earth reality? Do you say "I am living in my beautiful home?" Try communicating this reality to someone who is very much into seeing concrete evidence. So what usually happens is you say "I will be living in my new home very soon." Most people can identify with the future tense; they know that while you don't have your house in the present, anything can happen tomorrow.

The problem is that the same use of language ends up trapping one in time and space. What tomorrow are you referring to? Tomorrow could be a week from now, a month, a year, ten years - they are all tomorrows, aren't they? There is therefore no pressure for the house to manifest since it is already in the Now. It will manifest eventually according to your beliefs, but in some tomorrow in the future.

A No-Time person understands language is problematic. The No-Time person uses language while being fully conscious that the way you express yourself and the words you use are not important. It is the intention behind the words that matter.

It's no use Time people thinking they can use words indiscriminately thinking "it is the intention behind the words that matter." You cannot fool the Universal Intelligence which knows your beliefs and creates accordingly. If you are fearful about something, you are in no position to expect instant manifestation, it means you are a Time person. You might help things along by thinking positive thoughts, using affirmations and speeding time, but you are still a Time person. Do what works for you, don't try to be something you are not.

In the beginning of this article, I asked whether time exists. It does and it doesn't, depending on your perspective. I would say there is Time and "time." Time is eternity where days seem to rise from and dissolve into. Days are intrinsically unchanging i.e. no day is less than or greater than another. This is where you experience No-Time.

On the other hand, there is "time" which is one's perception of Time. According to your belief is how you will experience Time. These are what I refer to as Time people.

What is the purpose of Time? You could argue Time is the opportunity to express Self. While Time i.e. eternity has always existed, we have created ways to measure Time such as seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, seasons and years. The danger is that people have gone one step further - they have made time measurements come to life by perceiving time as moving. This has resulted in the seasons, aging and death. Because people have got so used to the habit of believing time passes, they consider Time's purpose to be a tool one can use to experience birth, youth, old age and death.

No-Time entities pay no attention to the changing of the seasons. They know only eternity, Time, exists. While No-Time entities might choose to use whatever a reality has to offer to measure Time, like clocks and watches, they see them as tools only. A No-Time entity who doesn't experience "time" is hardly going to experience aging and death unless s/he chooses to experience old age and death.

It would appear there are two types of entities experiencing life: those who have Time and those who have No-Time. Experience of either is based on beliefs. I know which one I prefer.

I end with a poem I've always loved. Enjoy...

WHAT is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare?—

No time to stand beneath the boughs,
And stare as long as sheep and cows:

No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass:

No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night:

No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance:

No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began?

A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

Leisure by W. H. Davies

With love,
Enocia

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Are We Living in a Nanny State?

From what I saw of the news last night, I see the British government are putting forward two proposals:

First, they intend to ban smoking from most public places where food is served. There will still be a few smoking pubs for those who wish to drink and smoke.

Second, they want us to eat a balanced diet. The government hopes this will eliminate childhood obesity, a growing trend the government is taking very seriously. They even propose to have different colour signs on food products, where a colour represents a nutrient. This way, shoppers will be reminded when their food baskets contents are above or beneath nutritional standards.

Talk about living in a nanny state! If the minority had their way, they would like to us to eat, do or think as they tell us to and we’re supposed to jump.

In my opinion, food regulation and anti-smoking policies are meaningless. Why? Because they are based on fantasy, that’s why.

Take smoking as an example. The anti-smoking lobbyists have been using scare-mongering tactics in advertising and on cigarette labels to stop people from smoking. We are constantly bombarded with the message: “smoking kills.” These shock tactics work for some who run off to chemists to get smoking patches or smoking chewing gums, to gradually wean themselves off smoking. I wonder if smoking manufacturers are behind anti-smoking products? It wouldn’t surprise me if they are.

Smoking kills if you think it does. It’s basic metaphysics: you experience what you believe to be true. Why are people influenced by smoking? Because they believe cigarettes or smoking has the power to harm or to make you relaxed.

Try telling the Health Secretary “you experience what you believe.” He’ll probably think you’ve gone doolally. The government is promoting a belief that there are things out there that can harm you and smoking is one of them. If you believe the hype you end up with the many smoking related diseases, as scientific experts tell us.

The same applies to food. The government is also promoting the belief that food can harm you, make you fat, make you healthy etc. They have their nutritional experts who can’t even agree over what food harms and what food heals. If you take on governmental and experts’ beliefs, you’re bound to be confused. You’re bound to need the government to teach you what to eat.

There are a few, like myself, who pay no attention to what food labels say or don’t bother about a balanced diets. I eat whatever I like, depending on the mood I’m in. What if I’m having a chocolate day? Think of all those lovely carbohydrates. Sacrilege!

If I choose to sit next to a smoker, does that mean I’m going to get some smoking related disease? I think not! It’s all make-belief, from where I’m standing.

So Mr Health Secretary, you can’t tell me what to eat or how I should live my life? You have no right when you’re making things up as you go along. If life is about taking chances, I’d rather take my chances on my own beliefs not rely on your experts. So put that in your pipe and smoke it!

For those who choose to follow the government’s advice, I wish you all the very best!

Best wishes,
Enocia

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Being Myself

I was walking down the road when I saw a dog pacing up and down in front of a house. He would trot as far as the wall, bang his head hard against the wall, then he ran the other way barking at no one in particular. After a few moments of observing his behaviour, I approached him.

"What's up dog?" I said.

He bared his teeth at me in a ferocious growl.

"I said, what's up?" I said, ignoring his growl.
"I don't like being me, that's what."
"What do you mean?"
"Ever since I saw that animal with the big mane on television, the one you humans call "lion, king of the beasts," I've been fantasising about what it would feel like to be a lion."
"Why ever would you want to be someone you're not?"
"Look at me, do I look fierce to you? I growled at you and you weren't even scared."
"That's because I knew you didn't mean it."
"I have that awful spot on my back," he continued. "I've tried everything to have it removed. I deliberately make myself smelly so I can have constant baths. I've even tried visualisations, for dogness sake. Fat load of good that has done me."
"I think you're cute. You're actually gorgeous and there's nothing I would change about you."
"Really?"
"Maybe I might ask you to stop pacing up and down, as you're beginning to get on my nerves."
"OK, I'll stop."
"You are what we call a Jack Russell. You're beautiful. Why don't you focus on being yourself instead of another animal?"
"How? How can I be myself?"
"By appreciating what you are for starters."
"Like what?"
"You like to smell things, right?"
"Yes, yes, yes," he said wagging his tail.
"Well, why don't you tell me about all the smells you have ever experienced?"
"OK, here goes."

An hour later, I was jolted out of a deep sleep and realised my Jack Russell friend was still yapping on about smells. How I fell asleep standing up is beyond me.

"Yeah, thanks, you've really been around," I said, hoping he hadn't noticed I wasn't listening.
"You're welcome," he said. "You know something, I'm beginning to feel like myself again."
"Good. It's a start. Why don't you enjoy being yourself from now on and focus only on that?"

I had a quick browse yesterday at a book called "Edgar Cayce on Channelling Your Higher Self" by Henry Reed. The only chapter I read was the last one called "Being Yourself: The Ultimate Form of Channelling." That for me is the only purpose of channelling. If you can't channel your higher self so you can live as your higher self, there really is no point to channelling. Reed tells a story about a woman who had these wonderful ideas for work which she'd channelled from herself but was too scared to admit their origin. She was afraid her colleagues would not accept channelled ideas. When it was suggested to the woman that she could simply say they were ideas, and it didn't matter where they were from, she was still hesitant.

A few years back, I attended an angel workshop by a renowned Angel expert, who has written several books about angels and how to use them as guides. At first, I went with the flow and did the exercises. She evoked Michael and Gabriel and we were supposed to feel these angels around us. Then something clicked within me like I had woken up from a deep sleep. I saw all these people seeing angels around them and many were very tearful and emotional. I realised they were being hypnotised to see what the expert wanted them to see. We split into groups of four and we were told to share our experiences. I said I felt nothing. The three women looked at me as if I was from another planet. I didn't want to rain on their parade so I decided to keep my opinions to myself. Part of me wanted to leave as I wasn't getting anything out of the workshop but I also wanted to ask the Angel expert a question on a one to one basis. At the end of the workshop I got my opportunity.

"Why do you feel you need to use God's minions, which angels are. Why can't people go straight to God?"

She gave me a long hard stare and said, "I think for you, that's the only thing that will work for you. You have to go straight to God."

