Are you ruled by the Heart or Mind?

Do you follow your heart or mind? Do you do what feels right or what you ought to do according to rules, beliefs and social mores?

I was in the bookshop the other day and they were playing a song I love. I used to even have the album. The song is about a woman saying she doesn't want her boyfriend back. The chorus goes:

No, you're never gonna get it (Not this time)
Never ever gonna get it (My lovin')
No, you're never gonna get it (Had your chance to make a change)
Never ever gonna get it My Lovin' by En Vogue

Part of me was thinking, maybe I shouldn't like this song because of the woman's attitude about love. But I felt this rush of energy all over giving me goose bumps, which happens when I love something. I started bopping along and singing discreetly. I didn't want to be chucked out of the bookshop. LOL!

Have you ever seen the movie, Footloose? It's a teen rebellion flick. A teenager, Ren played by the cute Kevin Bacon, moves to a town with his family to discover that rock music and dance is forbidden. Ren manages to convince his friends that dancing is fun. My favourite scene is when Ren teaches his friend how to dance. At first, his friend has no rhythm then he discovers his own rhythm. The music pumping in the background is my all time favourite song, Let's Hear for the Boy, by Denise Williams. I love that song. Freedom prevails, dance returns to the town. It's a wonderful movie. Check it out if you haven't seen it already.

I met a friend the other day and we discussed meditation. I said I didn't follow any techniques or rules but saw meditation as fun. My friend insisted that I had to be disciplined to have experienced the Inner Light. I realised he had a point. When I first thought about meditating, I treated it as something that would be fun to do. I had no expectations, therefore, it didn't matter to me if anything happened. The "pearl" within revealed itself during the process and took me into different levels of awareness when I merged with the Light and beyond. It was much later that I read literature about meditation and about people's experiences of God-realisation/Samadhi and Inner Silence.

I found as I continued to meditate, I grew to love the experience of being in bliss so much that it became top priority. The Love to know and be Self was so intense that it took away any sense of discipline. As far as I was concerned, there was nothing else I would rather do. What else is there but Self-realisation? In my meditation I believe it is the Heart that took over which made the process such a joy.

There are other aspects of my life where I hear the mind trying to resist or rationalise over why I should do or not do something, but the Heart operates in Silence. I'm finding that the Heart is taking over.

When the Heart is in charge, it's like losing one's self-consciousness and becoming like a child. Kids skip along when the mood takes them. If they feel like singing, they sing.

I follow my joy in all ways.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I am Joy,
Enocia



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What are the Qualities of a Spiritual Guide?

It's two days ago. I've been thinking about Rigpa, the Tibetan Buddhist name for the Christ Mind. I need to re-read part of the book The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying by Sogyal Rinpoche. My copy is currently in storage. I set off to my favourite library, I mean, bookshop. (smile)

On the way, I watch a performer in the square in Covent Garden doing acrobatics which delights his audience until he asks them for money, then the crowd melts away. I dart in and out of post-Christmas shoppers chasing after sales.

At the bookshop I find the book I want. The only comfy chair available is in front of this young man. He grins at me, his smile redolent of the radiant Inner Light. I note that he is reading a book about awakening the Buddha. I get the information I want from the book and leave.

It's the next day, yesterday. This time I'm off to the same bookshop to re-read another book I have in storage called Embraced by the Light by Dannion Brinkley. On the way a couple ask me if I know the way to China Town. I tell them I'm walking in that direction so I can take them part of the way. They are from Germany. They tell me they're staying in a town outside of London and are in London for one day only. I take the opportunity to give them a whistle-stop tour of Covent Garden, pointing out places of interests as we walk along. I know this area inside out so I take shortcuts so we can avoid the crowd and arrive at our destination in the quickest time possible.

I also enjoy chatting to them. The girl has been to London before. She studied for a year at Kent on an exchange programme. It is her boyfriend's first visit to the UK. They tell me they are surprised to see so many shoppers. In Stuttgart, where they are from, people are not buying much because of the economy and people's fear of losing their jobs. I get them close enough to China Town, point the rest of the way and say goodbye.

Very funny Mr and Mrs Universe! Maybe I haven't made myself clear. When I wrote in the article How We Can Be Each Other's Guides, I meant spiritual guide not tour guide!

I arrive at the bookshop and find the book I want. To my amazement, the only comfy chair available is in front of the same man I saw yesterday. He's asleep. When he wakes up he's surprised to see me sitting in front of him, again. They are even playing the same CD they were yesterday. Talk about déjà vu! There is obviously a reason why we've been drawn together again. I ask him what he's reading. He's still reading the book about awakening the Buddha. I share with him my experiences of meditation and the Buddha within. I tell him I attended a Tibetan Buddhist meditation group for a short while. While I no longer follow any spiritual discipline, I recommend meditation as a way to experience one's Buddha nature. We spend hours chatting and sharing experiences.

The above experiences are a reflection of what I believe to be the qualities of a spiritual guide. Let's take the first example of the couple I guided to China Town. I already knew various ways to get there using the scenic and slow route or the quickest route possible. I used the quickest route to get them to their destination. Similarly, a spiritual guide is one who has traversed many "paths" and is aware of various "paths" to get to the same destination.

There was my friend at the bookshop whom I shared my experiences with. Now, while I can give him guidance about meditation because I've been there, I cannot insist on the right way for him because I know the Inner Light/Rigpa has already decided which way is suitable for him. In any case, he already knows what discipline appeals to him, this is why he's drawn to Buddhism. He said he often goes to listen to Lamas teach. My role is to encourage him to meditate, to put the teachings he's received from Lamas and the book he is reading into practice.

I believe a spiritual guide is one who is familiar with various spiritual "paths." A spiritual guide knows the final destination because he has experienced the Light/Buddha/Christ Mind using whatever path that has worked for him. Because he knows the destination, he is the evidence that this goal is achievable. A spiritual guide is also aware that the "path" is tailor-made for each individual and is therefore not interesting in imposing his way on another but to encourage the other to persist on the "path" that he has been inspired to follow.

Yes, I think I'm going to love being a spiritual guide. It's a lot of fun.

I am Spiritual Guide,
Enocia

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How We Can Be Each Other's Guides

"God is a Spirit: and they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth." (John 4: 24)

"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear." (Hebrews 11: 1; 3)

"For in him we live, and move, and have our being." (Acts 17: 28)

This morning, my mother asked me the following question.

"It's so easy to trust in the bus driver to take me to my destination or to trust in the weather forecast. Why is it so difficult to trust in God?"
"Because we can't see what is Spirit. It's easy to believe in something you can experience through your senses than what you can't see."

Later, I accompanied my mother to the local hospital to have a blood test. In preparation, she had not eaten since last night. As we walked through the hospital grounds, she said she felt dizzy from hunger. For a few seconds I held her arm then I advised her to let the Spirit, the God that she believes in, walk her. I let go of her arm. The dizziness left her.

In my own personal experience, I have to remember that Spirit is my life. I either start the day realising that Spirit is in charge, be in stillness or whenever I can, I acknowledge that Spirit is all there is. You see what happens when I acknowledge Spirit as life is my body is Spirit and is therefore not under the law of mortal mind of disease and pain. This is how one can achieve healing in an instant.

Isn't it wonderful that it doesn't matter what your thoughts or beliefs were a second ago, or how long you've been studying truth teachings? You can trust in the Spirit Now. As Paul puts it:

"Now is the accepted time; behold, now is the day of salvation." (2 Corinthians 6: 2)

Charles Fillmore, co-founder of Unity, acknowledges that healing by the Holy Spirit is instant compared to the slow process of truth realisation.

Do not regard the Holy Spirit altogether as a restorative principle without feeling, sympathy or love. This reduces your healing method to intellectual logic and the slow process of mental science. Under this method the patient must always be educated in Truth principles before he can be healed. No instantaneous healing ever takes place under this method. The Holy Spirit is sympathetic, comforting, loving, forgiving and instantly healing. (Jesus Christ Heals by Charles Fillmore, p. 183)

Since I've got into the habit of seeing myself as material, I need to constantly remember that I am Spirit. It's that simple - remember that all is Spirit, all is Love and let Spirit do the work.

In these times of uncertainty for many who have been affected by the Tsunami in Asia, maybe those who are used to trusting in the Spirit can be each other's guides. I'm not suggesting that people go round telling others how to live but by reminding others to trust/be God, Allah, Krishna, Buddha, Mind, Source, Spirit, Love, Inner Silence, Stillness - whatever one's belief is. Let people cease to look towards forms, people or things but to the invisible. While what we seek may manifest as forms, let us remember, to look to the invisible realm to meet all our needs.

My idea of a guide is to meet people where they are. I accept my mother's beliefs in medicine so I accompanied her to the hospital. I can only remind her to always trust in God. How her need is met is none of my concern.

A guide could remind another to either be still and know who s/he is, or to trust in Spirit (God, Allah, Krishna, Buddha, Mind, Source, Spirit, Love, Inner Silence, Stillnes) for

Spirit is Reality
Spirit is Truth
Spirit is Love
Spirit is Supply
Spirit is Harmony
Spirit is Peace
Spirit is Life

I am Spirit,
Enocia

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Are Natural Disasters Acts of God?

"Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation; There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling." (Psalm 91: 9-10)

Given the recent floods and earthquake in Asia, I know the question must be on many people's lips: why do disasters happen? If there is a God, why does He let these disasters take place. Would a God of Love allow these tragedies? I want to give my perspective on what is going on behind the scenes, but before I do, a little shaggy dog story, which is very relevant I assure you. (smile)

It's Christmas Eve and I'm walking home. It's started to rain. In the last six months I've only had my umbrella out four times because I prefer dry weather; I always seem to be indoors, on a bus or somewhere else when it is raining. As I don't wish to get wet I put up my umbrella, grumbling to myself about the weather. There is a sudden gust of wind. I struggle with the wind, trying to point my umbrella in the right direction so my umbrella won't break. What am I doing playing around with the wind? I am Peace! Where there is peace there is only stillness. The rain and wind stop in an instant. There is not a single drizzle or wind for the duration of my ten minute walk home.

Later that night, early Christmas morning, I'm watching the movie, Gone With the Wind. It's the type of movie where you can fall asleep, wake up and you will be able to catch up on the story. Besides, I've seen it enough times already. I am only interested in the final scene when Rhett Butler says the famous line: "Frankly my dear, I don't give a damn." So I fall asleep. I wake up to a scene in the middle of the civil war. I think to myself that the war represents mortal mind. If you think about people and events as thoughts and ideas emanating from mind, then mind must be very chaotic to manifest as the many wars in human history. I watch part of the movie and fall asleep again. When I wake up the movie is almost over. Damn! I've missed Rhett Butler's line, but I manage to catch Scarlett say "Tomorrow is another day."

It's the next day, Boxing Day. I have a thought that I should watch the news as they often try to have "good" news around Christmas. There's news about the Tsunami in Asia. As events unfold I can see that is mortal mind that is unfolding not Radiant/Christ Mind. I can see that it is the fear and disharmony in mind that has been manifested as this disaster. You can never tell how or when disharmony will manifest. Only last week, a man in the neighbouring town from where I live went about stabbing people at random. It turned out the man lives on the same road I lived, when I first came to London. And then there was the flash floods in Boscastle, Cornwall, earlier this year. There weren't any fatalities but there was lots of chaos. You never know how these things are going to manifest, but they do eventually.

Incidentally, on the same night as the news of the Tsunami, there was a movie I watched called The Man Who Sued God starring Billy Connolly. Connolly's character, Steve Myers, has a boat that is struck by lightning. The insurance company refuses to pay out claiming they do not cover Acts of God. Myers, who is also a lawyer, takes God's representatives i.e. the religious establishments to court. The irony is that God's representatives are caught in an impasse; for them to win, they will have to prove God does not exist. Myers is supported by many others whose insurance claims had been rejected because of "Acts of God." During the trial, Myers falls in love with a fellow plaintiff. There is a scene when they are about to make love. The next scene shows bubbling waves symbolic of the couple's ecstatic union, no doubt. Interesting how water can represent so many things: flash floods, tsunami are symbolic of disharmony in mind; fountains and bubbling water signify a couple making love, etc.

Myers decides he's going to give up on the fight. He says he doesn't think God, who is everywhere, destroyed his boat. He said that in any case, something good has come out of the disaster, he's fallen in love. The next thing you know a white bird that resembles a dove flies through the court windows and stands on a table in front of the judge. It is actually a cockatoo. The bird says "hello" and flies out again. Was this God confirming He was pleased Myers had given up the case?

Back to the matter in hand about the recent disaster. Would a God of Love create such suffering? If God is everywhere, why would such a disaster take place? I see things on two levels.

On one level, I see freewill at work. Love doesn't judge. We are allowed to think "fearful" thoughts and under cause and effect, what you have in thought is made manifest in unpredictable ways. Love cannot take away that Freedom of thought from man. Man has to realise through repeated experiences that there is another way. If he wishes a peaceful life, he has to choose a peaceful state of mind.

On another level, there is the Radiant/Perfect/Christ Mind that I experience as inner silence and peace. When you are operating from that Consciousness, harmony is what is experienced. This harmony doesn't fight against itself. This harmony inspires beauty and order in society, even in nature.

"...when the self is in communion with a higher power, nature automatically obeys, without stress or strain, the will of man. This effortless command over nature is called 'miraculous' by the uncomprehending materialist." Autobiography of a Yogi

My point here is that disasters are a manifestation of disharmony in mind. No one is to blame, it is just the nature of mortal mind which is filled with contradictory beliefs of good versus evil; right versus wrong etc; it is a mind that is self-destructive. Unless man realises his nature as Peace, unless man comes to know his innate self as stillness, man will continue to experience life as up and down, gain and losses, pain and pleasure, good and evil, which are unpredictable. Only those who are aware of a power, the only real power, will be protected from disasters and the like.

I saw a man being interviewed on the news who was caught in the Tsunami in Phuket. He said the water had reached his neck and he thought he was going to drown, but he prayed. He said luckily for him the water moved away from him leaving him dry. He was then able to escape. The man realised at that moment that there was a Power greater than what was going on around him and he was saved. He calls it luck, but I call it Mind expressing harmony when called upon.

"A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee. Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked." (Psalm 91: 7-8)

I expect there are going to be different reasons people will come up with for these disasters. The scientists are going to blame these disasters on global warming or El Nino. The religionists are going to say calamities signify the second coming of Christ. Others will claim disasters occur to teach us how to love one another and that "good" will always come out of "evil," just like in the above movie, Myers found love. Be that as it may. I see the disasters as manifestations of the fear within mortal mind.

In truth none of these disasters are happening within the Perfect Mind. Can Perfection manifest that which it is not? I believe Harmony is All There Is. Whatever is projected from Harmony has to be like Harmony, and disasters don't fit the bill.