I wonder why people are so fearful to admit to themselves who they are? Why do people hide behind ETs, spirit entities, ascended masters, midwayers, angels and guides? What's wrong with realising your true potential as infinite wisdom and speaking and acting as wisdom? I appreciate that not all of us are interested in writing. One can channel one's "higher self" in all aspects of one's life. If you are an artist, you could become a great artist; ditto a dancer, a musician, writer, leader, etc. Only when you channel yourself can you find out who you really are.

Maybe, it is the fear of tapping into one's highest potential that make people either try to be someone else, like my fictitious Jack Russell friend, or they try to hide behind a channelled entity. It's fine to admire other people's qualities but to run away from yourself must get tiresome. It's like banging your head against a brick wall. At least that's my experience. In the aforementioned book, Cayce believes we are here to express the One in our unique ways. I am totally in agreement with Cayce.

How do I practise being myself? I acknowledge that I am unique and that no one can express life the way I do. I then explore my uniqueness which manifests in the things I like doing. I find that even the subjects or philosophies I have looked at have been tailored to my uniqueness. Now I channel myself and explore what it feels like to be me.

A dog can take eternity knowing its doggy-ness. It is with the same dogged determination that I explore my Enocia-ness, forever.

I am Myself,
Enocia

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Practising Oneness

I hear the word, "oneness," bandied around. What exactly does it mean? When I meditate or get into inner silence, I am being myself - the One. However, when I am experiencing life, I am practising oneness. Oneness is a state of being in a relationship with all life. How does it work?

Last night I was in the west end. I decided to walk part of the way to the bus station at Euston. I suddenly felt a oneness with Euston. As I walked on the pavement, my body moved with such ease as if the pavement and I were one. Then I had a thought - Is it I, Enocia, walking or is it Euston walking me? I was going to use a route I was familiar with when a force pulled me to the left. Euston was showing me the quickest way to get to her. When I arrived at Euston, I noticed my bus was already at the stop. I wasn't in the mood to make a dash for it. As the bus left I noticed it was only going part of the way. Just as well I didn't break a sweat for nothing! Moments later, another bus arrived that was going to my destination.

In the bus, I felt oneness with the driver and passengers. A passenger smiled at me, I returned her smile. When a seat became available, she offered it to me. Oneness can come in very handy when you need a seat, and when you don't want to be stuck in traffic.

When I eat I practise oneness. I used to have a habit of checking the ingredients' label of whatever I was eating; I wanted to know how many calories and additives there were. Is it any wonder why I had allergic reactions to food. Now I don't bother. Oneness with food means not worrying about whether the food has power to heal or harm. Oneness with food automatically brings harmony between the food, the manufacturers, the source of the food and me. We are one. I enjoy the food for what it is. Obviously, I only eat what I fancy.

I practise oneness with my body. I have an idea what my perfect body looks and feels like. I'm now at one with that idea and I'm letting this idea be me. It's great not needing to worry about my complexion anymore and just trusting perfection to express through me.

But there is one thing I have been struggling with, where I am constantly being reminded to feel oneness with - house work. I mean, why do we bother cleaning or hoovering? Last Sunday, I promised my mother I would clean the house. She went to church and I figured I had loads of time before she returned. I thought out my strategy, knew it was already done then I fell asleep. I woke up at hourly intervals thinking, I have 3 hours; I have 2 hours; I have 1 hour; shit! where did the time go? It's just so hard getting myself motivated!

I cleaned the kitchen, then the bathroom. I tackled the mirrors in the bathroom. I wiped the mirrors with a damp towel. Great, the mirrors are now smeared! Sod it, you clean yourself, I have better things to do!

Finally, my favourite job in the whole world, the vacuum cleaning. Not! After a few minutes I was exhausted. I was too uptight to get into inner silence and let silence do the work. Then I heard a voice saying:

"Let us help you do the cleaning!"
"Who are you?"
"We are the dirt, the carpet and the hoover. We are one."

Damn, this gives a new meaning to what Jesus teaches:

"...whosoever shall say unto this mountain [dust], Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea [hoover bag]; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith." (Mark 11: 23)

So I went back to the hoovering and it was effortless. The cleaning did itself. I suddenly remembered I hadn't finished cleaning the bathroom mirrors. They were sparkling, as if I'd used some cleaning agent. Excellent job, EJ!

Another thing I don't like about hoovering, whether I have help or not, is doing the stairs. I figured I would watch some television and clean them later, maybe next week. My mother was still not back which was very unlike her. I finally relented and did the stairs and landing; or was it the stairs and landing took over? Five minutes after I had finished, my mother walked in. I wondered whether her journey had been delayed so I could finish the cleaning, as promised. My mother said she would have been home a lot sooner had her friend in church not asked her to stay and keep her company, while her friend performed her church duties. The delay had given me ample time to ponder over the cleaning and finally do the cleaning. It would seem at that moment, my mother, her friend, the hoover, the carpets, the mirrors, the dirt and I were one.

I believe practising oneness is being in harmony with all things. It doesn't mean being in agreement with ideas you disagree with, but going deeper and being at one with the expression of life. I recently met an actress on the bus. The way she views the world is not my way. When I didn't judge her views as right or wrong, I found her stories hilarious. Oneness is having rapport with all.

I had been thinking about setting my own website that would give me more freedom of expression. Someone suggested setting up a blog, which I already have on another website called Powertoshare. I did. Next there were things I had to know like HTML codes. Years ago, I started a website design course but walked out after the first day because of those infernal HTML codes. Now they were back to haunt me. A dear friend who saw my blog liked it so much she set her own poetry blog, which is excellent. She knows a lot about HTML codes. She gave me pointers on what codes to use until I got the hang of it. Here again, it is because of my oneness with my writings that I attracted a friend who could help me with my blog.

Practising oneness, in my opinion, is being in harmony with one's surrounding. It is ultimately about practising being "in the world but not of the world." When I am "not of the world" I experience miracles. Why? Because when I am tied to a body in time and space, I am limited to the rules of time and space. Practising being "not of the world" is expanding my awareness and realising that my identity is infinite. I believe miracles occur when one is experiencing oneness with the infinite.

I believe the practise of oneness is expressing the joy of living. It is also GREAT fun!

I am Oneness,
Enocia

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Acting Like a Professional

Two days ago, I met an interesting woman on the bus. She was a professional actor who specialises in background work, also known as Extras. If you've ever watched a drama or movie and you see people in the background, she is one of them. When I was at university, I considered becoming an Extra but I couldn't afford to pay agents' registration fees. I would still love to be an Extra, out of curiousity and love for the movies.

She mentioned she'd been in a soap opera I watch from time to time. I asked her whether she knew the barmaid in the pub, who I was sure was an Extra, as she never has much to say. My new friend was impressed I had brought this up. She happened to have covered this Extra for a short spell while she was off. It really is a small world!

My actress friend discussed the divide between professional actors playing roles as Extras and Extras without any formal training. She complained about their lack of professionalism. She spoke of an Extra who was very unpleasant to her while she was on a particular soap opera. This Extra wasn't a professional actor. She wasn't aware that professional actors were always professional. Even if you can't stand your colleagues, a professional actor never lets personalities get in the way. You get on with the job in hand.

I got to thinking about professionalism. Right now we are all acting various roles: parents, siblings, friends, employer, employee, etc. What does it mean to behave in a professional way? One definition of a professional states:

"Conforming to the standards of a profession: professional behavior." (Dictionary)

I like the idea of behaving like a professional. Many of us spend way too much time being distracted from our roles. Perhaps the world will be a lot more peaceful if one behaved how one is expected to behave. Then again, what does it mean by "conforming to the standards of a profession?" Who makes up the standards? Are standards not based on someone or a group's yardstick of how one should behave?

What if you set your own standards? My standards are as follows

"I will be myself. I will only write about what I love or what I feel passionate about, and in any style I choose. I will do what I love. I will allow others to have their own beliefs. In other words, I will allow others to dream their own dreams."

Now that I have set my standards, I act in accordance with these standards. I focus my whole attention on acting like a professional and don't get distracted.

To be distracted or to act unprofessionally is to let other people dictate how I should live my life or what I should do.

I have to say I love professionalism. I intend to keep it that way.

I am a Professional,
Enocia

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Lucid Dreaming

"The substance of a dream is held in materialization by the subconscious thought of the dreamer. When that cohesive thought is withdrawn in wakefulness, the dream and its elements dissolve. A man closes his eyes and erects a dream-creation which, on awakening, he effortlessly dematerializes. He follows the divine archetypal pattern. Similarly, when he awakens in cosmic consciousness, he will effortlessly dematerialize the illusions of the cosmic dream." (Autobiography of a Yogi)

I used to understand lucid dreaming as when one is conscious in the dream state that one is dreaming. Thus, you realise that dream reality is a dream. I have had other types of dreaming which gives me another definition of lucid dreaming. Although you might not be fully awake to other dream realities and you believe that particular dream state to be the only reality, you are also very much aware you are the dreamer.

Take last night's dream, for example. I was with this guy I fancied. (I haven't met him in this dream reality). I wanted to spend time with him but he had to work. I tried to persuade him to take time off work and come and have fun with me but he was having none of it. Suddenly, there was an announcement on the tannoy telling him he'd been given time off to have fun. He was amazed at the turn of events. Yet, it never occurred to him I had created that reality. I didn't tell him I had either. In the dream, I was very much aware I was the one dreaming events into place. It's odd because in the dream I still believed that reality to be the only reality.

In another dream I had two days ago, I was flying. I felt myself take off and I became invisible. I was drawn to a particular house, as if someone had invited me. There was a family in there. One, a boy, was very much aware I was present. He pointed at me but his parents couldn't see me and thought he was making it up. I stood in front of the baby but the baby was oblivious of my presence. Here again, I was very much aware I was the dreamer and had dreamt myself flying and made myself invisible.

In another dream, a few days ago, I felt myself being pulled apart. I've had similar dreams before, which I used to interpret as astral projection. I would feel hands tugging and fingers scratching at me, which were at times very painful and scary. This time when I had this dream I wasn't scared at all. I felt people pulling me apart, as if everyone was trying to have their pound of flesh. I heard all of humanity speaking at once. I felt people walking and driving on top of me. They didn't have a clue I was there, nor did anyone seem to care. Then I realised I was experiencing myself as Energy. Before I had the experience, I had been visualising myself as Energy. It would seem this dream was my way of interpreting what it feels like to be Energy.

I experience many ways of dreaming. I see all realities as dreams. What's changed for me recently is that in each dream reality, I am awake to the fact that I am the dreamer. This, for me, is lucid dreaming.

I am the Lucid Dreamer,
Enocia

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Robot Wars

Yesterday, I watched the movie, Terminator 3, the third and final instalment of the Terminator series. The movies depict a reality where humans are fighting against robots and the threat of human annihilation.

In the first instalment, Terminator, the human leader of the resistance against robots sends a man called Kyle Reese to the past to protect Sarah Connor, John's mother. Kyle turns out to be John's father. At the same time, a robot is sent to the past to terminate Sarah. Reese is killed but Sarah survives. By the end of the movie, Sarah is pregnant with John Connor.

In Terminator 2, another robot is sent to the past to kill John Connor, who is now a young teenager. Another robot is also sent by the future John to protect himself and his mother. Again, John and his mother survive.

In Terminator 3, a robot is sent to terminate John Connor and Katherine, John's future wife. This time, it is the future Katherine who sends a robot to protect her and John. While John and Katherine manage to survive, they discover that judgment day, the day when the war against robots commences, is inevitable. They realise their role is to survive the war against the robots.

The reason why these movies fascinate me is because of the symbolism of the robots, which I believe to be the human mind. Humans are in constant inner conflict: one part that wants to be free and express self; and the other that is opposed to freedom. This conflict is due to the robotic mind. There is a mass programming going on where humans are told how to live. While humans try to resist this programming, they lack the tool to free themselves from the programmes. The robot wars against humans, as depicted in the Terminator movies, is really the war of humanity against itself.

The irony is that there are inner conflicts or wars if you believe there are. The moment you stop fighting and trust in yourself, the war is terminated, excuse the pun.

Fascinating movies. Well worth seeing if you are not squeamish.

Much love,
Enocia

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War Remembrance

It's been the season for it, remembering war veterans and those who died in the great wars. We are supposed to be so grateful to these war veterans and always remember those who fought and died in the war to free us. The ones remembering want everyone to feel the same way.

Well, I don't particularly care about the war, any war. I don't care to be reminded, thank you very much. How can you achieve permanent peace when every year is the same old, same old? Is it any wonder there are wars around the world? Can you achieve peace when part of you is always recalling a war?

Those who remember the wars argue that we should remember so they don't happen again. In that case, if you're going to remember, why be selective? Why not remember all wars humans have fought in? Every day should be dedicated to a particular war. Alas, there aren't enough days in the year to achieve this!

Call me stupid, but surely the very "freedom" these veterans fought to achieve is being made a mockery of when you remember the war? Surely freedom is ultimately about being mentally free? I believe peace is achieved by letting go of the past and choosing peace.

But hey, it's a free country. Let people have their fun remembering the war. People are free to make themselves miserable rehashing the past. But what I will not tolerate is the imposition of others' dreams on another. So please don't expect me to stop what I 'm doing to observe silence for the dead! I have better things to do with my silence.

War remembrance reminds me of particular television programmes that come on at certain times of the year, every year. You can choose to watch the programme or not. Sometimes you might change the channel to the programme to see what the fuss is about, rather like I'm doing now writing about war remembrance. You can either stay on the channel as long as the programme lasts or you can change channels.

I have devoted enough time to this programme. I'm now switching channels.

Best wishes,
Enocia

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Her Next Door

Her next door - she’s got a cat
Keeps coming to our place
Great fat thing, it looks at me
With a smirk upon it’s face.
When my missus isn’t looking
I clout it round the ear,
Well, I try to - but I can’t y’see
I can’t get bloody near.
It always hears me coming
And scoots off bloody quick.
One time I threw my boot at it
And once, a half house brick.
It catches little sparrows
And chews them on our grass,
If only I was quicker
I’d kick it up the arse.
Of course, it’s her next door, y’know,
She tells it what to do
‘Tom’, she says,’Go over there- and piddle in his shoe.’
She don’t like me, and that’s a fact,
And neither does her cat,
But I don’t care, I’ve got more hair
And I’m nowhere near as fat.

By Lincoln Wakefield

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Thank You for Being a Friend

To all my wonderful friends, I dedicate this song lyrics to you. I love you all.

Thank you for being a friend
Traveled down the road and back again
your heart is true you're a pal and a confidant

I'm not ashamed to say
I hope it always will stay this way
My hat is off, won't you stand up and take a bow

And if you threw a party
Invited everyone you knew
You would see, the biggest gift would be for me
and the card attached would say,
Thank you for being a friend

Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend

If it's a car you lack
I'd surely buy you a cadillac
Whatever you need, anytime of the day or night

I'm not ashamed to say
I hope it always will stay this way
My hat is off, won't you stand up and take a bow

And when we both get older
With walking canes and hair of gray
Have no fear, even though it's hardly here
I will stand real close and say,
Thank you for being a friend

(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Let me tell you bout a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend

And when we die, and float away
I'll see you there, and once again
Thank you for being a

Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
Whoa, tell you about a friend
(Thank you right now, for being a friend)
Thank you for being a friend
(I wanna tell you right now, and tell you again)
Thank you for being a friend
(I wanna thank you, thank you, for being a friend)
Thank you for being a friend

Source: Andrew Gold lyrics

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Ask and You Will Receive

I'm munching away
enjoying the salty
flavour of the crisps.
My eyes are fixed on a book
borrowed from the shelf.

You appear in a flash
of a smile too tempting
for me to ignore.
You would like to share
my bag of crisps.

I pass you a crisp
and, with a toothy grin,
you disappear;
no doubt on your
own literary quest.

Soon you are back
for another crispy helping.
The man beside you
grins apologetically
at your effrontery.

"I don't mind sharing,"
I say to your friend.
"It's a pleasure to meet
someone who knows
to ask is to receive."

I wonder though
whether your charm
works with all the ladies?
Do all women swoon
at your audacity?

You toddle away,
crisp held aloft,
two admirers right behind you.
There goes a man
who wants and he gets!

A word to the wise
my charismatic friend.
Next time you intend to charm
some food off someone,
the least you can do
is learn to speak.

Enocia

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The Fight Against Crime

Yesterday, I saw two coppers (police officers) quizzing a man about his motorcycle. The strange thing was there was a police bicycle beside the coppers. I never realised some coppers rode on bicycles. I've seen them on motorcycles but never on bikes

I can just see it now, a police officer on his way to an emergency on his bike. He is frantically ringing his bell and pedalling through traffic. I guess it's quicker to ride through traffic by bike but by the time the copper gets to the crime scene, it will be too late. Reminds me of police officers in the movies. They always seem to arrive way too late.