Like everything, it's a matter of choice. Do you choose to let your life be a demonstration of Perfect Mind or is it from the dual mind where anything can happen.

While my thoughts and love go out to people affected by the disaster or those who see the disaster as real, I know that the best I can do is to be still and know who I am.

I am Stillness,
Enocia

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What is Guidance?

"Compared with audible language, communion in mind can be said to be without sound. It is the "still small voice," the voice that is not a voice, the voice using words that are not words. Yet its language is more definite and certain than that of words and sounds, because it has none of their limitations. Words and sounds are attempts to convey a description of emotions and feelings, while by the language of mind emotions and feelings are conveyed direct. But again you must transcend what you understand as emotion and feeling in order to interpret the language of God. This is not hard. It is your natural language, and you need only return to your pristine state of purity to achieve it entirely." (from: Jesus Christ Heals by Charles Fillmore, p.33)

Anyone who has experienced meditation will know that you eventually arrive at a place of pure silence, pure bliss. With practise, this state of inner silence stays with you during your "waking" hours. I have found Inner Silence has a sound but not like a physical sound I know. The best way I've heard it described, that comes close to my experience, is as follows:

"Quantum objects become increasingly granular or refined until they become pure light energy and cease to have mass. They are not of physical reality, but rather of a pure-state energy. This energy is further segmented into octaves of vibration. In other words, this light energy vibrates, and just like music, there are fundamentals and harmonics. The harmonics resonate with the fundamental energy vibration and the whole energy packet sings like a choir--except its voice is light. Wingmakers

This singing is the Voice of Source. You cannot use words or senses to describe this state, it is unconditioned. Even when I don't always hear it or I'm busy with worldly stuff, I'm always aware it exists for I know it is what underlies all forms. I know that when I have a problem, all I need do is listen to this "song" and the answers are there. I only need to listen and know that I have received all I need to know because the answer in its entirety is already present. The moment I attempt to put this into words, I'm attempting to limit the unlimited.

What then is spiritual guidance? I hear people talking about "guides" and the inner voice. I have also written in the past about the inner voice. I believe the inner voice is my inner self trying to make sense of the infinite Mind. Even that voice is flawed. To get the full meaning is to go beyond words and listen, not in the human sense of using ears, but listening with awareness. The sound I hear like the "voice of light" is awareness. It's funny because I can hear that sound while still hearing my thoughts trying to make sense of the world. This "voice of light" goes on non-stop, forever.

The only guidance I believe we all have is the stillness, whether you hear it as a sound or not. The stillness is complete. The stillness is infinite. The stillness is unconditioned. Imagine trying to sort out something based on your limited awareness. Why not be still and know yourself as this silence then let its unlimited knowing appear as the solution. I have written in an article called Creation is a Reaction to What Already Is that everything already exists as formless ideas. The Stillness is the formless. When we let it happen and connect to this stillness, it will manifest in form what already exist as formless.

The solution to any problem we have ever imagined lies in the following statement:

"Be still, and know that I am God." (Psalm 46: 10)

Can't say more than that.

I am Silence,
Enocia

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Law and Love

"Love is patient and kind; love is not jealous or boastful; it is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right.

"Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

"Love never ends; as for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away." (1 Corinthians 13: 4-8)

For weeks now I've been seeing this lovely man on the bus and exchanging smiles. He's always been with his girlfriend. I've often thought it would be nice to have a proper chat with him. The magical universe arranged it this morning so we could ride on the bus alone together and have a proper chat about life. I found out he is from Poland and his name is Magic (this is not the Polish spelling). (Smile)

We discussed what his experiences in the UK were like compared to life in Poland, and how baffled he was over the laws in the UK which seem to favour one group over another. I said to my friend that human laws are chaotic. The same law that is appropriate one minute will no longer be appropriate under a different situation.

The moral laws are ostensibly to create order in society, but they are based on beliefs in fear and disharmony. The rise of many professions are based on disharmony. Where will a doctor be if man didn't believe his body fights against him? Where will solicitors and the police be if man didn't believe he was both good and evil? Need I go on? I'm sure you get the picture.

The human idea of laws is about passing judgments, which ends up making people have more faith in disunity than unity. Do you think any human law would have got me together with my friend on the bus? I believe a higher "law" was at work, that of Love.

I believe there are three laws.

1. You are free to choose - Love or fear.
2. You attract what you believe to be true.
3. Where there is Love, there are no laws.

Because I know Love to be the only Real, I see man-made laws as unreal and having no power.

Love is under no rules or conditions.
Love doesn't judge.
Love accepts all.
Love is boundless freedom.

I am Love,
Enocia

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How To Manifest Heaven on Earth

The way to let the All There Is that is the Formless You express as form is to:

BE THE LOVE THAT YOU ARE!

Love is how Source expresses Self. Love is how the Formless is made manifest as the world of forms.

Be the Love that You are in all your ways. It is that simple!

I am Love,
Enocia

Unity is Beyond Belief and Synchroncity

In a world where all is Source unfolding perfectly, it seems pointless having beliefs. The only law seems to be that whatever you have in thought already exists as formless ideas which is made manifest. I find that when you focus on doing what you love, things flow effortlessly. There is no longer any need to think about synchronicity, just Mind expressing Self.

A couple of things caught my attention yesterday. First of all, while reading about advertising on the Internet, I saw an ebook about self-made millionaires. While I was waiting for my bus into town, an extremely tall man walked by. I wondered what it felt like seeing the world from that great height. Then I saw someone who reminded me of an ex-boyfriend.

I went into town and bought some mince pies my mother wanted. I went into my favourite bookshop to browse. While I sat there, I scoffed three mince pies, well I do love mince pies. They played two of my ex-boyfriend's songs; he is a music producer. A few teenagers sat beside me and in front of me. One boy was reading the Guinness Books of Records and commented about the tallest man ever, what big feet he had etc. He said by the time the man was 11 years old, he was already as tall as the American basketball player, Michael Jordan; and Michael ain't no dwarf! Another boy got up and went looking for books. He returned with a book called "Self-made millionaires." And then they left. Interesting!

A week ago I was in the same bookshop. The book that caught my eye was called: "Everything You Know is Wrong." Minutes later a young man asked a sales assistant for a book called: "Everything You Know is Wrong." The curious thing was the book I saw was in the Mind, Body, Spirit section yet the sales assistant pointed the customer in the opposite direction. I wanted to know why so I followed them. I discovered a book of the same title existed under Media, written from a media perspective.

Back to my evening yesterday. On my way home I decided I was going to take the first bus as far as Euston, then get another bus home. A young man I sat beside asked me how long it was to Euston station as that was his destination. We got chatting and he told me he's got a website business which you can check out called CuffLinksWorld. (Hi M!) He said he lived in north west London. We parted company at Euston.

I let two buses go by because they were packed and I didn't fancy standing up. An empty bus finally appeared. Someone had left a local "Hendon Times" newspaper on a seat; Hendon is in North West London, not far from the guy I had just met. I flicked through the pages and found a story that was very interesting.

I have noticed how the pavements in London, particularly in Oxford Street, have dark spots from discarded chewing gums. Looks very unseemly! I read an article called Painting a Gum Trail about an artist who "intends to paint pictures faces, animals, suns, name it and he will do it on pieces of discarded gum all the way from Barnet to the West End of London." What a task! I was glad to read about someone who is making the marks look more interesting. It was definitely worth waiting for a later bus. I not only got to travel in comfort, I also got the opportunity to read this charming story. In any case, my bus overtook the two buses ahead.

And to top it all, the driver of my last bus was dressed up as Santa Claus! What fun!

It is my experience that when you let Life unfold, it is magical and so much fun.

Have fun!

Love Enocia

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Creation is a Reaction to What Already Is

"The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; and that which is done is that which shall be done: and there is no new thing under the sun." (Ecclesiastes 1: 9)

"God's laws are changeless, the same as they have ever been. While they are immutable, they are beneficent, for they are good. When we live in conformity to them, they become the very foundation stones on which we build our health, our happiness, our peace and poise, our success and attainment. If we abide fully in God's law, no evil can befall us. We do not need to be healed. We are every whit whole.” Life and Teachings of the Masters of the Far East, Volume 1

"All things were made by him; and without him was not any thing made that was made." (John 1: 3)

Everything you see around you exists as perfect ideas within the formless state. All future inventions already exist in a state of formlessness as ideas. In order for the formless to be made manifest as form, it is a matter of letting it unfold. I believe my identity is the Formless, therefore, life is an ongoing process of expressing what I already am, what we all are, as the Formless

Why stress yourself trying to create something new? Have you noticed when you take away the letter "e" from the word “create” you get the anagram “react?” Creating something is reacting to what already exists.

An artist appears to be creating a painting from scratch, but what he is doing is bringing forth what already exists as ideas into form. But if the artist believes he is creating the art, then he is reacting/fighting against his true nature that is effortless. This is why some artists and writers talk about "blocks." How can you be ever be "blocked" when you are expressing what already exists?

It is the same reaction to our effortless Self as Source which results in sickness, pain and suffering. Why not let the Perfection that you are come forth, which manifests as radiant health, eternal youth beauty, perfect skin, etc according to your ideals? We have got so used to doing things our way.

There is an ad for constipation right now on television. It says something like: "When you had constipation, did you hope it would just go away by itself or did you take something for the constipation?" I have tried both ways - doing something and doing nothing. The "doing nothing" part was the most challenging. Both choices happened for me as different stages of realisations.

At first, I identified myself as my material body. So it was perfectly natural that I would believe that a material body needed fixing by material means. When I was sick I went to the doctor or saw alternative practitioners. When I was lacking in energy I ate food or took tablets.

Then I realised that my body was a projection of my mind. I was therefore responsible for my body because of the beliefs I had about reality. I had to be very vigilant about the thoughts I had. I did all I could to keep my body in harmony by thinking harmonious thoughts. Being vigilant against "negative" thoughts felt like a never-ending battle. Surely, there had to be an easier way?

I then realised that my body is a projection of Mind, not my mind, not someone else's mind, but of Mind. Jesus says:

"I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me." (John 14: 6)

I believe Jesus is referring to Mind, which is the one and only medium through which the Formless takes form. The nature of Mind is Harmony. Therefore, Harmony has to manifest as a body, life and affairs that are always in perfect harmony when you trust Harmony to express Itself.

Hang on a minute! If there is no such thing as creation, which is a reaction to what already exists, this must surely mean that I don't need to do anything? I only need to realise that all is an expression of Mind. I only need to let Mind express as me. How simple is that? Nah! Can life be that simple? Can it?

I am realising that the human experience has things in reverse. In Reality, I am supposed to let Perfection express Itself. If I have to take tablets and help Perfection along the way, I’m presuming I know more than Perfection. This is how most of us having a human experience have been programmed; doing things My Way like the Frank Sinatra song.

Yes, there were times, I’m sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows -
And did it my way! My Way

The above lyrics is an epitome of my life. I started off believing in my own power and worth and where did that get me? Not very far, with lots of headaches to boot.

When I tried to do things my way, I was trying to create something new, which is impossible. If you are creating what is not of Mind, you're bound to create something alien manifesting as all manner of diseases and disasters that are abound. But hey, this is what freewill is about, right? You make your choices, you learn from your choices, you try again and you keep on keeping on. There are no regrets only learning lots of lessons. It's all part of identifying oneself as human; all part and parcel of reacting to your nature as Spirit.

And then I wake up and realise that my real Self is the Formless taking forms through Mind. I realise that what Mind did not create is a figment of the imagination, a waking "dream," which has no substance or reality. I then relax and let Mind do what It does best. I let Mind express what already Is for eternity.

I relax and enjoy the journey of expression.

Now that sounds good to me.

I am Expression,
Enocia

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A Christmas Message

"All things were made by him; and without him was not any thing made that was made. In him was life; and the life was the light of men. And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not." (John 1: 3-5)

One thing I love about this period are Christmas lights. I love looking at Christmas decorations on shop windows and admiring lights on the streets. Oxford Street in London, that is usually heaving with shoppers, has strobe lights that remind me of the movie, Star Wars. Any moment now I expect a star ship to land in Oxford Street and Luke Skywalker to shout "Merry Christmas!" The strobe lights also remind me of a movie projector, making shoppers seem like extras on an epic movie.

At some point during my bus journey yesterday evening into town, the windows got steamy. I could have wiped the window to get a better view, but I thought it would be fun to see the world in this way. All I could make out were lights from cars, shop windows, street lights and Christmas lights, while the barely discernible shoppers were beings of light moving at incredible speed.

I believe the manifest universe is nothing but Light, not as we experience light on Earth, but the brightest Light you can imagine. This Light is what brings formless ideas into forms. This Light is the Christ, the way Source is made manifest.

The Light is Perfection.
The Light is Love.
The Light is Peace.
The Light is Truth.
The Light is Life.

It is this Light that brings peace and harmony to the human experience.

The religious significance behind Christmas is supposed to be about remembering and celebrating the birth of the personality called Jesus, who it is believed, was/is the Christ. I believe anyone who realises that the manifest world is Light is Christ-conscious. Anyone who realises his identity is Light is the Christ. Thus, it is not only Jesus who has attained Christ-consciousness, but many have and many more continue to do so.

My message to anyone reading this is to remember who you are. As you celebrate Christmas (if you do celebrate), remember that though there is only One Light, that Light is right where you are.

You are the Light of the world.

Happy Holidays!

Love Enocia

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Do We Create Our Own Realities?

"It is the spirit that quickeneth; the flesh profiteth nothing." (John 6: 63)

"All things were made by him; and without him was not any thing made that was made." (John 1: 3)

"Lo, this only have I found, that God hath made man upright; but they have sought out many inventions." (Ecclesiastes 7: 29)

"I am responsible for what I see. I choose the feelings I experience, and I decide upon the goal I would achieve. And everything that seems to happen to me I ask for, and receive as I have asked." (A Course in Miracles)

Do we create our realities? It's a question I've pondered upon. I believe the answer to this question depends on one's consciousness. Before I elaborate, let me examine the concepts "create" and "reality."

I believe there are two types of reality: Reality and "reality."

Reality is a state of consciousness that has always existed and will always exist. Reality has no beginning or end. When we talk about concepts such as Love, Peace, Truth, Power, Beauty and Perfection we are talking about Reality. Has Love ever tapped you on the shoulder? Has Peace ever made you a cup of tea? Has Beauty ever shed a tear? These are all invisible, but we know they exist. Ask anyone what he understands by Perfection and he will describe his idea of Perfection. He will never be able to express fully in words what Perfection is. Ditto Peace. Ditto Love. These qualities exist as consciousness that is eternal, and is what I refer to as Reality. I believe Reality was and is never created.