I wonder whether the Met (Metropolitan Police) are trying to cut down on costs?

Last night I watched the movie, The Terminator again. There is a part in the movie when Sarah Connor, who the Terminator is trying to terminate, is in a police station. The Lieutenant tells her she will be safe as there are 30 officers in the station. In comes Arnie, the Terminator, and wipes out nearly everyone. (ROTFL) That was a classic!

They are showing Terminator 3 on Sunday. Hurray! I haven't seen that one yet. Can't wait.

Have a good day all and stay out of mischief.
Love Enocia

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Sign of the Times

I shall now discuss a profession I’ve never thought about before - sign writers. Look around you - at shop windows, buildings, vans, lorries, streets and you see evidence of sign writers’ handiwork. Sign writers give us meaning to life. Their work on business buildings let us know who runs the shop and what type of business it is.

I’m wondering though that business for sign writers must be up and down. You start off a business and you hire a sign writer to design your shop front and signs for your business vehicles. Then what? Do sign writers charge extra for insurance purposes in case a letter falls out or the light around the sign packs up? Do they have to pay periodic visits to check up on their signs or are they strictly one-off jobs?

As for street signs, once they are put up that’s it for hundreds of years, unless they build new estates or the local council decides to name a street in honour of someone. Even so, there can’t be much business going to produce street signs. Even traffic signs are strictly one-offs. Maybe sign writers work as graphic designers, who at least produce office stationery, posters and computer designs.

I reckon the boom time for sign writers must be around a recession when lots of companies go out of business. I wonder if sign writers work in conjunction with banks and estate agents. Banks obviously take over businesses and sell them off and estate agents help with the sale. And what happens after a new sale? A new business, which means work for sign writers. Lovely jubbly!

I wonder what motivates someone to become a sign writer? I can imagine a young boy, who loves art and drawing, pointing to a shop front and saying to his mother.

“Mum, one day I want to make shop signs.”
“But son, wouldn’t you prefer being a graphic designer? You could go to college.”
“No, I’m going to paint shops fronts when I grow up.”

His mother obviously knows what it means to be a sign writer, that there are going to be lean times ahead if her son takes that route. But the boy is adamant he wants to be a sign writer. What is a mother to do but support her son’s ideas and pray that when he grows up he becomes a graphic designer instead.

How do sign-writers experience the world, I wonder? I know, as a writer, I’m inspired by many things and my ears always prick at interesting dialogues. Maybe, some sign writers see the world in black and white and others visualise in colour. I wonder if they go around thinking, “Hmmm! She has an unusual K posture. I could use that in my next job.”

Perhaps, there are sign writers forum where I could lurk so I can get an insight into what makes sign writers tick.

We musn’t forget the wannabe sign writers who do their work on buildings and public property - people who paint graffiti. I don’t understand why they are so maligned by society. People need to express themselves anyway they can. If you draw figures and letters on buildings, streets and vehicles you’re called a sign writer; on a canvas, you are an artist; on a computer, you are a graphic designer or web designer. Why don’t we give graffiti artists a break instead of regarding them as anti-social? Some graffiti look brilliant. Granted, I might not like to see them in my neck of the woods, but graffiti sign writers should be given credit.

Any road, I guess it’s now time for me to sign off.

Love Enocia

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Optical Illusions

Yesterday, a billboard advert caught my attention. It was a picture of two men lying with their heads on the bull's eye of a dartboard. It was as if a giant darts player had thrown the two darts-men and achieved bull's eye. I pondered over how it was done. Obviously both men were photographed at an angle, then the dartboard was added to give the appearance of human darts. Fascinating! I forget now what they were advertising.

I started thinking about optical illusions. What other optical illusions are there that we are being deceived by? Please don't go emailing me all at once, this is only a rhetorical question.

Last night I watched a docu-drama called Space Odyssey. The BBC states it is a "programme revealing the dangers and spectacles of exploring other planets in the Solar System." There was much talk about how much scientific research had gone into making it. Though it was of course a drama, it was considered to be science-fact not science-fiction. Yeah right and I am the Duchess of Londinium! Anyway, I still watched it; something to do to while away my life and to write about the next day. You know how it is?

In the first programme, the astronauts went on an expedition to Mars where they did battle with the elements, which is supposed to be unbreathable, or so Science has led us to believe. I'll have you know, I've seen the movie, Total Recall. I know the atmosphere in Mars is so harsh, it makes people's eyes bulge out through lack of oxygen. Don't take my word for it, watch the movie. You will discover that the movie is actually about...I have no intention of telling you how it ends. I'll let someone else ruin the ending for you instead.

The docu-drama, Space Odyssey, is meant to address the origin of the universe, the "Big Bang" and whether there are extra terrestrials out there. Yes, that old chestnut! Scientists are dreaming that one day humans will explore life on Mars and other planets in person. Since we are all used to the idea that Mars is a red planet, the docu-drama looked pretty convincing. I started thinking, if it looks so real, what about the old conspiracy theory that the moon landing never happened, that it was filmed in a studio. How would we know any difference? Which reminds me of a story. Forgive me while I digress for a moment.

Years ago, I was trying to recall the name of the first man who landed on the moon, according to popular knowledge of course. I knew his surname was Armstrong but I was adamant his first name was Louis. My friend knew it wasn't Louis but couldn't think of the name, Neil. Some of you will know that Louis Armstrong was a great Jazz musician and trumpeter. I could just picture Louis Armstrong in his space suit blowing his trumpet and crooning his classic song, What a Wonderful World. Maybe it was the alcohol I was drinking at the time, but in my mind, Louis Armstrong was the first man on the moon.

Right, where am I going with this?

My point is, if you can film something to look so real like it is in another planet, what other optical illusions are there? If you've ever been to a planetarium, you will experience the various planets in the solar system all around you. It seems so real, as real as we have been taught, but it is only computer simulation. What if the universe, as we experience it, is nothing but a sophisticated technology to give us the impression that we live in a vast universe and that there are many star systems around us? I'm not suggesting that there are no other planets, I believe there are. I'm saying the changing of the seasons is an illusion to give us the impression we are experiencing the passage of time. Where is your evidence? I hear you cry.

OK my evidence is hearsay, from people who have had near-death experiences and from those giving evidence that life continues. In the book, Autobiography of a Yogi, Yogananda's guru, Yukteswar, dies but "returns" to give Yogananda evidence of the many realms out there.

"The astral world is infinitely beautiful, clean, pure, and orderly. There are no dead planets or barren lands. The terrestrial blemishes—weeds, bacteria, insects, snakes—are absent. Unlike the variable climates and seasons of the earth, the astral planets maintain the even temperature of an eternal spring, with occasional luminous white snow and rain of many-colored lights. Astral planets abound in opal lakes and bright seas and rainbow rivers." (from the chapter The Resurrection of Sri Yukteswar)

I've read elsewhere that in other realms t there is no change in seasons, and that time is not experienced in way we do. I am not really surprised because I know Reality to be unchanging. I have experienced this state innumerable times in meditation, a state that has no sense of time and space. Indeed, when I operate in this state of consciousness, I lose all sense of the season.

Last summer, a few months ago as we measure time, I was on the bus into town. I bought some chocolate, ate half of it and saved the rest for later. Then I had an urge for more chocolate but it had melted. I couldn't believe my eyes. It couldn't possibly be that hot. I had a cardigan on and I was freezing. When I got into town I noticed all these people dressed up as if they were in some holiday resort. Had I died and descended into hell? When I got home I found my mother looking hot and bothered. I asked her what was going on and why people were going around half-dressed. She gave me the "are you nuts?" look. She told me the weather people had announced the maximum temperature on that day was 30 degrees centigrade. I was amazed. I reckon the chocolate bar was part of the conspiracy, while I was freezing in my cardigan. I reckon on that day I had definitely stepped into another realm.

I believe the reality of the physical universe and our solar system is a projection by one clever cinematographer. It is a lovely dream, just like the other realms - astral, mental and causal - are also dreams. Life is like a planetarium. You walk into a planetarium to watch a show and you end up believing the show is real and get stuck in it for a long time until you one day realise you've been watching a show all along. At least this is my theory and I'm sticking to it.

I believe the world we live in is filled to the brim with optical illusions. Actors understand what I'm talking about where their finished products look so convincing, yet the scenes were filmed in front of lots of people. What about all those raunchy love scenes which make some sensitive souls blush? Pure drama! Who would want to share their most intimate moments with hundreds of people ogling at you? Unless you're an exhibitionist. What am I saying? We are all exhibitionists in a way aren't we, since we're supposedly being watched by other beings in other realms? We are all actors and spectators on this great show called life.

Illusion or not, I'm having so much fun in the planetarium! Shut the door on your way out will you, I'll be here for a while.

I am Artiste,
Enocia

What is Synchronicity?

"And it shall come to pass, that before they call, I will answer; and while they are yet speaking, I will hear." (Isaiah 65: 24)

"...when the self is in communion with a higher power, nature automatically obeys, without stress or strain, the will of man. This effortless command over nature is called 'miraculous' by the uncomprehending materialist." (Autobiography of a Yogi)

I am sure many of us have experienced events that seemed too much of a coincidence to be ignored, like some force had arranged the meeting and that it was meant to be. I have had too many that have absolutely blown me away. I also love reading about other people's experiences. These events are popularly known as "synchronicity." Here's how one dictionary defines synchronicity:

"Coincidence of events that seem to be meaningfully related, conceived in Jungian theory as an explanatory principle on the same order as causality." (Dictionary)

I recently had a thought that when I experience synchronicity, it is I arranging the events. Before I go into the mechanics of it, here are two of my experiences that are interconnected.

Years ago, I saw a woman on the train who reminded me of a friend I was very close to in college. I had a sudden longing to see her and regretted how we had drifted apart. But I didn't have her contact number. A few days later I got in contact with her. This is written from my friend's perspective. I have changed the names of the people involved.

Zena was waiting for her boyfriend to turn up. They had arranged to attend a media exhibition and she had his ticket. While she waited she got into a conversation with a young guy. She liked him instantly.

"Pleased to meet you," he said offering his hand. "I'm James."
"And I'm Zena."
"That's an unusual name," he said. Then he paused, deep in thought. "My girlfriend went to college with someone who has a friend called Zena and she's working for some newspaper."
"That's funny! I work for the Guardian actually. As far as I know, I'm the only one there called Zena. What's your girlfriend's name?"
"It's Rachel."
"You're kidding! It's not the same Rachel who is friends with Enocia?"
"Yeah, that's her."
"I know Rachel! We went to the same college. We even took a few modules together!" Zena exclaimed. "Rachel is your girlfriend? Wow, this is fucking unbelievable! It's nuts! I can't get my head around it."

Both stared at each other in amazement.

"And you know what's fucking weird about all this? I was thinking about Enocia the other day. She was such a good mate. I would love to get back in touch with her, but I lost her number."
"I can get Rachel to pass on your number if you like."
"That will be so cool. I can't believe it! This is just too weird!"
"Hey, are you going to the exhibition?" James said.
"Yeah."
"It looks interesting. I haven't got a ticket but I was going to blag my way in."
"I have a spare which you can have. My boyfriend hasn't turned up."

A few days later, I was at Zena's house catching up over our college days. Unfortunately, we no longer had much in common so we didn't stay in touch. At least my wish to see her was fulfilled.

At the time, I was amazed at the turn of events. Did I pick up on Zena's thoughts of wanting to get in contact with me or did she pick up on mine? How were these events arranged so I could link up with my friend?

Here's another synchronicity involving the same guy, James, and his girlfriend, Rachel. You see I had actually set James and Rachel up on a blind date and they ended up having a relationship for a few years. After some time, Rachel and I drifted apart. One night, I dreamt I was speaking to Rachel about her relationship. She looked very sad. She said they were thinking of breaking up. I told her I was sorry and wished they could work things out as they always seemed so good together. When I woke up I wondered whether the dream was real. Should I call Rachel and find out? I decided it wasn't a good idea so I let it go.

A month went by. One day another friend, who lived in Bangkok at the time, called me out of the blue. She was in London, did I want to meet up the next day? I met her at Oxford Circus, the shopping capital of London. I was early. While I waited, I spotted a girl from my college. She was actually a close friend of Rachel's. It was a perfect opportunity to confirm whether my dream was true or not.

"Do you still see Rachel?" I said. "We haven't spoken in a while."
"Yeah, we still keep in touch. I saw her the other day, as it goes."
"I see. Do you know if she and James are still together?" I said. "I had a dream about her. She said they were splitting up."
"Wow, that's amazing!" she said. "Rachel and James are actually splitting up as we speak. Rachel is moving out of James' flat today."
"I'm sorry to hear that."
"Do you want me to pass on a message to her?"
"Nah, don't bother. I've already spoken to her in my dream."

Here again, we see an event occurring that I couldn't possibly have had any control over. Is there a force that arranges events? I believe there is.

I believe there are three aspects to understanding how synchronicity occurs. First, by realising that omnipresence is my true nature. Second, how omnipresence is experienced. Third, how omnipresence works.

We know that omnipresence is when something is present everywhere. Most of us agree that the Source of life is omnipresent. Since I know I am one with Source, I am therefore omnipresent i.e. my awareness is everywhere and interpenetrates all. In other words, wherever, whatever and whenever, I am already there. The moment I have a thought about someone my awareness, already with that individual, is energised. Say, if I was thinking of Buckingham Palace, I would effectively be calling upon Enocia in Buckingham Palace. I believe this is true for all, but it's up to people whether they experience it as real or not.

It's all very well to know myself as omnipresence in theory. Remember we live in a reality where we are used to thinking of ourselves as the human self that only exists in time and space. To make omnipresence a living reality takes practise. I believe meditation is the practise of omnipresence. (There are other ways of course). There is a state of consciousness that is reached in meditation called Samadhi when "the devotee's consciousness merges with the Cosmic Spirit." When I experience Samadhi, I lose all sense of the little self and experience the oneness and infinitude of consciousness. With constant practice, I am now able to bring this state of oneness into my "waking" consciousness as a state of stillness, pure awareness.

Now, omnipresence is both omniscient and omnipotence. It is actually pure Energy, the primordial state of all. Whatever you put in the way of Energy is created. When you put out an intention and have no doubts, that reality is created. It goes without saying that it is not I, the human personality Enocia, who creates the reality but the power and intelligence of Infinite Energy. "I can of mine own self do nothing." (John 5: 30) It is the omnipresent Energy that creates reality according to intent. It is I, omnipresent Energy, who put out the intention. The power and intelligence of Energy shapes reality according to my intent.

Does intent need the agreement of all parties concerned? Where does freewill come into the equation? In the above two examples of my college friends, the agreement existed as love. You could say that intent is love. It is love that connects us, it is love that creates. What do I mean by love? Love in the above examples is the expression of our friendships.

Synchronicity, therefore, is an act of Love. Love of expression creates events. When you allow things to happen and let the omnipresence do the work without fretting over the outcome, miracles occur. In reality, it is not a miracle at all. It is I creating the event because I know my identity is omnipresent, omniscient and omnipresent Energy. Intent, Energy, Love and I are one. Thus,

Intent=Energy=Love=Creation=Synchronicity

Surely things can't be that simple? There are many people who think about their friends or desire something and nothing happens! You're not telling me that you only need to have a thought about something and it is manifested as you have described? Surely not?

I believe synchronicity occurs in everyone's lives but some people are not aware of it or dismiss it as coincidence. Or people see the event as occurring outside of themselves instead of realising they are one with the event. Since I experience omnipresence as my reality, I know there is no such thing as coincidence. It is a matter of "energy follows thought." So the moment I have a thought, it has to manifest, unless I have fears which will also manifest as fear.

I have also learned that I have to be very careful about what I think about. A few days ago, I was at a bookshop browsing when I had a thought that I should leave. I didn't see what the big deal was about leaving at that particular time but I followed guidance. I soon found out why. The day before, I had been looking at an art exhibition and thinking how one painting reminded me of an artist's work. While I waited for my last bus, I saw the same artist. For crying out loud, is this the reason why I had to leave at that time? It was only a casual thought, no big deal! We said hello, my bus arrived, and that was that. I now realise every thought counts.

I love experiencing synchronicity. It is an opportunity to demonstrate my omnipresence. Even though I know how it works, I never cease to be amazed how the Intelligence creates circumstances.

Synchronicity makes life worth living. It also makes for great story-telling, wouldn't you say?