Now, someone who lives in a state of Reality identifies himself as the one Eternal, Infinite, Invisible Spirit, Source or Love. He sees the Universe as Love. He knows that all there is is Love. He makes no distinction between his inner state of Love and the outer. Both are one and the same - Love. This individual is always the same - Love.

I believe "reality" is a state of consciousness that sees itself as outside of Reality. Someone living in a state of "reality" believes he has his own mind and can therefore think his own thoughts. He identifies himself as the personality in whatever realm/planet he is living in. He might even see himself as having a body, mind and spirit but having a human experience. His mood is always changeable.

What does create mean. The dictionary states:

"To cause to exist; bring into being.
"To produce through artistic or imaginative effort: create a poem; create a role." Dictionary.com

I have already established that Reality has always existed. You cannot make Love come into being when it is forever Love. But you can express Love. When we talk about creation, do we actually mean expression? Right now, I appear to be creating an article from scratch. What am I really doing? I am bringing into form what already exists as formless. The ideas I am using already exist as Reality. As the inner and outer are one, I am simply expressing the inner world (formless) into the outer (form) as writing I can understand. I believe nothing is ever created but there is always an expression of the Infinite invisible into forms.

Reality and "reality" relates to a state of consciousness; while creation refers to expression. I believe everyone lives in Reality as that is our true state, yet many people are not aware they do. Another way to put it is Reality exists whether you are aware of it or not. I believe the need to express life comes from Reality. It is Reality that urges people to do what they love, to have fun, be peaceful etc.

Someone living in a state of "reality" experiences life according to her inner states. You believe you have your own mind and your own thoughts, therefore, what you experience is always dependent on your thoughts. Naturally, if you have your mind and thoughts you are creating your own reality.

Let's say, you're someone who lives in a consciousness of "reality" and would dearly love to emigrate to another country because you believe you will be a lot happier. After you have emigrated to that country, you're still miserable. It is not the country that is miserable, or making you miserable, but your thoughts and ideas that have created that state within you. If you wish to make yourself happy, you don't expect the country to make you happy, you simply change your thoughts about your life and you are happy. You then realise that you are solely responsible for making yourself happy or miserable. You can therefore live anywhere you like and you will always be happy or miserable.

An individual who lives in a state of "reality" knows about Love because that is his true state. Let's say you wish to express Love to a friend. You might do this verbally, buy a present, go out and do something you both enjoy, send her an email, or the many varieties of ways that represent your way of expressing what you understand as Love. It will seem to you as if you are creating a reality of expressing Love.

If you are someone living in Reality consciousness i.e. you know Love is all there is, you realise you do not create anything. You realise that Love is what is being expressed as you and the world around you. You realise that it is the Spirit/Invisible that is quickening or expressing life. Since you are one with the Spirit, it is You expressing life.

It would seem that those living in a state of Reality have no choice for there is only one choice, which means no choice. You still have to make choices of course, but every decision you make is always based on the one Reality - only Reality/Love/Source exists. So in every decision you make, you let the One express as you. You are always Reality in all you do.

Those who live in a state of "reality" have plenty of choices. They are always choosing different inner states to create different situations, until one day you realise your nature is Reality. You make the decision to live as Reality; you make a decision to only have one choice.

Do we create our realities? If we are talking about states of consciousness then the answer is yes and no. If you are one with Spirit that was never created, then you are expressing yourself as life. Therefore, there is no such thing as creation.

If you believe there is a spiritual aspect to you and you are human, then yes you are creating your states from day to day to experience life. How people react to you, or how circumstances unfold in your life, will always depend on your thoughts and beliefs.

However you experience life is up to you. What do you choose? Do you create or do you express what already is? Do you live in "reality" or are you Reality?

I am Reality,
Enocia

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I am Boundless Light

"Everything comes from Intelligence. There is nothing but Unity; there is nothing but Freedom; there is nothing but Completeness; there is nothing but Totality. Begin at the beginning and reason this out, time about time, until all doubt disappears. It is necessary that each one do this for himself.

"Such is the power of right thinking that it cancels and erases everything unlike itself. It answers every question, solves all problems, is the solution to every difficulty. It is like the sunlight of Eternal Truth bursting through the clouds of obscurity and bathing all life in a celestial glory. It is the Absolute with which we are dealing and nothing less." (Science of Mind by Ernest Holmes, p. 128)

"God is light, and in him is no darkness at all." (1 John 1: 5)

Last night, before going to sleep, I meditated on Oneness. The moment I thought "only One exists" I couldn't feel my body. I had no sense of beginning or ending, I felt like the vastness of the Universe and beyond.

I fell asleep but kept waking up out of my dreams. It was as if the thoughts necessary for me to experience dreams were being erased. And where there is no dream, I am awake in Reality. Was I experiencing the Truth of Reality?

When I have studied Truth teachings, I have pondered over what the One Love, Truth, Power and Life means. I know intellectually that where there is only one Power, there is no opposition to the One Power. Where there is no opposition, there has to be complete Harmony. How Harmony manifests might be interpreted as Love, Freedom, Bliss, Truth, Abundance, Perfection and Beauty.

Why not test out how it feels like to be the One having life without any preconceived ideas? Why not let the essence of the One reveal itself?

It is this morning. My bus is caught up in a traffic jam. Instead of thinking about being stuck and how long my journey is taking, I see myself as the radiant Sun shining its light on all forms. Incidentally, I've noticed the sun is shining brighter than usual this morning. I can't seem to get away from the sun's glare. It is as if I am seeing the sun for the first time. The rays speak to me about my nature as Freedom, boundless energy. I lap up the sun's rays until I feel weightless. Soon, the traffic melts away into nothingness. Or is it Freedom is being expressed as nothingness that manifests in the physical realm as "no traffic?"

As I write this I realise the traffic jam represents my own life. I have felt stuck in some areas of my life. I am actually been shown that I am already Freedom. I am boundless Light. How can I be stuck when I am freedom?

Holmes has also written:

"Spirit makes things out of Itself by becoming the thing it makes. There is no effort in the process." (Science of Mind by Ernest Holmes, p. 132)

I am becoming myself: the Light that has no darkness. I'm letting the Light permeate me and do what Light does best: bring light into all areas of my life.

I am Light,
Enocia

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Positive Thinking is Not Enough

"With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible." (Matthew 19: 26)

This happened two days ago.

I'm on my way into town on the bus. I have fallen asleep. After a while, I sense that the bus has stopped and it feels a lot cooler. I open my eyes to discover nearly all the passengers have gone. Our bus is parked behind another bus. Another passenger asks the driver why he has stopped. He tells us there's been an accident and the police have stopped the traffic, at least on our route.

"How long do you reckon we're going to be here?" the passenger asks.
"I don't know, we could be here for hours," the driver says.
"No, we're not," I say. "What's the matter with you drivers? You always have to see things in a negative way, don't you?"
"I'm just stating how it is," the driver says. "We could be here for hours."
"We will be moving shortly," I say to the passenger.
"How do you know?" the driver says.
"Because it's true."
"We'll see."
"And another thing," I say to the driver. "You're going to drive me to my destination."

The other passenger decides he will also wait on the bus. Despite appearances, I know that all is perfect. Only One Exists, I think to myself. There is only One power that nothing can oppose, and it is ever present.

After a few minutes the driver is back. "I just thought I'll let you know that you could get off and take the bus 254 which will take you further down the road to Aldgate, then wait there and connect to another bus."
"And that's going to take me to my destination, how?"
"I'm just giving you a suggestion," he says.
"Well thanks, but I'll wait, if you don't mind."

The roads are cleared in about 10 minutes and we are on our way. Our bus is behind a long queue of buses but our bus overtakes all of them. We arrive well ahead of the others.

The above experience demonstrates what can happen when you put your trust in the human realm. Within the human realm is chaos which affects everyone else. You can try using positive thinking but it feels like you're on an ongoing battle. The driver had his mind set that we were going to stay put for ages. As more and more people believe in the reality of chaos and delays, this is what is created. I knew there wasn't any point trying to change things in the human realm. I had to "raise" myself to realise the truth that "only One exists." Within the One there is only harmony, for there is nothing to oppose it. And the One transcends all human limitations.

When I declare the truth that "only One exists, I'm putting my faith in the one Power, the one Love, the one Truth, and the one Life.

Positive thinking doesn't quite cut it.

I am One,
Enocia

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Where Do You Put Your Faith?

"Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear."(Hebrews 11: 3)

I am curious. Why do some people find it so hard to trust in the unseen when they are already such experts at trusting in the unseen? If you have ever listened to the weather forecast, you will know what I'm talking about.

A weather presenter stands in front of a map of your country. She puts symbols and numbers on the map, which represent temperatures and climatic conditions. She waffles on about what the weather has been like and what we should expect to experience in the next few days. What do people do? They believe the weather forecast because the meteorologists are always right, aren't they? Some people even plan their wardrobes around the weekly forecast.

If you can believe in something that hasn't happened, surely you can believe in the unseen? For me, the weather forecast is no different from treasure maps used in creative visualisation. In creative visualisation, you imagine yourself in situations you wish to experience and if you believe, the situation is made manifest. A treasure map is another version of visualisation. You create a collage of pictures you wish to manifest, or you can draw symbols representing what you wish to experience. The way a treasure map works is when you focus on the pictures on your map and believe in them, the map attracts to you the equivalent experiences. Shakti Gawain's book, "Creative Visualisation," has a chapter devoted to treasure maps.

Treasure maps come in different forms. In the corporate world, people use treasure maps all the time, but they call them presentations. You want to persuade your staff or colleagues about an idea, design an equivalent presentation. Put lots of graphs, figures and pictures on the presentation and they're sold. You want someone to invest in your company, design a presentation that will dazzle prospective clients; and if they are convinced, you've got their business.

The map a weather presenter uses is basically a treasure map and works on a similar basis. The presenter get her audience to focus on the symbols and temperatures. She tries to persuade her audience by reminding them of previous temperatures that have come true, and then give a forecast. Once people believe, manifesting the physical conditions is easy. You shouldn't be surprised to see snow the next day if millions believe the presenter's prediction of snow.

What if you were to superimpose different figures on whatever the forecast says. If the forecast says it's going to be 2 degrees Celsius, why not put a zero next to the 2 and make it 20 degrees. Just because a presenter is talking about isobars doesn't make what she is saying real. She is only making it up as she goes along. There's no difference between the forecast and what you have on your treasure map - both are possible realities that will manifest when you believe. I reckon everyone should create their own weather forecasts. That will baffle the meteorologists. Can you imagine in deep winter, when it's supposed to be cold, to have days that feel like summer? It will happen when people stop believing in the weather forecasts.

Someone must benefit from weather forecasts. There are the clothes and shoes manufacturers and the energy companies. I bet the share holders of energy companies love it when it gets "cold" so people will turn up their heating. As soon as the season changes, people rush off to the shops to buy new coats, jumpers and boots to keep them warm; or lighter clothes when it gets warmer. Naturally, it is the minority, the owners of these companies, who are going to benefit from weather changes. I wouldn't be surprised if the meteorologists aren't funded by clothes manufacturers and energy companies.

I'm all for people experiencing choice. Where is the choice when a minority is controlling the masses to create a weather that would benefit them? When everyone has equal amount of wealth, you can play the game of weather changes. You can create different climates so you can experience what it feels like to wear warmer clothes or to have heating or whatever you prefer. You can afford to play any game you like. If you don't feel like playing that game, you can always create your own weather. Right now, it's not a level playing field at all. People are being fooled into creating a reality that benefits the few.

The way to fight back is to use the skills we already have. In an article called It's No Big Deal, I wrote:

"Every new experience I have had, I've gone from feeling a sense of wonder to appreciation and then indifference. In other words, when an experience becomes a habit, it makes it feel natural; and when it's natural, I feel indifferent. I believe habit is the key to experiencing 'miracles.'"

Let's say, I believe in the weather forecast, which suggests I believe in the unseen. The unseen is made manifest, thus confirming the weather predictions. I have got into the habit of treating the forecasts as natural. In other words, I see the forecasts as cause; the effect is the actual weather conditions the following day. Why not use the technique of believing in the unseen to one's advantage? If I can help to create a reality by simply looking at a weather map and believing in it, surely I can create my own "weather" map in my mind and manifest what I have in thought. It's a skill everyone already has. Where you put you faith is what you will create.

Why let the minority tell you how you should live your life? Why not take responsibility over how you perceive the world and your outer world will change accordingly.

Where do you put your faith? I put my faith in the power within me.

I trust in me,
Enocia

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I am Responsible For How I Perceive the World

"God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.
The heathen raged, the kingdoms were moved: he uttered his voice, the earth melted.
Be still, and know that I am God." (Psalm 46: 1, 6, 10)

The other day, my mother's friend phoned her late at night in distress. Someone had broken into her flat and stolen her valuables. Mum said the neighbourhood wasn't safe after all. I disagreed with her. Everywhere is safe unless you think it isn't. Out of curiousity, I asked mum whether her friend had any spiritual beliefs. Mum said she is a born-again Christian. Interesting! How come she wasn't protected?

In Joel Goldsmith's book "Spiritual Healing," he cites a man who faithfully prays every morning and uses Psalm 91 before going out. He and his family are involved in a car accident. The man asks Goldsmith how the accident could have happened. Goldsmith asks him why he prays. It turns out the man has fearful thoughts about people, accidents and the likes, and that is exactly what he ends up creating.

The first line of Psalm 91 states:

"He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty."

I have used Psalm 91 in the past. I believe this Psalm is one way of acknowledging the power of Love to protect one from all manners of "evil" that mankind has dreamed up, and a reminder that Source is man's provider. The idea is to trust in this Infinite Power that is already within and without. If you go around thinking of people or circumstances as good or evil, you end up creating that reality.

I know for a fact that you can be in a war zone area and not be harmed, when you acknowledge only Love exists. I once read a story of a battalion during the second world war, I believe, who used Psalm 91 and not a single one was killed.

I have walked in areas very late at night that some people would consider unsafe, and I have had no fear because I know only Love is present.

While I acknowledge the presence of Love, I don't stipulate how this love should be experienced by others. If I see a couple having a row in the street, I'm not going to blast them with my "love" ray. (smile) At a human level, I don't know what is good for them or what love means for them. Every day, there are group meditations and prayers for world peace and I don't see lasting peace. I believe it is because people are trying to dictate what this peace should be. It's not up to me to decide what peace should be. All I can do is acknowledge Love (not the human idea of love) as the only Power, and trust in this Power.

In my opinion, principles mean nothing without practical application. The following happened last night.

I'm waiting for my bus home. Four young teenage boys appear. One asks a man whether a particular bus has arrived. It is the same bus I'm waiting for. A bus arrives but not the one they want. One boy goes through the back door and just as the bus is about to leave he jumps out. He does this several times. Another boy picks up a pebble and hurls it at a car across the road. I chuckle to myself. Looks like these kids are trying to express themselves the only way they know how. Next, they shout "abuse" and expletives at buses. Bless! Now they are experimenting with language! LOL!

Soon our bus arrives. I know they are going to sit upstairs. I'm staying downstairs, out of harm's way. (smile) I can hear them stamping their feet upstairs, banging on the windows and screaming at each other. Boys will be boys!

In the meantime, my bus driver is swerving all over the place. I keep sliding off my seat. I grab on to the nearest rail for dear life. I can't change the world but I can change my thoughts about the world. "Only One exists," I think to myself. In other words, there is no bus, passengers, earth, nothing but Infinite Love. Only One exists!

Someone else seems to be driving the bus now! It's a smooth ride all the way and not once do I slide out of my seat. Hello! What's going on upstairs? It's gone quiet all of a sudden! Have the boys got off the bus? We soon arrive at their bus stop. The boys descend the stairs quietly. They get off the bus and not a peep from them.

If I had gone around trying to create peace around me, I would have been imposing my idea of peace on others. I wasn't interested in changing people, I only wanted a ride where I wasn't tossed all over the place. My realisation of Oneness created a whole lot more.

I believe when someone acknowledges that there is only One Power, the Love Presence is animated. Individuals, who are open, feel and interpret this Love in a way that is appropriate for them.

It is not up to me to change the world. I am only responsible for the way I perceive the world.

I am Infinite Love,
Enocia

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Keeping it Real!

I noticed my mum's wig has strands of grey hair. I asked her whether she bought the wig that way. She said yes as it makes the wig look authentic. She said there are even grey wigs for people who like grey hair. Interesting concept. I have to say it looks very "natural." It's what I would call, keeping it real.

If people want to keep things real, how come the Ken and Barbie dolls haven't quite caught on?

Why isn't there an overweight Barbie with lots of cellulite? When you press a certain button, her lips are enlarged as if she's just had botox injection. Another button gives her instant liposuction and her weight disappears.

How about a bald Ken with love handle and lots of hair coming out of his ears and nose?

Picture this. It's Christmas Day and a little girl opens her present expecting to find her favourite Barbie doll but she finds an elderly Barbie with her own custom-made zimmer frame. "It's okay sweetie, we're trying to keep it real." Yeah, right!

I'm all for dolls with hour glass figures who look perfect. But isn't it time toy manufacturers produced dolls that reflect how people look in "real life?" Fair is fair.

Santa Baby, send me a Barbie who looks just like me!

Love Enocia

Its No Big Deal!

Every new experience I have had, I've gone from feeling a sense of wonder to appreciation and then indifference. In other words, when an experience becomes a habit, it makes it feel natural; and when it's natural, I feel indifferent. I believe habit is the key to experiencing "miracles."

I was born in London but when I was four years old, I went with my mother and two brothers to live with relatives in Freetown, Sierra Leone. I returned to the UK when I was 16.

Coming to London was like moving to another reality. I had no memory of my previous life in London so it felt like I was experiencing life in the West for the first time. I was amazed at the escalators. How does one get on a moving stair? As for getting off the escalator, that was the biggest mystery. Then we got on a train from Gatwick airport to London. We didn't have trains in Freetown, so it was exciting being on a train for the first time. It moved so fast!

At Victoria, we got on the tube (underground train), which was another sense of amazement. How can people travel underground and not feel scared? In my opinion, the tube was moving at the speed of light. We arrived at our destination in no time.

And people moved to fast. Now you see me, now you don't! What's the hurry?

I was astounded at seeing so many different nationalities in the one city and how they all seemed to get along so well. As for the English people spoke, I didn't have a clue half the time what people were saying. They used words I'd never come across. I only knew the Queen's English. It took me a while to get used to the speed, dialects, colloquialisms and slangs. Cor blimey guv'nor!

London seemed so vast and everywhere looked the same. I thought I would never be able to find my way around London.

The biggest wonder was seeing my mother again. She'd been living in the UK for 6 years so I was getting to know her all over again. To me, she was this perfect Goddess who manifested clothes and shoes from the sky. Fantasy and reality clashed somehow! Bless her! At least my dream of living in London with my beloved mother had come true.

In no time, I got used to the new way of life. Everything felt natural and I lost my sense of wonder. From time to time, I come across new inventions like the Internet, emails, CDs, travelling on buses and, for a moment, I'm back to feeling marvel. Then habit kicks in! It's no big deal! Yawn!

When I became aware of Universal Energy, I was amazed how we can live in an ocean of Energy and not be aware of it. I remember praying for my mother after she'd sprained her ankle. I believed so much in Source, I told her to get out of the chair and walk. She did and she was instantly healed. It was wonderful. I'm back to thinking, it's no big deal. Source is my natural state of being; Source is omnipotent, therefore, "miracles" are perfectly natural. Another big yawn!

I believe habit is the key to experiencing "miracles" because they make things seem natural, and there is no fear about "out-of-the-ordinary" experiences.

I expect to see greater inventions in technology and better ways to experience life. Most of all, I expect to experience greater "miracles" from Source.

Do you hear me, Universal Intelligence? I expect so see greater works than I see now!

Miracles!?! It's no big deal! Yawn!

With appreciation and a healthy dose of indifference,
I am Enocia

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The Lord's Prayer

I love the books the "Life and Teachings of the Masters of the Far East," by Baird T Spalding. They are about how, during his travels his India, Spalding meets Masters who are trusting in Universal Intelligence all the way. The 6 volumes comprise teachings he received from these Masters. The first two volumes are on the Internet; if you are interested see Life.

The following prayer comes from Volume 6.

Love to all,
Enocia

ORIGINAL OF THE LORD'S PRAYER
(From the records of Jesus' life 50 years after the crucifixion, found in a monastery which they occupied."

God Our FATHER
You stand revealed to us this day as
The ever-present Principle.
Hallowed be your name;
We know it as Elohim.
Give us to live and know this day as you, God, alone
See us living and knowing,
Ever pure and perfect,
As you have revealed your Perfection to man.
And that Perfection has come forth as your son, your only creation,
The only one through which you manifest.
Give us to know your son. For to know you as you
Know man is to know ourselves.
For in knowing this, we are not led into any way
Save your way.
And this we know that this is the God way for us.
God our Father, we see clearly each day that we
May and do forgive every trespass that man has
Brought forth into this kingdom.
Thus we are not tempted to set up man's creations
For your creations.
God our Father,
Again we say hallowed be the name God,
God our Father.

(Source: Baird T Spalding, Life and Teachings of the Masters of the Far East, Devorss Publishers 1996, p. 141)

Pennies from Heaven!

Last Saturday, I read on another message board how some people were noticing pennies everywhere.

On my way home while waiting for my bus, I saw two teenage girls playing with pennies. One girl kicked a penny into the road. She took out another penny from her pocket and kicked it into the road. She obviously didn't think they were worth much! I don't blame her; you can't buy anything for a penny these days! Was this a coincidence or were these kids picking up on the "pennies from heaven" thought?

Later that evening, I watched a ballroom dance competition on television. One finalist's surname was Halfpenny. Though I hadn't seen her perform before, I told my mother she was going to win because she had "penny" in her name. She won the competition.

People are always saying they're going to the toilet to "spend a penny." Isn't "pennies from heaven" and "spending a penny" a trifle limiting? Why not think "I'm going to spend a fiver," or "Pound notes from Heaven!" Now we're talking!

Well, I'll keep my eyes open for £50 notes from Heaven. That will do very nicely!

I am Superabundance,
Enocia

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Living as Awareness

"The literal meaning of transcendental omnipresence refers to a state of being which is the source, the actual fundamental substance, of our physical existence, yet which is at the same time completely independent of our existence. If we were not here, even if the entire universe was not "out there", that state of being would not be affected in the slightest; yet if "It" were to somehow suddenly cease to exist, our universe would just as suddenly cease to exist. The universe would blink-out into nothingness as quickly as turning off a light -- a visual metaphor which strongly parallels the real metaphysical relationship between the the physical world and its transcendental source. The thing is, the real transcendental source will never blink-out. It is the timeless essence of existence itself. It simply is." Transcendental Omnipresence and CosmicLight.com

"There is no life, truth, intelligence, nor substance in matter. All is infinite Mind and its infinite manifestation, for God is All-in-all. Spirit is immortal Truth; matter is mortal error. Spirit is the real and eternal; matter is the unreal and temporal. Spirit is God, and man is His image and likeness. Therefore man is not material; he is spiritual." Science and Health

For a few hours last night I lay awake pondering over the nature of awareness. If there is only one consciousness experiencing life, we must only have one awareness. Yet this awareness seems to have been split into the different senses we experience as humans. I am reminded of what St Paul says about living in parts:

"For we know in part, and we prophesy in part. But when that which is perfect is come, then that which is in part shall be done away.” (1 Corinthians 13: 9-10)

It would seem that humans experience reality in parts, thus, awareness is experienced in parts as our five senses. Is it true that all humans experience the senses in the same way?

In the book Autobiography of a Yogi, after Yogananda's master, Yukteswar, has died, he returns to give Yogananda an account of life in other realms. This is what he has to say about how different entities experience the senses.

"Astral beings have all the outer sensory organs—ears, eyes, nose, tongue, and skin—but they employ the intuitional sense to experience sensations through any part of the body; they can see through the ear, or nose, or skin. They are able to hear through the eyes or tongue, and can taste through the ears or skin, and so forth." Autobiography of a Yogi

"Causal beings see the difference between their bodies and thoughts to be merely ideas. As a man, closing his eyes, can visualize a dazzling white light or a faint blue haze, so causal beings by thought alone are able to see, hear, feel, taste, and touch; they create anything, or dissolve it, by the power of cosmic mind." Autobiography of a Yogi

I remember when I studied energy healing, some of us had to develop clairsentient abilities in order to sense people's auras and chakras. It was believed that the aura reveals defeciencies in one's energy field which can eventually lead to illnesses or mental dysfunction. The aura is also believed to expand as one has more energy. As we believed this paradigm to be true, we expected to experience people's chakras or auras as congested or depleted. The clairvoyants in the class described people's auras as appearing in different hues. Apart from being able to detect a fine film of light around people, I could never see the colour of people's auras. I could only think what they looked or felt like.

This is one reason why guided meditations don't work for me. The guide would ask students to visualise going down a path, or going down some steps or whatever, and I would think myself there instantly. Isn't one's imagination supposed to help one transcend the limiting ways one experiences reality as human? Why mess around when I'm already there? This is why I do my own thing while I meditate.

After much pondering, I finally fell asleep. In my dream we were surrounded by vicious snakes that attacked people regardless whether they were provoked or not. I kept thinking to myself that there was a power protecting me and I was safe from the snake bites. Then more snakes appeared, bigger and more vicious than the last. While I was petrified, I continued to affirm that I was always protected. I was very relieved when I woke up from that dream.

Why did I have that dream and what did the snakes represent? Aha, the senses! A snake uses its forked tongue to check out its environment. Similarly, humans use their senses in the same way to check out their environment, but the senses are not always reliable. Just because you can see solid objects around you doesn't mean the objects are actually solid. You only need to study quantum physics to realise what I'm talking about.

Why were the snakes attacking us in my dream? I recalled part of an article I wrote recently:

"The senses will try again and again to distract you into believing that the form is the real you. There is always only one way to fight back: all is Energy." What Keeps Us From Having Unlimited Energy?

Wow! My dream was reenacting what I had written. The snakes were the senses trying to distract me, as I believe they do. Hmmm! I need to be very careful about what I believe to be true as I end up creating it.

I believe that the ultimate Reality is Source. In Source, there is only awareness. I believe the senses are distortions of Source awareness. As Source that I am, I don't see, feel, hear, taste or smell, I know. In any case, Source doesn't operate through the senses, Source is independent of human senses, beliefs and thoughts.

How can I use my awareness to experience life? I can't have it both ways. Either I continue to live as a human, experiencing thoughts, beliefs and senses as real, or I surrender to Source and let my knowing guide me. In that case, human senses and thoughts have to be seen for what they are, nothing; for they have no reality in Source. How can senses and thoughts be nothing? Because the senses of touch, taste, smell, hearing, sight and intuition are physical sensations. Source is not physical and never has been physical. Physical beings experience birth and death. Physical beings have a beginning and an end. Source, on the other hand, has no beginning or end. Source is unborn and undying. Source is eternal. Source is existence.

Is it possible to experience life as a non-physical being? Certainly! These days when I do shopping I carry the bags in a non-physical way by knowing that the bag, my body and everything is Universal Energy. I don't feel any weight at all. Instead, I experience a reality of empty space, moving as empty space, carrying empty space. When I move around with no thoughts, I also feel weightless. Yet I am still experiencing life, though not in a physical way.

It would seem that I have a choice how I would like to experience life. I can distort my awareness into parts, manifesting as senses and thoughts; or I can realise that I am Source with awareness and experience life as a non-physical being. I choose Source.

I am Awareness,
Enocia

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What is Hereditary?

I heard a woman speaking the other day about what she believed she had inherited from her mother. She said she had inherited part of her mother's personality and figure, but not her mother's skin.

Do we inherit our personalities from our parents? If you see your origin as your mother's fertilised egg that eventually produced you, you're bound to think of yourself as an extension of your parents.

If you consider yourself as a son/daughter, gender, sexuality, race, nationality or human, you're bound to buy into the idea that you have inherited something. As a son/daughter, you inherit your parents' world view and their vices and virtues; as a gender, you inherit your parents' chromosomes, and society's attitude towards your gender; as a sexuality, you inherit society's beliefs and prejudices about your sexuality, and if you are of a sexuality that is "marginalised," you inherit the effects of this marginalisation; as a race, you inherit your race's history, whether they've suffered or triumphed in the past, and you might feel a sense of belonging or disenfranchisement; as a nationality, you inherit your country's beliefs and all that your country has collectively created: "good" or "bad"; as a human, you inherit what it means to be a human, the different beliefs of reality "good" and "evil," etc.

As you can see, hereditary is perfectly reasonable if you see yourself as human.

There are those who believe that the Soul is the one having different lives that is continuously reincarnating as different life forms. In order to understand present circumstances, some people look back to their past lives. Some go through regression therapies to help them confirm they've lived before and to understand their current strengths and weaknesses. Whether you believe in this theory or not, at least this method shows that there is a lot more to reality than what we experience as humans.

I can truly say I have inherited nothing from any human experience because I am not human. I am the Universe. I am Source. If there is anything I have inherited is that I continue to be the same, Source. It doesn't matter what life I am living, I am the same. It doesn't matter who the ones are playing the roles of my parents, friends, colleagues, or partners, I am the same.

My only heritage is Source.

I am the Universe,
Enocia

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Do Food Supplements and Diets work?