I am Omnipresence, Omniscience and Omnipotence,
Enocia

Law and Grace

"For the law was given by Moses, but grace and truth came by Jesus Christ." (John 1: 17)

How does forgiveness work? Can you forgive yourself, someone else or a situation, when you are living by the law? Is this not a contradiction in terms?

It is written in the scriptures that Paul was instrumental in disseminating Christianity. In Romans chapter 7, Paul gives his interpretation of the law as was given by Moses. Our modern laws are derived from the laws of Moses, the do's and don'ts of society. Let's look at what Paul has to say about the law.

"For I was alive without the law once: but when the commandment came, sin revived, and I died. " (Romans 7: 9)

"For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do. Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me. " (Romans 7: 19:-21)

"I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin." (Romans 7: 25)

In this chapter, Paul is discussing two laws: one that is carnal (of mortals); and one that is spiritual. He is saying that sin came about because of the law of Moses. What does he mean by this?

Let's take the legal system as an example. We are led to believe that we need the law to have order in society. Has the human idea of justice brought about peace? Do me a favour! On the contrary, the law instills fear. I have noticed that in bus and train stations in London, there are intermittent announcements reminding people to look after their belongings and that the stations are under 24 hour surveillance. In the eyes of the law, they are trying to protect customers from crime. If you are trying to protect someone, it means you are living in fear of crime. Indeed, you are expecting crime. The legal system would not exist if they didn't believe that man is inherently evil. This is what Paul means by "I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me." (Romans 7: 21)

Say someone has committed a crime. While the law states that you are innocent until proven guilty, there is no real opportunity for the "criminal" to be given a second chance. What if the person recognises the "error" of his ways? What if he is seeking forgiveness? Society doesn't allow for that. What usually happens is you still have to go through the legal system and the case is brought to court. As far as society is concerned, if you do the crime you have to serve the time.

I believe Paul is saying the very law that was created to instill order in society has augmented the very sin it was trying to protect us from. The moment you see a sign in a public place that warns you thieves are around, the sign is also suggesting you and others are thieves. I use libraries frequently and the safety signs are always around. There is a particular library where the security guard makes hourly reminders for people to be vigilant. I have never been in a library that attracts more "crime." If you take the signs and announcements to heart, you shouldn't be surprised when you experience crime. That's the law for you; it is impersonal. In other words, if you live by the law you will die by the law. The only way to stop living by the law is by grace.

Paul writes:

"There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death." (Romans 8: 1-2)

Before I discuss what I understand by Grace, let me first of all address the statement in the scriptures: "For the law was given by Moses, but grace and truth came by Jesus Christ." (John 1: 17) In my opinion, this statement is not true. How can it be true when the law and grace pre-dates Moses and Jesus? Before Moses there was still fear. You only have to study other religions that predate Judaism to discover that each religion has their version of the law. Moses simply introduced a law that was relevant for his day. The same is true for truth and grace. The personality in the scriptures called Jesus knew his nature as truth and grace. He did not bring about or create truth and grace. There have been many others, who have experienced life knowing their nature is truth and grace.

What is Grace? Grace is a way of experiencing one's nature that knows only love. This love doesn't judge anyone. Love doesn't care whether you've committed, in human standard, a heinous crime. When you repent, change your mind about what you've done, Grace can remove all evidence of "error", if you are open to it. What do I mean by "changing your mind?" I mean realising that your behaviour is not who you are, that you were only acting according to the beliefs you had. Changing your mind is realising your true identity and trusting your nature to help you make a new choice according to what you believe to be true.

Trial by jury is the human version of justice. Actually, Grace knows nothing of justice or forgiveness for that matter as no one has ever erred under the law of Grace. Grace, therefore, has no part in the legal system. If you are seeking Grace, don't expect it from the law. Mortals don't do Grace; their long-term memories will not allow it.

In Joseph Murphy's book "Amazing Laws of Cosmic Mind," he discusses a man who had murdered someone and was in death row. During the time when the man was waiting to be executed, he prayed for forgiveness and forgave himself. He had invoked the law of Grace. When it came for him to be executed, they couldn't hang him. They tried several times but the mechanism wouldn't work. They had to set him free. Grace had set him free.

Earlier this year I absent-mindedly walked out of a library with a library book in my bag. The alarm went off, but someone in front held the barrier open so I could walk through. The librarians looked up but none of them called me back, which they usually do when the alarm goes off. Usually, the alarm will lock the barrier but in my case someone let me walk through. I realised later on I had a library book in my bag. I returned it the next day back on the shelf.

The law of Grace, Spirit, takes no account of what is going on in the laws of man. Grace is the equivalent of someone trying to look at quantum particles with a microscope. You're not going to find the particles because they operate under a different principle. Grace would heal someone instantly without taking into account temporal factors such as time. I remember years ago when my mother sprained her ankle, I prayed for her and commanded her to get up and walk. She was instantly healed. This is Grace at work.

If people are open, Grace can reverse all evidence of "error" as one defines "error." It is written in the scriptures,

"I will overturn, overturn, overturn, it: and it shall be no more." (Ezekiel 21: 27).

An example of Grace at work is the many documented cases of near death experiences, where medical records show the individual had died but had been resurrected. I believe Grace can create resurrection at a mass level if people are open to the idea. I believe if humanity is open, we will witness people who have been killed in wars rise up as if the wars never happened. Alas, this does happen but in a reality only a few people are able to experience. People who have died are "waking up" and realising they are still alive. There is much survival evidence out there from those who have supposedly passed away.

Which leads to another question. What if the purpose of physical life, as we are experiencing it, is to demonstrate that Grace is the only law? When you experience Grace as law, you will experience life as eternal. You will not experience sickness and old age. If you experience sickness you will be instantly healed by Grace. You will live as long as you wish and then move to another reality without having to go through death. I am fascinated by the story of Ramtha who supposedly lived life and ascended without going through death. Whether it happened or not, I like the idea of ascension very much because I know it is possible.

I believe my purpose on earth right now is to live as Spirit and demonstrate that Grace is the only law.

I am Grace,
Enocia

What's Right, What's Wrong?

So I was on my way home yesterday evening when I noticed a lot of kids out. It's a bit unusual to see so many children out at this time of night. What's going on? Then I remembered - Guy Fawkes Night.

For those of you who are not familiar with this great British tradition, every year on the 5th November, there are fireworks displays, bonfires and burning of effigies to commemorate the notorious Guy Fawkes, who tried to blow up the Houses of Parliament. He didn't succeed of course. He and his henchmen were executed.

Why, oh, why do we commemorate such an event?

As I pondered over this on the bus, I noticed hundreds of people queueing up outside the local town hall. There is a field at the back where the local bonfire and fireworks displays were going to take place. A man on the other side of the bus was half asleep. He woke up and looked across at the crowd. He asked what the fuss was about. I reminded him what day it was. My new friend came and sat across me and we got into a discussion about why people celebrate Guy Fawkes. Is it possible, my new friend said, that people are making a statement in support of Guy Fawkes? Hmmm! Was November the 5th an opportunity for people to express their discontent against the current government? I doubted it very much.

I've been to a few bonfire nights and watched effigies being burnt. I have sometimes used the burning effigy as a personal symbol of letting go of the past. I wonder if other people use the burning effigy as a symbol or are they simply enjoying the fireworks? I would imagine many children enjoy playing with sparklers and bangers and don't care about what it means.

It is very odd how Brits commemorate attempted murder. In a reality of moral values and social mores, surely attempted murder is considered evil? If we can celebrate attempted murder, does it not make a mockery of the notion of good and evil?

What about when someone sneezes. Many have been programmed to say "Bless You." This actually originates in the 17th century in London during the outbreak of the Black Death. It was hoped that the words "God Bless You" would stop the person sneezing from developing the plague.

Another connection to the plague is the nursery rhyme, "Ring a Ring O' Roses."

"Ring a ring o' roses,
A pocket full of posies,
A-tishoo! A-tishoo!,
We all fall down"

According to the explanation:

"Most people believe that this rhyme originates from the time of the Great Plague. The roses refers to the rosy coloured rash displayed by sufferers; the posies were a little bundle of herbs and spices said to ward off the plague; and a-tishoo was of course, the sneezing which accompanied the final fatal moments of the victims when they would all fall down - dead!"

I remember, as a child, how I used to love the part in the rhyme: "we all fall down." I used to love falling on the ground. Little did I know what we were singing. Now, isn't it morbid and bizarre that we still teach kids a nursery rhyme that speaks of a time when so many people lost their lives? Is it not evil to sing about other people's misfortunes?