"Not that which goeth into the mouth defileth a man; but that which cometh out of the mouth, this defileth a man." (Matthew 15: 11)

I watched a documentary last night about nutrition. The journalist questioned whether food supplements and diets work, or whether they are one big scam.

I can only speak from my own experience that food supplements and diets work if you believe they do. I'm now going to list my food history.

Like many people, I believed certain food products were good and others were bad. While I was at college, I stopped eating junk food, which I was addicted to at the time. It was very easy to give up "junk" because I believed they were bad for me. Alas, I replaced one addiction for another - fizzy drinks. My skin was always blotchy. I believed my skin would look a lot better as if I stopped drinking fizzies so one day I did. Because I believed my skin would improve, it did. I didn't touch pop for years. I also stopped eating chocolate which I thought had too much sugar and was bad for my skin. I went for five years without chocolates.

My new fad was health supplements which I believed would make me feel healthier. I bought the most expensive brand recommended by a health magazine. I guess I believed more money meant better quality. Then I changed from taking tablets to supplements in a powder form, which I dissolved in fruit juice and had for breakfast. This product was supposed to give you a lot more energy. Because I believed in the product, I seem to have more energy. Then I started planning my holidays. I didn't want to lug it around with me, so I decided to give it a miss for a month and see what happened. I was perfectly fine without the supplement. If I could survive without it for a month, what would happen if I stopped taking them for good? I felt great. Interesting!

I wish I could say stopping supplements was the end of my food fad! While I had stopped taking supplements, I was still very picky about the types of food I ate. I still believed certain foods made me gain weight, made my skin blotchy or made me weak.

In the meantime, I was also very particular about the type of bottled water I drank. I wouldn't be seen dead drinking tap water. I followed the nutritionist's advice of drinking one litre of water a day. While I paid frequent visits to the toilet, I felt better for it.

I also believed certain cosmetic products worked for my skin, which the experts had told me was "combination." The products I used were very pricey, naturally. I felt and looked great.

Finally, I decided to become a vegetarian which I believed would make me feel a lot healthier. I only ate organic vegetables. Then I went through a phase of only eating food that was blessed, and so for months I only ate at the Hari Krishna restaurant.

There came a point in my life when I didn't have much money. I couldn't, obviously, afford to get my fancy cosmetics and bottled water. I changed to cheaper brands. At first I felt weaker because I truly believed the products were not right for me. Then I started thinking about the nature of reality. Was I simply a body that had to consume the right food or drink to survive, or was I a lot more? I realised I am more than my body, I am the Universe. I also realised food or water doesn't sustain me, the Source of life does. It was time to test this theory.

I stopped buying bottled water and only drank tap water. I was fine. I even drank water from bathroom taps, which was previously an anathema, and I was still fine. I stopped being a vegetarian and realised I could eat whatever I liked and it wouldn't make any difference to my body because the Universe/Source sustains me. I could use cheaper skin product or none at all and my skin was still refreshed. I also stopped fretting whenever I had a spot. Instead of getting some product to get rid of it, I trusted in the Source to rejuvenate my skin and it was so.

At this time I stopped using orthodox and alternative medicine. I started trusting in Source for healing and I was healed.

Two days ago I went to my mother's church Christmas dinner. One of my mother's friends at the table asked me how I managed to look so trim. I told her I eat what I like and don't think about it. I also see all food as good. If you're going to go around thinking one food is good and another food is bad, you're bound to experience this reality in your body. Your body will seem to turn against you and make you put on weight, be sick or whatever. Another woman on the table said she drinks hot water after every meal which she believes helps with digestion. Each to their own! I know the omnipotent Source doesn't need my help to digest the food, I let Her get on with the job.

I've tried many types of cuisines and I am always open to try new ones. The only food I stay away from is avocado, not because it is bad for me, but because I don't particularly enjoy it. My motto is I eat what I love.

Majority of the time I only eat one meal a day, late in the evening. Some people might see this as fasting, I don't. The way I see it, I am always being sustained by the Universe. It makes me realise that I eat out of habit not because the food has any power to keep me alive. Maybe one day I will stop eating food, but I shall have to wean myself off chocolates.

My thoughts about nutrition is what you believe is what you experience. If you believe you need to eat a balanced meal three times a day, have food supplements, drink one litre of water a day, eat your greens, then this will be what you will experience. I've tried the expert's way and I've proved to myself that there is another reality. I know that I am not just a physical body, I am the Universe. I can, therefore, survive perfectly, thank you, without the nutrition experts' RDA (recommended daily amount) of minerals and vitamins.

I would rather take my chances in Source.

I am the Universe,
Enocia

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The Universe is Superabundant

"Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us." (Ephesians 3: 20)

Well, what do you know, I had another realisation this morning! Guess where? On the bus, of course!

I'm on the bus. I notice a silver car in the next lane, shaped like a Porsche 911, and even looks like it, but it isn't. I don't know what make the car is, nor do I know much about cars. I only know the Porsche 911, Ferrari and Jaguar XJS. I think the car is cute and I wish it will slow down so I can get a proper look. The car speeds up and leaves us behind at a bus stop. Oh well, c'est la vie on the fast lane!

The journey continues. I've completely forgotten about the car and have my eyes closed. Then I have an urge to open it and look to my right. There, parked in front of a building, is a similar car. I know it's not the same car but it looks exactly like the one I was admiring earlier. Another car races by on the next lane. It is silver and looks like the same car. Several similar looking silver cars appear, as if they all want to be admired. In that short space of time, I'm inundated with five similar cars. There are even counterfeit versions that are silver but not the same shape, but they all wish to be admired. I get off the bus one stop earlier than usual so I can visit the local shop. On my way from the shop, a silver Porsche 911 speeds right by me. Enough already, Mr-Mrs Universe, I get the message!

The array of silver cars this morning represents the superabundant Universe. The cars are also a reminder that I should never get attached to one way of doing or having. The Universe is ready to pour out in superabundance whatever I ask for, but if I'm attached to the one way of having, I'm not going to be open to others. It's like when people get attached to someone in a relationship and the relationship ends. You convince yourself that your partner was your soul-mate and there are very few of them around compatible with you. You believe you'll never love again. I've done the same. Give the Universe some credit! While people are unique, it doesn't mean I can only have one type of relationship. Someone else can be just as loveable, delightful and fun. Besides, the Universe can produce someone with a similar personality who even looks the same, if that is what you prefer.

I was once temping at a company and noticed this woman staring at me. When I asked her why, she said the week before my double had been working for the same company. She said my double was even interested in the same kind of stuff I was. That makes me feel so much better. If I've broken any man's heart, there's always my double to pick up the pieces. LOL!

The Universe is superabundant. Why should I attach myself to one way of experiencing life when there are so many? It all boils down again to whether I identify myself as the personality which views reality in a limited way; or as the Universe itself. As the Universe, I am capable of giving myself myriads of ways of experiencing life. I simply need to trust in the Universe.

I am the Superabundant Universe,
Enocia

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What Keeps Us From Having Unlimited Energy?

"But when that which is perfect is come, then that which is in part shall be done away." (1 Corinthians 13: 10)

I read an article yesterday about the actress Joan Collins, who is 32 years older than her current husband. She said she doesn't understand why people make such a fuss about aging. Her husband said Joan has got so much energy.

I have been thinking why people age or get tired. What makes people like Joan Collins appear ageless? I believe Energy is the key. Is it possible we experience sickness, old age and death because we believe we lack energy? We can top up by eating the "right" food or drink lots of fluids, as experts tell us we should; or we could connect to chi/prana (universal energy); or we could do lots of exercises, etc. If you have to do something to have more energy, doesn't this suggests that we have energy that gets depleted? If you were to follow this rationale, you might even argue everyone is given a particular quota and once that runs out, it's bye bye baby! I don't believe this for one minute. I believe we have access to unlimited energy but something gets in the way of us realising this. Our senses.

I believe all is Source/Energy. I look at my body and think I am Energy. And yet my senses are telling me "my arm is itching, I have a pain on my back, I have a spot on my face." Which way is the correct way of seeing? Am I a body or am I Energy appearing as different parts? In truth, the parts do not exist, they are illusions.

Here we go again about illusions! What's all this talk about illusions? Why do people who study metaphysics constantly jabber on about the world being an illusion? Get real! How can the world be an illusion when it feels and looks so real? When I hit my head against a brick wall, it bloody well hurts. How can the wall be an illusion when the pain feels so real? Don't take my word for it. I have proved to myself many times that what is experienced through the senses is nothing more than special effects. There is a lot more than what meets the eye.

A quick digression which will illustrate what I mean by illusion.

One of my favourite Star Trek Voyager episodes is called Persistence of Vision. The crew are encountered by an entity from a species called Botha who are a "race of powerfully telepathic beings, [and] the Botha have the ability to cause intense hallucinations in other beings." Nearly all of the crew end up being trapped in their hallucinations, when each crew experiences as real a secret desire in his subconscious mind that the Bothan has cleverly evoked. Captain Janeway sees her fiancé who she misses very much. Tuvok, the Vulcan, sees his wife. While the crew are distracted with their hallucinations, the Bothan intends to take over the ship. Only two crew members are immune to the Bothan's influence: Kes, the Ocampan, whose telepathic powers enable her to resist the energetic force; and the Doctor, who is a hologram. Kes manages to block the energy field by seeing beyond the illusions and is able to rescue the crew. The Botha entity commends Kes for being so powerful and before he could get captured, the entity tells Kes he's not really there. He then vanishes.

I thought that episode was a perfect illustration of how, under particular circumstances, one can experience illusions as real. People who have gone under hypnosis experience their fears or wishes as real.

Back to how my body appears. My body appears to be in parts such as muscles, skin, flesh, bones, blood etc. On the other hand, I know for a fact that these parts are only manifestations of Energy. Water, for instance, appears as solid, liquid and gas. None of these states are ultimate reality, they are Energy appearing as various states. What if I were to ignore appearances and think of myself as formless Energy? This sounds mad, doesn't it? How can I be formless Energy when the body is clearly visible and tangible? I completely understand where you're coming from. I believed my body to be solid for a long time until I opened myself up to another possibility. The only way to prove whether there is another way of seeing is to test it.

For years when I saw my body as flesh and bones and in working parts, I used the equivalent technique to heal what was broken. I saw doctors who helped fix the broken parts and I took medicines. Then I started seeing myself as Energy that is whole. I have healed migraines by simply realising that I am Energy. The reason why, I believe, I got sick is because I let the senses fool me into believing that my body is solid and in parts.

This happened yesterday. I was about to get off a bus. There was a sudden jolt and I hit one finger hard against the bus. At first it hurt. Then I remembered that everything around me is formless energy, no matter how they appear. The pain vanished.

Like in the episode cited in Star Trek Voyager, I believe there is a "force," which leads us to believe that the illusions, we see around us as forms, are real. The senses play a huge part in this illusion. You see people animals and things around you and you are fooled into thinking that, because we all look different, that is how things are. Underneath, we are one and the same stuff, Energy.

When we are deceived by our senses, that we are in parts, we lose access to our true identity as the whole, infinite Energy. Imagine a drop of water dissolved into the ocean. Will you be able to tell the drop of water from the ocean? No. Realisation that one is Energy is the equivalent of the drop of water realising that it is the ocean. You can let the senses define for you boundaries and limitations, or you can realise that appearances are only special effects. I am not flesh or blood, or any form. I am the One ocean that appears to be split up into oceans, seas, rivers, streams...drop of water.

The senses will try again and again to distract you into believing that the form is the real you. There is always only one way to fight back: all is Energy. The Bothan in Star Trek Voyager says in the end, "I'm not really here." Similarly, the senses, and what we perceive as parts are not really here. All there is is Energy.

What keeps us from having unlimited energy? Nothing.

I am Formless Energy,
Enocia

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Are You a Back-Seat Driver?

Have you ever driven a car and had a passenger who has given you advice on how to drive, even when s/he can't drive? Guilty as charged! LOL! The driver was a complete moron! Hahaha!

Joking aside, I wouldn't dream of telling my bus driver how to drive. I might think it but I wouldn't dare say it out loud or my journey will be swiftly terminated. I guess when people get on buses, trains or planes, they trust in the driver or pilot to get them to their destination.

I believe many people are secret back-seat drivers. What do I mean? Instead of letting things happen, people try to make things happen.

Before I give an illustration of how I try not to be a back-seat driver, I want to comment briefly on why I write these journals. I have been so used to doing things my way that trusting in the process, letting things happen, seems like learning to walk all over again. Learning to trust doesn't mean I trust in the Source to tell me what to do. I believe it's up to me to choose what I experience. Once I have made the choice, I am to trust and let it happen without wanting to drive the bus myself. My journals are reminders to myself when I trust in Source and when I don't. The more I practise the more I cultivate the habit of trust. I know there is a reality where Energy creates instantly. These journals are also my way of bringing this reality into visible manifestation. So, while what I write about might sound mundane to some, I am demonstrating how I'm trusting Source in all aspects of my life.

My mother invited me to her church Christmas dinner. I promised I would also attend the church service with her. When I woke up yesterday morning, I didn't feel like going to church. I felt my time would be best served catching up on some sleep or meditating. I told my mother I would join her for dinner.

I tried to work out what time I should leave so I could get to the church before 1 pm. How long would the bus journeys take? What time would they arrive? They run fewer services on Sundays and I could phone London Transport to get the times, but there's no guarantee they will run on time. Then I remembered. What am I doing trying to work things out, why not let Source do the work? "Universal Energy, please tell me what time I should leave so I could get to the church on time?" I had the thought that I would leave at 11.20 am. "Good. Wake me up later!" I fell asleep and woke up at 10.50. My mother has so many clocks around so I can't not know the time while I'm at home. I left exactly at 11.20, and found all my buses arrived when I needed them. I didn't have to think about anything. I was on automatic pilot.

When I arrived at the church I couldn't find my mother. I figured she was already at the restaurant. I went to the church and asked a woman if she knew my mother. She happened to be my mother's friend. She said my mother had gone to the restaurant. She was busy at the time so she couldn't take me to the restaurant. Another church member walked in, who was about to go to the restaurant so I went with her.

Everything worked out. I arrived with enough time to spare because I like being early. I had trusted in the "driver" to take me to my destination, without thought.

It is written in the allegory of the Garden of Eden, when Adam and Eve disobeyed the Lord God and ate of the tree of knowledge of good and evil, they were cursed as follows:

"In the sweat of thy face shalt thou eat bread, till thou return unto the ground." (Genesis 3: 19)

I believe the "sweat of thy face" represents trying to work things out mentally or by physical strength. You're trying so hard to figure things out that it never occurs to you there is an easier way to experience life, which involves trusting in a Power that doesn't need your help. You only need to tell the Power what you wish to experience and leave the Power to tell you how and when.

Yes, there is always the right moment to do something, if this involves other people. The "when" is the equivalent of knowing when to press the bell when you need to get off the bus. You wouldn't press the bell a mile away from your bus stop. If you are travelling by train, you wouldn't get off three stops before your actual stop nor would you try to open the doors while the train is still en route. You wait till your train has arrived at the station and then you get off. When I trust in Source, I am told the right "when." Just like I was told when I should leave and was woken up at the right "when," which gave me sufficient time to get ready. That right "when" meant I didn't have to wait for buses. They arrived when I needed them.

When I don't ask, I'm left with trying to figure out the how and when. In a reality where all is perfect, it really doesn't matter if I get things "wrong." But I've tried the "in the sweat of thy face shalt thou eat bread" routine and it's too much hard work. I prefer the easy life.

One thing about trusting in Source is that Source will give you what you believe to be true. In other words, I believe Source doesn't see choices as right or wrong, just choices. While I asked Source to get me to the church on time (sounds like I'm getting married LOL), I later realised during the bus journey that my mother's church service usually finishes around 12 noon. I had a feeling my mother was thinking I was late or not coming. But I knew the dinner was at 1 pm. When I arrived at the restaurant, my mother said the service finished at around 12.15 and she was wondering whether I wasn't coming. I had obviously picked up on her thoughts.

You might be wondering why Source didn't tell me to leave early so I could get to the church after the service? Because it is up to me to express my choices. I believe Source is like a computer - it creates according to belief but never tells you what you should do. I said I wished to arrive for 1 pm and that is exactly what Source created. It makes me wonder about people who pray: "God, please tell me what to do and I will do it!" This is not how I believe things work out. If you believe something outside of yourself tells you what to do, that's exactly what Source will create. There are many people out there just dying to tell you how you should live your life. (smile)

Being a back-seat driver can be a frustrating experience for the back-seat driver and the driver. I'm now only interested in telling the driver my destination and trusting the driver to do his job. It takes practise to remember to ask how and when. When I do remember to ask, I trust the Universe to get me to my destination on time.

I am a trusting passenger,
Enocia

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World without Beginning or End

The wonderful thing about life is that I can experience the infinitude of Source in any thing I do, even on a bus journey.

I'm sitting by the window on a particular bus journey. There's a rail next to me. I have my eyes closed. I feel someone sitting next to me. I open my eyes. The passenger, a woman, has one arm crossing over my body, holding on to the rail next to me. I feel slightly uncomfortable that her arm is so close to my body. It's like having someone standing up very close to you and you feel the other is encroaching on your space. I close my eyes again. This time, I lose all sense of the woman's presence. I am no longer confined to a cramped body in a little seat on a bus, my awareness has expanded to include the woman beside me, the passengers, the bus, everything. I am everything. There is no beginning or end. The moment I open my eyes again I'm back in a confined body feeling uncomfortable about having my space encroached by a fellow passenger. I keep my eyes closed for the duration of the journey.

That's the problem with the senses, they make me feel defensive. Maybe, I should go around with my eyes closed. This is why I practise being in silence because there are no senses to make me feel defensive. In silence there is no beginning or end.

In the bus when my awareness had expanded to include all passengers, it felt as if I had infinite bodies. In the Hindu scriptures, the Bhagavad Gita, when Arjuna has a dialogue with the God, Krishna, there is a point when Arjuna asks Krishna to reveal himself as he really is.

Thou canst not!- nor, with human eyes, Arjuna! ever mayest!
Therefore I give thee sense divine. Have other eyes, new light!
And, look! This is My glory, unveiled to mortal sight!
Sanjaya. Then, O King! to God, so saying,
Stood, to Pritha's Son displaying
All the splendour, wonder, dread
Of His vast Almighty-head.
Out of countless eyes beholding,
Out of countless mouths commanding,
Countless mystic forms enfolding
In one Form: supremely standing
Countless radiant glories wearing,
Countless heavenly weapons bearing,
Crowned with garlands of star-clusters,
Robed in garb of woven lustres,
Breathing from His perfect Presence
Breaths of every subtle essence
Of all heavenly odours; shedding
Blinding brilliance; overspreading-
Boundless, beautiful- all spaces
With His all-regarding faces;
So He showed! If there should rise
Suddenly within the skies
Sunburst of a thousand suns
Flooding earth with beams undeemed-of,
Then might be that Holy One's
Majesty and radiance dreamed of! The Bhagavad-Gita, Chapter XI

I like this view of infinity. Imagine having a body where everything is you? I don't wear a watch now but if I want to know the time and I can't be bothered to ask my inner voice, I ask the time and wait for the answer. What always happens is one of my many wrists, from someone nearby, shows me the time, or someone nearby says the time out loud. This way, I have a body that has no beginning or end.

The way I see it, if something has a beginning there has to be an end. But if there isn't a beginning, it has to be unlimited. I marvel at how unlimited each of us is. I marvel at how my mother prepares meals all the time. I marvel at the unlimited ideas I have. If I didn't limit myself by taking breaks and doing other things, I would be in front of the computer screen forever.

Have you never wondered how you can work and produce lots of stuff all the time? That's because you are using unlimited Energy. If you think of Energy as limited that needs to be replenished, then you have unlimited energy "that needs to be replenished." You end up needing to renew your energy by sleep, eating or whatever method you have dreamed up that replenishes one's energy. What if you were to see yourself as unlimited Energy? You could keep going for ever!

Visit the shops and shopping centres, do you see what I see? (I'm speaking from a western perspective, of course). I see unlimited stuff - clothes, shoes, food and stuff. Granted, in this reality you have to pay for them but there is so much stuff. There are different shops catering to the tastes of different customers. It is all Energy manifesting according to people's expectations. They are all made of the same stuff, unlimited Energy.

There is one snag about unlimited Energy - it works in reverse. Let's say you have a tendency to make yourself "miserable" according to one's definition of misery, what do you think happens? You create unlimited misery. If you're of a joyful nature you create unlimited joy. If everything is fun, you experience the world as unlimited fun, no matter what. If you are in lack and don't know any better, you experience unlimited lack. Either way, you're unlimited.

Imagine living in a reality where there is unlimited peace, love, wealth, joy, freedom, fun; or unlimited fear, anger, sadness, pain, suffering, poverty, depression etc. It is already happening now. We live in a reality of unlimited Energy which we use to create according to our beliefs.

We already live in a world without beginning or end. We live in a world of endless Energy to do as we choose.

Life is unlimited!

I am Unlimited Energy,
Enocia

For other writings see Vector8 writings

An Annoying Manifestation!

Star date - this morning.

I am standing waiting for my bus. A young lady appears and is looking at the bus timetable. I'm thinking to myself, "you're standing in my way, I can't see whether the bus is coming." I move to the other side so I can see the road.

Minutes later two buses appear: one I don't want and one I do. The bus I don't want is in the way and the one I want overtakes the one I don't want and drives by without stopping. For crying out loud! What's the matter with that bus driver? Didn't he see us waving at him to stop?

There has to be a logical explanation why the bus driver didn't stop. Then I remember. The thought form I had earlier about that woman being in my way had been manifested in form. The bus in front was standing in the way so the one at the back couldn't see whether there were passengers waiting at the bus stop. Aaargh!

Maybe Universal Energy made me invisible. Double Aaargh!

I have to learn to keep my mind free even while waiting for buses! Treble Aaargh!

Oh well, I did get to my destination in the end! Yahoo!

Have fun you all,
Enocia

For other writings see Vector8 writings

Mr Nobody!

When I was a child and somebody had done something wrong and not admitted to their error, we used to say "Mr Nobody" did it. Mr Nobody was my saviour! Poor Mr Nobody takes the flack for everything. (smile)

Now that I know how to arm myself with my cloaking technology to make myself invisible, maybe I should become Mr Nobody. Read the poem and you'll see what I'm talking about. Oh, what fun!

The website claims they don't know who wrote the poem. Why doesn't that surprise me? Mr Nobody wrote it of course.

Love to all,
Enocia

Mr Nobody

Mr Nobody lives at our house...I wonder.....does he live at yours too???

I know a funny little man,
As quiet as a mouse,
Who does the mischief that is done
In everybody's house!
There's no one ever sees his face,
And yet we all agree
That every plate we break was cracked
By Mr Nobody.

'Tis he who always tears our books,
Who leaves the door ajar,
He pulls the buttons from our shirts,
And Scatters pins afar;
That squeaking door will always squeak,
For, Friend, don't you see,
We leave the oiling to be done
By Mr Nobody.

He puts damp wood upon the fire,
That kettles cannot boil;
His are the feet that bring in the mud,
And all the carpets soil.
The papers always are mislaid,
Who had them last but he?
There's not one tosses them about
But Mr Nobody.

The finger marks upon the door
By none of us are made;
We never leave the blinds unclosed,
to let the curtains fade;
The ink we never spill; the boots
That lying around you see
Are not our boots; they all belong
To Mr Nobody!

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Source: Mr Nobody

Cloaking Technology

In case I haven't said this before I'll say it again, I'm a big fan of Star Trek. I love it when the Star Ship Enterprise/Voyager is confronted by aliens such as the Klingons who love using their cloaking technology, so no one will know they are around. Then they suddenly appear and give the crew hell for a while, but the crew always fights back and wins the battle.

Last night I had an experience of what it feels like being cloaked.

I am waiting for my bus home in the evening. I'm leaning against the wall of a building. Three guys arrive at the bus stop. One walks by and brushes against me. I'm thinking, that guy has just treated me as if I am not here. His friend walks towards me. He is about to lean against what he believes to be the wall, me, when I prod him and say "I'm here!" This startles him.

"I'm sorry," he says. "I didn't see you there."

I chuckle to myself. So, this is how it feels like being invisible. It's not that you are invisible, you are creating an illusion of invisibility. I notice this happens sometimes when I don't feel like acknowledging anyone on my walks. People treat me as if I'm not there. I mean people in London are generally aloof, but there is a difference, when I feel as if people would walk through me if I didn't step out of the way, because they think I'm not there.

A lot of the time I walk quietly. One morning I walked past this lady and her dog. The dog ran over to play. She quickly reassured me that the dog was harmless. I told her I wasn't scared of animals. Then she said I'd frightened her because she hadn't heard me come from behind her. It was as if I had appeared out of nowhere.

Recently, I was walking home late at night. I saw this guy ahead of me. I could not feel my body at the time, so it felt as if I was flying. The poor guy didn't hear me coming but at least he could see my shadow. He still managed to look startled. I chuckled to myself and continued walking in silence.

It makes me laugh when people talk about technologies that can pin point where people are hiding. You can make yourself invisible if you want to. It's a matter of knowing how to use Energy. If I don't want someone to read my thoughts they can't. I came across a website which teaches how to use Illusional Energy as a cloaking device. While I don't believe in different types of Energies, I accept that you can direct energy to create the illusion of being invisible, if that is what tickles your fancy.

Imagine what fun one can have if you go around cloaked. You can pretend you are a ghost frightening people. Hahaha! I'm sure there are many other ways to use this technology, but I like the idea of being a ghost the best. (LOL!)

I think there's a lot of fun to be had using this cloaking technology so I'm going to practise using it as much as I can.

I'm off. Actually I'm still here. Fooled you again! Haha!

Cheers,
Enocia

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Some Thoughts about Harmony

"And the LORD God took the man, and put him into the garden of Eden to dress it and to keep it. And the LORD God commanded the man, saying, Of every tree of the garden thou mayest freely eat: But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, thou shalt not eat of it: for in the day that thou eatest thereof thou shalt surely die. (Genesis 2: 15-17)

Star date - yesterday evening.

I'm on a bus riding into town. As it's a long journey, I'm having a shut eye. I wake up with sharp pains in my left foot. I realise that my foot has been resting against the heater, which is blasting out hot hair. My mind has interpreted heat as pain. This is not happening! Everything is Energy. If everything is Energy, why should one thing be experienced as different unless I have programmed myself that this is the case. In other words, my mind is full of hot air! (smile) My foot is Energy. The pain immediately disappears.

Source/Energy is all there is. In Source there are no distinctions. I don't accept the notion that there are different kinds of energies. Energy is Energy. While things appear to be different, I am not distracted from the fundamental truth that all is made of the same stuff. Distraction leads one to experience illusions.

One of the biggest illusions is that there are vibrations. It's very easy to think in terms of vibrations because everything seems to vibrate. My heart beats, my pulse is racing, I'm breathing in and out, my thoughts are whizzing around, the car engine purrs, etc. There appears to be different types of thoughts: some make you happy and others make you sad. I can even sense/read thoughts coming from A or from B. These are examples of vibrations, but do they really exist or are they not part of the dream?

What do I mean by dream? The dream is any reality where you are experiencing forms, regardless whether one is experiencing them as real or not. Right now, I appear to be in London. I am also aware of a friend living in Ireland. London and Ireland are both dream realms. It doesn't matter whether someone thinks he is living in planet Intredium, that is a billion light years away, it is still a dream realm. All dreams are thought projections though they may seem very real to people living in that particular reality. My sleep dreams appear very much like I'm living in other realities but they are dreams that I have created in my mind.

In order to experience the dream, you have to have an individuality, your own unique way of experiencing Source/Energy. This is perfectly reasonable. Isn't it possible, however, that the same individuality is what leads one into experiencing illusions?

All is Energy. I experience Energy as stillness i.e. no movements, no thoughts, no vibrations. The moment a thought comes into being, I'm back in the world of creations aka dream realms. This is why I experience sleep as going from the dreamless state of no vibrations, to the dream state of thought vibrations/creations.

It is written in the scriptures:

"In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth. And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters. And God said, Let there be light: and there was light." (Genesis 1: 1-3)

The above quote is basically describing the process of creation. It is the movement of the formless "without form and void" to the form of creation "heaven and earth."

I believe vibration is man's way of trying to interpret Energy, trying to make it right or wrong; good or bad. Vibration is man eating from the "tree of knowledge of good and evil."

When I studied energy healing, we were taught there were different types of energies. It was believed that light energy refracts into different colours, whereby some colours are suitable for different chakras (energy wheels) and some are not. This is why when chakras are represented on the human energy body, each chakra has its own colour. This idea makes perfect sense if you see your body in parts. I don't agree with this at all. My body is not in parts. I am infinite Energy.

Some practitioners and patients of Energy healing describe Energy as having different textures and feelings. One's interpretation has nothing to do with the truth of Energy. Energy is neither positive or negative, nor is it hot or cold. Energy simply is.

People talk about trying to resolve the world's ill and why there is no lasting peace on earth; or why there is poverty and destruction for some and abundance for others. These are the results of one's perception of reality. I am Energy. Everything is Energy. Look around you. Can you not see that you're immersed in infinite abundance? People think of wealth in terms of minerals, oil, money and stuff. Real wealth, which everyone has access to, is Energy. Everything is Energy. There is no good or bad Energy but Energy.