What about the fact that we celebrate victory of the great wars? For someone to win, someone else has to lose. Are we celebrating the end of the war or the loss of lives to achieve peace? Why is it important to continue remembering those who lost their lives during the war? Is remembering enabling us to achieve lasting peace on earth?

It seems to me that the notion of good and evil is constantly shifting. What is considered evil in the past is seen now as an opportunity to make money. Can you imagine how much money is involved in Guy Fawkes Night, the amount of fireworks sold for that day? Maybe we should call the knowledge of good and evil by its proper name - Capitalism.

Although I haven't attended a Bonfire Night in ages, I do have a lot of fun when I do. I love watching firework displays. I love playing with bangers. I love watching the burning effigy. In my view, Guy Fawkes Night is an opportunity to enjoy fireworks.

It is the same way I live my life. I don't judge anything as good or evil, they are just experiences. I have a choice to experience what I want to. In other words, in my universe, good and evil have no reality.

What's right, what's wrong? Everything is right and wrong. It depends on your perspective.

I am Experience,
Enocia

Be True to Yourself...

...Cut the Ties that Bind

Last night, I watched a wonderful documentary called “Touching the Void” based on a book of the same name by Joe Simpson. The story follows two young climbers’ attempt to reach the summit of Siula Grande in Peru. In the meantime, their new friend, Richard, a non-mountaineer, is back at base camp looking after their stuff.

After a hard climb, Joe and Simon reach the top. During their descent, Joe breaks his leg. Although they are both aware this means possible death for Joe, Simon tries to help Joe descend. He lowers Joe on a rope to each level. Things seem to be going well until Joe falls over an overhang and can’t climb back up. His weight starts pulling Simon down. Simon has no idea what’s going on with Joe, whether he is alive or not. Eventually, Simon decides to cut the rope tying him to his friend. While Simon tries to come to terms with his friend’s supposed demise, he makes his way back to base camp.

In the meantime, Joe is left on his own trying to stay alive. He manages to drag himself back to camp. During this time, Joe realises he has two voices within him. There is a voice, that is very detached, which gives him instructions; and another voice consisting of memories. Days later, Joe arrives at base camp just in time before Simon and Richard leave the camp.

I see this story as a demonstration of surrender to higher will. What do I mean by higher will? Higher will means being true to oneself, no matter what others think. Higher will reaches everyone where they are at. Higher will connects with individuals not collective.

Before the accident, both men had been struggling. In the documentary, Joe said he was so exhausted he couldn’t be bothered to stand at the peak of Siula Grande, but he did. They had also run out of gas so they weren’t able to melt ice, which left both of them dehydrated. Neither of them were in the right frame of mind to make the descent. Here again, we see a struggle against higher will. They could have rested until they felt good about making the descent.

When Joe broke his leg, Joe knew for sure he was facing certain death. He was even surprised when his partner, Simon, stayed with him and offered to help him. But this was a huge task for the dehydrated Simon to take on. At the time, Joe was feeling vulnerable and helpless. He was putting all his trust in another human being. Simon did his best until it got to a point when his best was no longer good enough. Simon made the decision to surrender to higher will, to honour his truth and look after himself; he cut the rope. Simon’s surrender forced Joe to surrender to his higher will. The struggle was over.

How did higher will manifest within Joe’s experience? First of all, when Simon cut him loose, Joe thought he was falling to his death but he fell onto a ledge on the crevice. Joe had to make a decision: he could either take a leap of faith and trust in the unknown or sit still and wait to die. Either way, a choice had to be made. Joe used the rope he had with him to lower himself, hoping he would land on solid ground, which he did. Joe described how he noticed the sun’s rays, as if it was pointing him the way out. Then there was the inner voice which told Joe what to do, how much time he had etc. Finally, when Joe arrived at base camp, his two friends were still there. They could very easily have left Joe behind because, as far as they were concerned, Joe was dead. But something kept them there until Joe arrived.

I believe when you put your faith in another person, you’re likely to be influenced by the other’s expectation or beliefs. It is possible both of their fears influenced their descent. In a way, they were better off on their own. Joe was forced to touch the Void within him - to trust in his own resources - which manifested as the inner voice that gave him guidance; the sun’s rays; the creative way he manoeuvred himself around with a broken leg; water to drink; the will to go on; his friends’ support; and the help he received at the hospital.

The story of “Touching the Void” reminds me of the results of the recent American elections. I’ve heard people describe how surprised they were about the election results. I am not surprised at all. I believe the election results suggests that to achieve peace and freedom you have to do so within and not depend on a collective consciousness. The collective right now believe in duality: good versus evil. It is no surprise that the Americans got what they believe to be true i.e. a leader who represents goodness and will do his best to stamp out evil, albeit the evil being an illusion. Democracy represents the majority belief. Are you going to sit around waiting for another term, four years down the track, or are you going to realise that you can free yourself now? When are you going to realise you are already free?

Each of us is already connected to the Void within. We are the Void. You can either trust in someone else to interpret reality for you, be it government, spiritual teacher or Masters; or you can surrender to the higher will and know you are already peace, love, truth, source. Surrender to higher will doesn’t mean you end up struggling alone. Being true to yourself means you’re united in the one will where every one’s needs are being met according to one’s expectations.

Remember, after Joe and Simon had surrendered to the higher will, events brought them back together where they were able to support each other. In the documentary, the first thing Joe said to Simon when he saw him was he didn’t blame Simon. Joe said he would have done the same thing, he would have cut the rope.

I trust in no one to define for me what reality is. I know I am already the Void/Source/Spirit/Love. I know that when I am true to myself, I am living an authentic life. I know Love takes care of everyone’s needs right where they are. However, each of us has to take the first step - cutting the ties of beliefs and other people’s idea of reality, albeit well-meaning; and take a free fall into our real Self. In that Self is where we are all One in Love.

See you in the Void.

I am the Void,
Enocia

Poems from a dear friend

I enjoy poetry. Here are a couple a friend sent me. Enjoy...

A WET DREAM

Gawd! Where is the lavatory?
I really, really, need a pee.
My eyes are running – I can’t keep still,
My bladder’s bursting, I feel quite ill
My pants feel wet – I think I leak
Will I ever find that which I seek?
I asked a man, “Where’s the toilet, mate ?
But he had a stutter and I couldn’t wait.
So, on I ran, that way and this,
Jeez, I do so need a piss.
Oh, my lawd- there’s one right there!
Barge through the door – knock someone flying -
Can’t stop now – I’m nigh on dying
Quick! quick – quick – can’t wait no more
It’s coming out – Ahh ! – another door !
Crash ! I’m in. I get out ‘Pete’
And piddle on my pants, and seat.
Some even splashes on the tiles
It seems to run for miles and miles.
Is that a woman’s voice I hear ?
Wonder why she sounds so near
‘ He ran in here’ I heard her shout
‘And he also knocked this lady out’
Heavy footsteps – a man’s voice calls –
‘Come on out, sir -
or I’ll have your balls !’
‘Aw! Cripes !.’ I says, and with squelching shoe,
I realize it’s a ladies loo.
Then I awoke – I’m at home, instead.
Aw ! bloody hell ! I’ve wet the bed.


Just BE

If we were as a flower, a tree,
A rock, an animal, and just Be,
A different world it is we’d see.
To be still, and in that stillness find,
That which we are, Eternally.

(c) Lincoln Wakefield

Some Thoughts on Telepathy

I have observed that telepathy is very natural. To be adept at telepathy takes lots of observation and practise.

We tend to think of telepathy as someone apart from you sending a thought to you which you try to pick up. To be able to read another’s thought one has to be coming from the premise that we are all separate. I appear to be separate. I feel like a unique entity with my own thoughts and desires. On the other hand, I have had many experiences that suggests that there is only one thinker. Is there only one thinker? Are there many of us thinking? Or is it the one thinker thinking as the many? How do you get around this paradox?

I believe both statements are true. The one is appearing as the many. I, as part of the many, am a microcosm of the One. What the One has, the many has. The One is like the Internet while the many in forms represent different users tapping into the Internet. A user either has his own interpretation/reality of the Internet or can share a collective reality of the Internet. Thus, I need not concern myself with what the many are doing. I am only concerned with what I am doing.