Resolving the world's ills, as many define it, is so simple. All you have to do is realise that since all is Energy, there can be nothing opposing anything since all is one and the same. Imagine if anyone I come across has my face and body. Would I expect people looking like me to be against me? Of course not! Only if I'm into fighting myself will I expect a fight. In the same way, I see everyone and every object as Energy. All there is is Source and Consciousness.

Each of us is Consciousness that directs Energy to take forms.My experience of life is always through mind. People and objects appear to be outside of me, but they are actually occurring in my mind. This is why I only notice things or people that are meaningful to me. It is always my perception of reality that I am witnessing as creation.

The world can be transformed if everyone went round seeing all as Energy. While we all have our own desires and motivations, we are always going to be in harmony no matter what our desires because it is Energy doing the work of creation.

I see all as Energy and you know what happens, there is harmony, as I define harmony of course. Why is there harmony? Because Energy cannot oppose Energy. Only if I were to regard Energy as negative or positive, would I expect disharmony manifesting as conflicts, suffering or whatever one's definition of conflict is. When I realise that all is Energy, everything is perfect. I, as consciousness, can use the Energy forms to experience life.

If I wish to experience a new reality, I only have to speak to Energy to become the experience. I don't get attached to forms because no form is more than another. All forms are Energy. I could speak to this computer to heal someone and it is so. Why? Because the computer is Energy. I can ask my finger to do the same, because my finger is Energy. My handbag, the computer, my body, a car, people, trees, everything is one and the same, Energy.

I'm walking home and pondering over these ideas. I notice a man about to get into his car. He offers me a lift. I say that I am nearly home and thank him for offering. A perfect demonstration of Energy saying hello to Energy.

It is impossible for me to be swayed by forms. I expect my experiences to be harmonious because all is Energy. All is the same, Source/Energy. To experience life I have consciousness. Each of us has been given our own unique vantage point/consciousness to experience life but underneath there is nothing going on but Energy.

The most important thing is I don't have to think about how things are going to work out. Once I've put the intent out, I trust in Energy to appear as the reality I wish to experience.

All is Energy.

I am Energy,
Enocia

For other writings see Vector8 writings

Perspectives

Do you ever see someone for who they are? Let's say you're looking at an individual from a physical standpoint. We are so used to seeing people from the back or from the front and sometimes in profile. But the body is multi-dimensional now.

The computer I'm working on is multi-dimensional: front and back, up and down, left and right, inside and outside and all of it experienced at once.

I apply the principle of multi-dimension to my writings. I tackle various sides to the argument then I step outside so I can see the topic from a big picture perspective. From a big picture level, I can see everything is just perfect.

This is how I see myself. I have different sides to me which I also bring out in my writings. But the real me is when I step out of the dimensions of time and space. Only then can I experience the me that is timeless, the me that knows it all, the me that is not bothered by anything, the me that is all, the me that knows all is well.

I am All There Is,
Enocia

For other writings see Vector8 writings

What is Freedom?

"Freedom of thought is the most powerful freedom. What kind of evil creature-god would enact rules and laws that actually restrict freedom of thought?" Amminadab

“Space, the final frontier; These are the voyages of the Starship Enterprise, its continuing mission to explore strange new worlds, to seek out new life and new civilizations, to boldly go where no one has gone before.” Star Trek The Next Generation

"The genetic mind is the equivalent of a universal belief system that penetrates, to varying degrees, the human instrument of all entities. In some, it immobilizes their ability to think original thoughts and feel original feelings. In most, it entrains their belief system to harmonize with the accepted belief systems of the Hierarchy. In a few, it exerts no significant force nor has any bearing on the development of their personal belief system." Wingmakers

What is freedom? We all want to be free. How do we know when we have freedom?

Have you ever read a book in an objective manner? You find yourself interpreting the material through a filtering system of your own choosing. The filtering system comprises your beliefs or teachings you're following, which determine whether you accept what you are reading as truth or reject it as false. I like how Esther Morgan puts it in the following poem, Lost Word

She stands racking her brains
for the last time she used it
but all that comes to mind
are failed attempts
when her mouth was full
of someone else's tongue. Lost Word

When I have followed a particular school of thought, my mouth was "full of someone else's tongue." The irony is that the teaching one follows is supposed to help set you free from concepts and paradigms, but if you take the teachings literally, you are caught in a web. Are you free if you are still seeing through a particular world view? That depends what one's definition of freedom is.

What is my understanding of freedom? I believe freedom is tied in with one's ability to create one's experiences. I see all possibilities existing now. If you can think it, it is possible. Creation is the art of transforming what already exists as a possibility into a reality that can be experienced as a form. In other words, making the invisible into the visible. In order to create you need to be free. Freedom is being able to see all possibilities as existing right now and the ability to experience a reality of your own choosing.

You could argue that one's preferred world view is a way of expressing freedom, allowing a possible reality to be made manifest. On the other hand, one's preferred paradigm can suppress other possibilities. One is likely to try and impose one's world view on another. I'm sure you know people who think their way is the only way of perceiving the world and do their best to get others to experience life from their perspective.

As I see it, the dominant view of the universe is student versus teacher. "When the student is ready the teacher will appear." People are even looking to a World Teacher to show them the way. Can you be free when you are relying on someone to show you how? Even if the teacher means well, what about the possibility that the teacher is being selective in what s/he teaches.

Being selective is inevitable. In a universe of infinite possibilities one has to make choices. I am making choices all the time. Even as I write this I am making choices. While the words are being expressed effortlessly, there is a part of me that is choosing these words as opposed to others. My writing is a manifestation of my world view - keeping things simple. Simplicity is my inspiration. Nevertheless, I am still choosing. A teacher, therefore, has to choose how she expresses herself, which means you are never getting the ultimate truth, only someone's belief.

You could argue that following someone else's teachings is still a version of expressing freedom. People express realities based on what they believe to be true or possible. If your idea of possibility is to follow a teacher, then you are expressing the "mandate" of Freedom: to express life the way you choose.

On the other hand, if someone is not aware of what is best for her and is being misled by another, who claims to be a teacher, can this individual be free? Who is to say what is best for another? Who is to say what is right or wrong for another individual? Just because something is right for you doesn't make it right for another!

This leads to another aspect of freedom, as I understand freedom. Freedom is letting people be. Freedom is letting people choose, no matter how much I might disagree with another's behaviour. How far do you take this notion of freedom? Would you allow a baby to put her hand in the fire? If it was my baby, I probably would. Controversial? Not really. I believe with all my heart that babies exist in a state of consciousness that is pure innocence. Babies don't know good or evil like adult humans. Haven't you seen babies eat dirt? They don't think of dirt as good or evil, they are simply (that word again) curious to experience life. A baby puts something in her mouth and her mother screams at her and takes the dirt out of her mouth. She programmes her baby that the dirt is bad and should not be eaten. There starts the programming of good and evil. I eat tissues and serviettes and I'm still OK. (Time for a tissue break I think!)

If a baby puts her hand in the fire and her parents don't make a fuss, the baby will not be injured. Injury is the outcome of beliefs. I have had experiences of healing after realising that whatever it is has no reality. See an article I wrote called If it's not Love it's not real. Now, I wouldn't recommend my way to others. If a mother believes fire or dirt causes injury, she has every right to stop her baby because that is her reality. I wouldn't impose my way on her. I'm simply stating that in my reality things are different.

Freedom is letting others be, letting others choose what is right for them. I have found that with this type of freedom comes discipline. It is very tempting to want to point out another's error or to try and teach what you believe others are lacking. I have said that the universe is predominantly experienced in a student/teacher manner. Thus, it is very easy to want to put yourself in the place of being someone's teacher. In order for me to let people be, I had to be disciplined, remembering to let people be.

Now I don't give discipline a thought. I have turned my attention from worrying about other people's beliefs and opinions to being only concerned with my relationship with and as Universal Energy. Anything else is way too much effort.

Freedom is an interesting concept. I understand freedom to be the practice of doing and expressing life how I choose. When I practise freedom for myself, I also practise freedom for others. I let people be. There is however another side of freedom which one mustn't forget - the freedom anomaly. Here goes:

If freedom is the "practice of doing and expressing life how I choose," what if someone takes it upon himself to be the world's saviour/teacher? While he may appear to be coming from the premise that "others don't know and it is up to me to teach them," isn't his choice, as world teacher, his way of expressing freedom? I think so. There you go!

What is freedom? Freedom is the practice of expressing life how I choose. Freedom is trusting in my choices. Freedom is letting others express life how they choose.

I am Freedom,
Enocia

For other writings see Vector8 writings

Do Beliefs Matter?

"For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he." (Proverbs 23: 7)

You've all heard that what you think or believe is what you create. Is this truth? Yes and no.

I have come to realise that since all thoughts are creative, you can create whatever you want. If you can think it, it already exists. Technically, we should be able to manifest our thoughts instantly but something stops us. Many people will argue that what they usually end up creating is what they don't want, or creation takes too long. I believe there is a reason for this.

In my own universe, I see myself as the sun with infinite rays. Each ray represents a reality. If I am thinking of creating x, I know that reality already exists as a ray. The act of creation is actually making what already exists visible; letting the unconscious become conscious.

Let's suppose a woman wants to lose weight, say, 50 pounds. There is a ray representing her as her ideal weight right now. The problem is that she might have beliefs that in order to lose weight, she has to go on a diet; or she has to eat sensibly; or she has to exercise; or the doctor has told her she has an illness; or it is something in her past life that is making her put on weight; or her nutritionist believes she's allergic to certain food; or her psychotherapist believes she's using food to protect herself; etc. For every belief there is a ray. Now do you understand why this woman finds it difficult to lose the weight? Because each ray/reality is trying to manifest through the thinker, creating conflicts. What is manifested depends on where she puts her attention.

The truth is we are always using Universal Energy (U/E) to create as there is nothing but Energy. It has been my experience that U/E always says Yes. You can get yourself out of the way and allow U/E to create the reality you wish or you could do it the hard way trying to create according to your beliefs. Either way, you will always get what you desire. One could take a long time and might not even happen; while the other is instant.

Universal Energy is independent of one's beliefs. It doesn't matter whether you've been dieting for x amount of years or have been eating sensibly or been on supplements. All these represent beliefs. Know that there is a reality now with you as your ideal weight, which can manifest when you let go of your ideas or beliefs. Do you think children care about Truth teachings? They want what they want and they want it Now! You can kid yourself that your realisations enable you to create. If that is what you choose to believe, that is perfectly reasonable. Since the reality of what one wishes to create already exists, why bother about understanding truth, or having a belief? Why not just let it happen?

A friend once told me a story about a woman who attended a Christian Science talk for the first time. She'd been trying to lose weight and it wasn't happening. She listened to the speaker talking about God and Love and something clicked within her. When the woman got up, her dress was loose around her. She'd lost all the weight instantly.

There's a story in the book Autobiography of a Yogi about how Yogananda's guru, Yukteswar, gained instant weight because of the grace of his guru, Lahiri Mahasaya.

"'Really, it has been your thoughts that have made you feel alternately weak and strong.' My master looked at me affectionately. 'You have seen how your health has exactly followed your expectations. Thought is a force, even as electricity or gravitation. The human mind is a spark of the almighty consciousness of God. I could show you that whatever your powerful mind believes very intensely would instantly come to pass.'

"Knowing that Lahiri Mahasaya never spoke idly, I addressed him with great awe and gratitude: 'Master, if I think I am well and have regained my former weight, shall that happen?'

"'It is so, even at this moment.' My guru spoke gravely, his gaze concentrated on my eyes.

"Lo! I felt an increase not alone of strength but of weight. Lahiri Mahasaya retreated into silence. After a few hours at his feet, I returned to my mother's home, where I stayed during my visits to Benares.

"'My son! What is the matter? Are you swelling with dropsy?' Mother could hardly believe her eyes. My body was now of the same robust dimensions it had possessed before my illness.

"I weighed myself and found that in one day I had gained fifty pounds; they remained with me permanently. Friends and acquaintances who had seen my thin figure were aghast with wonderment. A number of them changed their mode of life and became disciples of Lahiri Mahasaya as a result of this miracle. Autobiography of a Yogi

I believe every reality you can conceive of already exists as ideas. Once the intent/thought is sent out to experience whatever reality, it is immediately so, provided you don't put anything in its way. In my experience there are some things that have taken eternity to manifest. I have doubted whether some things are not meant to happen. I'm only now realising that it was my beliefs getting in the way of manifestation.

Do beliefs matter? Yes and no. I've tried beliefs and they have been too long-winded for my liking. Creation occurs with or without beliefs. I only need to know what already is, and it is so. This is the act of Grace.

I choose Grace.

I am Grace,
Enocia

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My Alarm Clock

This morning, I woke up around 7.30 am, which was slightly earlier than usual. I wasn't ready to get up just yet. I put out an intent that I wanted to be woken up in 15 minutes. I went back to sleep.

I had a dream that I was with an old friend and we were walking around chatting. In the distance, I saw a house about two storeys high. The front of the house had a veranda. Someone was standing on the veranda holding up a banner with words written on it. As I couldn't make out the words, I asked my friend to read them to me.

My friend said, "the banner is saying, 'Wake up Enocia!'"

I woke up from the dream and saw that it was exactly 7.45 am.

I was still drowsy and asked to be woken up at 8 o'clock. This time, there were no preambles; I opened my eyes at exactly 8 o'clock.

Isn't it amazing the many creative ways there are for me to wake myself up?

Have a lovely day!

Love Enocia

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All is Universal Energy!

"For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith." (Mark 11: 23)

There's a lot of talk that each of us has a mind, body and spirit. Some schools teach that mind, body and spirit exist as different states with its equivalent body. The earth represents the physical universe that has a physical body; the mental realm has its own body; and the spiritual realm has its own body.

My view is that the world is a dream. In the dream you need a dream body. In that case, how come in dreams you can do many things that you cannot do in this human dream body? I recently had a dream where I jumped out of a tall building and I was floating. I have other dreams where I move at the speed of thought. If earth is another dream realm and I have an earth dream body, how come my dream body doesn't behave in the same way at all times? Good point!

I believe I have got into the habit of thinking in a compartmentalised way and regarding the universe as Mind versus Body or Spirit versus Body. With this kind of thinking, of course you're going to expect Spirit to behave one way and the body another.

I have written elsewhere that all is Universal Energy (U/E). If all is U/E, then my body is U/E. My thoughts are also made of U/E. I have also written that whenever I put out an intention in thought, the answer is always Yes. In other words, U/E says Yes to all experiences. Since the body is U/E appearing as form, doesn't this also mean that the body should always obey one's thoughts? The body should be totally under the control of one's mind. Mind creates the intention and U/E obeys the intention. Mind creates an intention for the body, which is U/E appearing as form, and the body should obey.