One thing I know is that I am omnipresent, i.e. I see myself as existing in every time and space. How can I be omnipresent when there is only one Enocia sitting right here typing this article. Let’s look at it this way. In 3-D reality, the closer you are to a fire, the hotter you become. As you move further away from the flame, you reach a point when you can no longer feel the heat, yet you are still aware that the flame still exists. I like to see my real self, Enocia, as representing the central flame. The parts of me that can’t feel the flame are parts of me that are omnipresent. In other words, to be omnipresent is to have awareness of one’s presence; awareness of the flame. And what is true for me is true for the many.

What does all this have to do with telepathy? Since everyone is omnipresent, it means wherever I am there is awareness of myself and awareness of the many. Every moment contains the potential to read someone’s thoughts. It matters not what is going on with the other, I can still get an updated version right where I am.

I experience different types of telepathy: from picking up my emails remotely to channelling information from books or the Internet. I have found that in order for me to read telepathic messages, I need to know how to interpret the messages. I find symbols very useful.

Enocia is a symbol for who I am but Enocia is not who I am. Names remind me of people. I also use other symbols to represent friends and family such as the name of a place, pub, car or whatever; something I can work with.

The other day I noticed a pub I hadn’t seen before. The name of the pub was the same as my friend’s former married name. I knew there was a reason why I was thinking of her and her ex-husband right at that moment. When I went to pick up my email, there was an email from her. She even made reference to her ex-husband. I had been reading her email telepathically.

Two days ago, I noticed a little basket my mother has. Her aunt, who passed away two years ago, actually weaved it and had given it to my mother as a gift. Why was I thinking of her right at that moment? My cousin, the deceased woman’s daughter, paid my mother and I an unexpected visit that evening. It would seem I had picked up on her intention.

Recently, I noticed a particular friend’s name popping up all over the place. One morning a van with my friend’s name drove by. When I went to collect my email, I found an email from another friend with the same name. My friend said he’d been thinking about me from time to time and sending nice thoughts my way. No wonder I had noticed his name but had attributed it to another friend. The lesson here is that I should ensure that everyone I know has their own unique symbol to avoid confusion.

Just recently, I walked by a man who reminded me of my cousin. For a moment it was as if my cousin was standing right there. Later that day, I learned that my cousin was seriously ill. My mother had received the phone call about him (my cousin) at the same time I had seen my cousin’s face superimposed on that man’s face earlier.

Some telepathic messages I have picked up on have caused me to act in a particular way. A while back, I had an urge to reconfigure my laptop. Then I realised there was no logical reason why I should be doing this. I abandoned the task. The next day I read an email from a friend asking me how to configure her laptop. I had picked up her message and acted upon the thoughts as if they were my own.

Which leads to an interesting point. I have lost count of how many times I have picked up on someone’s thoughts, presuming I am the thinker. This is why it’s very important to be true to yourself. Someone might have a suggestion about something. Since you are open, you pick up on the idea and act upon the idea. You feel conflicted within: part of you thinks it’s a great idea while another part doesn’t like the idea at all. How do you resolve this conflict? How do you know what is your stuff?

Years ago during meditation I had the idea to read the Christian Science text book, “Science and Health.” Part of me thought I should pursue with the study and become a Christian Science practitioner while another part thought it wasn’t the right path for me, that I should take what I can from the book but not practise the religion or any religion for that matter. I got into a conflict. How could I be telling myself to study the book and then telling myself to move away from it? I had to ask myself what I really wanted. What did I really want out of life? I realised that I had made the right decision to read the book but it wasn’t right for me to become a Christian Scientist. I believe inner conflict is usually my way of telling myself that I am not being true to myself.

I find books and the Internet the most common ways I pick up on telepathic thoughts. Some might call this channelling. They happen in two ways: conscious and unconscious channelling. I would sit in silence for a while and then end up with tons of information, as if I’ve downloaded stuff from the Internet. Later, I would go to a bookshop and pick up a book I am drawn to and read the same information I had “downloaded” earlier. The information is always relevant to something I’m working on at the time. This is an example of unconscious channelling.

There are times when I consciously channel information. Once, I thought I would channel information about rejuvenation from the Ascended Masters Babaji and St Germain, who I’d heard lived for hundreds of years and still looked the same. I sat in silence and put the intent that I wished to have information from the two Ascended Masters. I promptly fell asleep. The next day I went to a bookshop. I picked up a book of channelled writings. In one chapter, a woman had channelled teachings from St Germain and Babaji about rejuvenation. Just what I needed.

How do I protect myself from information overload, which could result in inner conflict? There are two ways I achieve this. First, I put out the intent that I only attract information that pertains to my life choices. I am not likely to pick up email messages from people I don’t know, in the human sense of the word. Generally, only people I know telephone or email me, apart from the odd spam mails. Tuning out unwanted thoughts is like tuning into a television or satellite channel I wish to watch. The rest doesn’t concern me.

I have to bear in mind, however, that though I may not necessarily be interested in other information, it is imperative that I stay open. I need to be aware of stuff while at the same time not aware of stuff. One way I can have access to all information is by being in silence. Inner Silence is all wisdom. In silence, I am wisdom, yet, I am not overwhelmed as the information is being communicated in silence. If I wish to have information relevant to whatever I’m experiencing, I put out the intent and the silence transmutes itself into the needed material.

Finally, if I can pick up on thoughts at will, is there a way I can prevent people reading my thoughts. Yes there is. By being in silence. When I am not thinking there is nothing to pick up on, is there?

Telepathy is going round us all the time. It is our nature to be all knowing. It’s a matter of paying attention and staying open.

Most of all, telepathy is a lot of fun.

I am Wisdom
Enocia

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Are you here to serve humanity?

"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages."

("As You Like It," by William Shakespeare)

I've heard some people say they are here to use their God-given talents to serve humanity. What does it mean to serve humanity? Are we here to serve and be served?

Well, I can only speak for myself. The only one I'm here to serve is Moi. My idea of fun includes pursuing interests in healing, spirituality, critical analysis and writing. Why healing? Because I had a recurring injury which wouldn't go away and I found I had to explore different healing systems. From my research I learned lots about beliefs and how beliefs can impact one's perception of self. Spirituality, because I wanted to explore who I am. Writing, because I've always been interested in writing.

I believe if you ask any kid under the age of ten, she will tell you why she is here right now because her sense of self has not been stifled by human expectations. My mother tells me when I was around three and a half, I had two affirmations: "I am a clever girl" and "I am a beautiful girl." By eight, she tells me, I knew exactly what I was going to do with my life.

I remember when I was a child, someone asked me what I was going to do with my life. I said I was going to be a writer. I also knew that I was here to collect experiences/data and I wasn't going to take writing seriously until I was really old - in my thirties. Then, and only then, would I start writing about my experiences. It was also important that I write what I like. So everything has been leading to this. I am strictly here to experience and record my explorations of consciousness/reality.

What I find about writing schools out there, and I have attended a few, is that they teach people how to write for a particular market, i.e. serving humanity. While there is nothing inherently wrong about this, I found this approach created a block within me. In other words, because I was limiting myself I constantly experienced writer's block. I even started believing that I had periods of creative cycles. Then I got rid of that approach to writing. First of all I stopped listening to creative writing teachers and trusted in myself. Next, I decided to write for one market only - me. I write only what I would like to read. If I'm not inspired or don't find the topic interesting I don't write about it. It really doesn't matter to me whether anyone reads my work or not. I am the only reader that matters. As for writer's block, I honestly have no idea what a block is.

When I let go of the idea of serving humanity, I realised I was doing what I did out of pure love. And what I find is that you end up attracting love and appreciation from like-minds. It's rather like a musician who follows his passion for music which ends up having cross-over appeal. Why? Because love knows no boundaries. The irony is that the love of what one does ends up reaching and serving humanity in a back-handed way.

So I am not into serving anyone, per se. I believe in doing what I love. I believe everyone should do what they are passionate about and not do something out of duty. If your thing is about being a prime minister, why pretend you are here to serve your country? Why not admit to yourself that you love leadership? Your passion will attract to you the attributes necessary, support from your peers and the position of prime minister, when you will end up being the best prime minister you could ever be.

What about those who believe they are here to serve humanity by waking them to their true nature? Again, why not just call a spade a spade? We live in a world of illusions, a world where we are all acting different roles. If you wish to be a teacher why not just be a teacher? In truth, no one needs to be taught since everyone is already omniscient. I believe people are only playing dumb so they can act different roles.

I am not here to serve anyone but to express myself. My role as a researcher/writer might inspire others or it might not. It really doesn't matter. The best role I know how to play is being true to myself.

I Am the One and Only,
Enocia