I believe the body doesn't move as fast as thought if you're constantly telling it that it moves at its own pace or that it lives in a different realm. What's U/E appearing as form, aka the body, to do but give you what you believe to be true. We've believed this lie for so long, i.e. the body is in its own realm and the Mind is in another, that the body has become sluggardly. What if one lives the truth that the body is U/E, therefore, it moves at the same speed as thought, and acts as the same speed as thought? The body should behave in the same way it does in my dreams. The body should move at the speed of thought. The body should obey all thoughts given to it. It already does by following our beliefs that it is naturally dense, heavy and produce sickness, pain and eventually decays. That is so not the truth.

Imagine what it's like to transform your body instantly! Imagine what this means!

What is true of the body is also true of all inanimate objects. Recently, I couldn't open a bottle of milk with my hand and I asked the milk to open itself. I left it alone for a few seconds and when I went back to it, I could turn the lid. Now it makes sense. All forms are U/E in form. It is worth repeating: everything around you is Energy in form. I can therefore treat inanimate objects the same way I treat U/E and they will obey, because U/E always says Yes.

I once got a friend's car to work by commanding it to work and it did based on my realisation that Energy is all there is. It's a matter of practising this truth at all times, that U/E is all there is, and let U/E do the work.

I've written countless times that the person I admire most of all is the fictional character, Mary Poppins. She lives in a reality where she can speak with animals and has command over inanimate objects. What Mary Poppins can do is not just a fantasy, it is a reality. It is a matter of realising that U/E is all there is.

Universal Energy seems to have been lying dormant for ages waiting for us to say the word. Now is the time to stop trying to work things out physically or through mental discipline. Let Energy do the work and it is done.

All is Universal Energy.

I am Universal Energy,
Enocia

For other writings see Vector8 writings

Whatever You Love, Loves You Back!

Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass. (Psalm 37: 4-5)

My mother loves shoes. She's always buying shoes or going window-shopping to look at shoes. I can remember as a child admiring her in her beautiful outfits with matching shoes and handbag. My mother always looks beautiful and elegant!

Mum shared a story that happened a long time ago - in the 80s. I'm going to write from my mother's perspective.

I was walking by a shoe shop. Their shoes are usually very expensive but there's no harm in looking. I noticed these beige shoes with coloured stripes on the side. They were so beautiful! I could see myself wearing them to church and I knew they were going to match many of my outfits. God, they're gorgeous! I checked the price label, £75! That's a lot of money! Can I afford to spend so much money when I've got other responsibilities. A sales assistant asked me whether I wanted to try them on. I said no. It's no use tempting myself when I can't afford them. I'm going to have to pass on them, besides I've got lots of shoes at home. Maybe I could treat myself. No, I musn't! My decision is made and that's that.

For weeks, whenever I walked past the shop, I would gaze longingly at my beautiful shoes still on display. It was as if they were calling out to me, "Buy me! Buy me!" I can't. I have to be strong. As much as I love you, I have to let you go.

One day, I walked by the same shoe shop and noticed they had a sale. I might as well have a look and see what they've got. My heart skipped a bit, on the shelf was one half of my beautiful shoes, the last one. And it was in my size! Now that it's half prize I can afford it. I checked the price label and got a bigger surprise - the price had been further reduced from £35 to £15. I asked the sales assistant for the other half. I tried them on and they fitted perfectly like a glove. Hallelujah, thank you Jesus!

I wore them to church the next Sunday.

Mum said she was so grateful for having her dream come true. She eventually gave them away after she'd thoroughly enjoyed them.

Whatever you love, loves you back. Trust Universal Energy to make things happen and it will happen.

Thank you mum for sharing your story.

All my love,
Enocia

For other writings see Vector8 writings

The Answer is Always Yes!

There's an interesting billboard ad running at the moment for Baileys. In it is a picture of an eye in the middle with what looks like spiral rays coming from the eye. On each ray are the words "don't look." Of course when someone says "don't look" you're going to look, right?

Imagine you're doing a search on Google for Vector8 but instead of typing "Vector8" you type "don't search for Vector8 but search for Enocia." What do you think is going to happen? The mighty Google is going to search for web pages containing the words: "don't," "search," "for," "Vector8," "but" "search," "for" and "Enocia." Remember Google is only a computer, it doesn't understand semantics. It's up to you to be specific, don't expect Google to do it for you.

It is my experience that your mind is exactly the same, one big computer that does exactly what you tell it. Anyone looking at the above ad will experience both words "don't" and "look." Advertisers are very clever, they know how the mind works and use ads to programme people to buy their products.

Given that Universal Energy (U/E), the power which manifests according to one's belief, behaves like a computer, doesn't this mean that U/E says "Yes" to whatever you create, consciously or unconsciously? I think so. Le's say Google has done a search and can't find a match, it doesn't say "no, I'm not doing it" it simply says, "no pages were found." I believe U/E says "Yes" to all. U/E doesn't understand or know the word "no." No has no reality.

I apply the same principle in my life. I cannot say "no" to anyone because "no" doesn't exist. While in human terms I do say no from time to time, but in truth, I'm always saying "yes." Confused? Well, is it, yes, I am confused or yes, I'm not confused? (smile)

Let's take relationships. You meet someone nice and you want to have a relationship with the other be it on a friendship, work related or intimate level. The Universe has said "Yes" to your wish to have this relationship. What if it is an intimate relationship and your partner wishes to end the relationship? The Universe says "Yes." In human terms, someone wants to end the relationship and the other doesn't. You might be thinking, how can this be resolved when both want different things? It will come to a "Yes" resolution for both parties concerned. The "Yes" conclusion is that the relationship is over, for one person at least. You can resist it all you like but once it's set in motion that someone doesn't want to be in the relationship anymore, the answer is always "Yes" and will occur in the long run.

Surely one doesn't choose to experience poverty, lack, murder and destruction? How can the Universe say Yes to such outrage? I say U/E is neutral. I consciously use U/E and I've never heard U/E say "no." I have to take responsibility how I use the energy. My thoughts direct U/E to do whatever.

And as for mayhem and destruction, that is the human definition. Some people might argue that the God they believe in is Love, therefore, Love will not allow murder and destruction. This is not how I see reality. I believe in U/E, which is Love, but to me Love doesn't judge. This is why U/E says "Yes." It is up to you to figure out if that is what you choose or whether, after you've experienced your choice, you will choose it again. Remember you have eternity to work out what you prefer. My view is if you don't wish to experience mayhem and destruction, as you define it, change your thoughts about murder and destruction. Stop making them real.

I watch movies about murder all the time and I know they are not real. I know the actors are only acting. Just like I know humanity is acting different roles. While I will not choose to go through murder or wars, I'm not going to judge how others experience life. Everyone has responsibility for their thoughts and how they experience the world and it's not up to me to tell people how they should live. I say "Yes" to whatever people feel that's right for them.

I have to always remember that U/E is like a computer and it creates according to one's intent or beliefs. U/E doesn't tell me what to do but allows me to experience life as I choose. If there's anyone that says "no" to me, it is me.

Now that I am aware that U/E says "Yes," it makes me more vigilant about my thoughts. I'm also very grateful that if I slip, I can always change my mind knowing that U/E is always going to say Yes by creating another reality that supersedes the previous thought.

I think it's great that the Universe always says "Yes!" Are you saying, "Yes you agree" or "Yes you disagree?"

I am Energy,
Enocia

For other writings see Vector8 writings

Evidence that Energy is Power

It's Saturday, star date, two days ago. Just before I enter my favourite bookshop, I wonder whether I will see my old university friend, whom I've seen a few times at the same bookshop. I have a feeling I'm not going to have time to speak to him today.

I'm reading "Mother God" by Sylvia Browne. Sylvia believes Azna is the feminine aspect of the divine principle which is the power that does the work of manifestation, as opposed to the Father principle which holds things together. I think it's an interesting idea. I believe in Source/Universal Energy that I now affectionately call U/E. U/E, in my view, is All There Is.

Anyway, in this book there are accounts of people who have prayed to Azna and have asked Azna to send flowers to them as confirmation that their prayers have been heard. I am going to test this out. Azna send me flowers now!

My mother is attending a dance so I want to be home after she's gone out. I am trusting in U/E to tell me when I should leave. I also put out an intention that I wish my writings to be testimonies of the awesome power of U/E. I continue reading.

I hear a voice telling me it's time to leave. As I'm coming down the escalator, I feel a force pulling me to my right. I notice piles of boxes about Origami, which is the Japanese art of folding paper into shapes. On the box cover are pictures of Origami roses. Very funny, I smile to myself. I said I wanted flowers and I'm being shown Origami flowers. I meant real flowers, not paper ones!

I notice a man staring at me. He asks me whether we've met before. I say no. He asks me if I've ever attended a particular college. I used to study creative writing at that college but it was over ten years ago. He says he's seen me recently. He asks me what I do. I tell him I write inspirational stories. While we are speaking, my university friend walks in. I tell him I'm just about to leave, just as I thought I would. The man I've just met tells me he's part of a personal development group and they are having a workshop tomorrow about Health. Would I like to attend and maybe I could give a talk. I tell him I would like to attend. He hands me two tickets. He also tells me that he has no idea why he was drawn to the bookshop at that time. Obviously, U/E had something to do with this. It also turns out that he lives only about a mile away from me.

On my way home my bus is delayed. The Voice reminds me that there is a reason why the bus is delayed. I go home and find my mother has only just left, (she confirmed later that she left a lot later than planned).

I am watching a movie called "American Sweethearts." There are many references to flowers, I even see bouquets of flowers. Yeah, right! I still would like flowers in this reality not in a tv reality!

It's star date, yesterday. I'm in the workshop listening to motivational speakers, coaches, personal development teachers and healers. I also see someone I know. They are all speaking about the power of the mind and how one can create using one's personal power. I find the talks to be very inspiring and empowering. They are evidence of how U/E is doing the work of creation through one's personal beliefs.

Universal Energy is Power. My job is to put out my intention and let U/E do the work. I don't have to worry about the how and when.

I am U/E
Enocia

For other writings see Vector8 writings

Life is a Roller-coaster

So don't fight it
Life is a roller-coaster
Just gotta ride it Ronan Keating

Have you ever been on a roller-coaster ride at a theme park? I have. I think they are terrific. The scariest ride I ever had was at Alton Towers in the north of England. It is called Nemesis. Part of this ride, you're hanging upside down screaming your head off, at least I was. The ride probably lasted for a minute but it felt like eternity. I was terrified and yet thrilled. I felt better for scaring myself witless.

Isn't it strange that we could put ourselves in situations to experience fear, just for the hell of it? It's like watching a horror movie. I find when I totally immerse myself in the movie, I'm terrified. If I don't want to get scared, I tell myself it's only a movie and that the plot is stupid, then I don't feel anything. After a while I lose interest.

Putting yourself in situations to experience the emotions is a bit like life to me. The thing about life is you can easily forget that you've put yourself in a particular situation to experience what it feels like, to learn a lesson, or whatever scheme you've dreamed up. It's no use blaming the effect for making you scared. I didn't blame Nemesis for making me so scared I wanted to throw up because I chose to be on that ride.

I chose to experience life on earth. I choose the experiences I'm going through. If I don't like the look of the ride, I don't get on it. Or if I get on it, I have fun with it, knowing that it's not real and only lasts for a short time.

Life is like a roller-coaster ride. You choose it to experience fear, sadness, anger, joy, adventure, thrills, passion, or whatever.

Fasten your seat belts and enjoy the ride!

Squeal! Screech! Laughter! Thrill!

Love Enocia

For other writings see Vector8 writings

Mission: Impossible!

When I was a child, my favourite TV series was Mission Impossible. The team was always given a difficult mission that seemed downright impossible, but they were always successful. I use the same theme in my life but in a different way. I am now going to discuss some things in my life that I define as mission: impossible.

Let me first say that I believe life is a dream of infinite possibilities. You can choose any dream you wish to experience. These choices are states of consciousness. In any dream, you need a dream body in order to have the experiences. Ultimate reality for me is a state that is all inclusive.

While I was pondering these ideas on the bus this morning, I heard some kids playing a game of "guess what noise this is?" The little girl made various animal noises and her two brothers had to guess what animal makes that noise. The animal noises are the equivalent of states of consciousness. A quack, bark, meow, hiss or snort is neither good nor bad, they are simply different states of consciousness. These states are what I see as choices.

Let's get on with my mission: impossible.

Last night on the way home on the bus, the driver kept braking suddenly and lurching everyone forward. Even though I was sitting down, I felt myself slipping out of my seat. I imagined Energy around me preventing me from falling. As we approached my stop, I stood up, holding on to the rail. The bus driver stepped on the brake and I lurched forward losing my grip on the rail. I could see myself about to fall flat on my face but I felt an invisible hand pushing me back. I also felt someone's physical hand grabbing my other arm, and the woman saying "sorry" as if it was her fault our driver was a maniac. (LOL!) No harm done. I got off the bus intact. I knew for a certainty that it was impossible for me to fall. Can I fall when I am Energy? It is impossible!

We have a saying in the UK that the least likely thing that could happen to you is "you could get run over by a bus." Well, last Summer, yours truly was nearly run over by one. I saw my bus on the other side and I didn't want to miss it, so I dashed across the road. There was another bus behind the one I wanted which was coming too fast and inches away from hitting me. I had all the time in the world to say out loud "whoa, too close," step back, lose a mule slipper I was wearing under the bus, retrieve my mule, ran to the other bus, bang on the door for the driver to let me in and I sat down. It was then I realised how close I had come to making the least likely thing that can happen to you a reality. Nah! It is impossible for me to be run over! Once is quite enough, thank you very much!

In the morning, while I wait for my bus and during my journey, I speak to a young girl who goes to the local sixth form college, where she's studying for her A'levels. (Advanced level in the UK for 16-18 year olds before they go to university). She's studying business, media and drama. As a media graduate, we have a lot to talk about. One morning, we talked about music. I told her I've seen Bobby Brown in concert. Bobby Brown is married to the pop star, Whitney Houston. Brown is a talented musician and performer and I adored him when he was young, enough to see him perform live. If the young lady was puzzled, she didn't make out she was. The next day on our bus journey, we discussed a project she was currently working on in college. She showed me a photo of herself which she is going to use in a magazine. She's done modelling in the past. I complimented her on how pretty she looked. She said I could be a cat-walk model because I had the features and build. I said I was probably too old to be one. She asked me how old I was and I asked her to guess. She thought I was 23. I confessed my age, in my thirties, and she was shocked. She couldn't believe it. She said she'd been wondering how I could have seen Bobby Brown in concert, given my age. She said I should definitely become a cat-walk model as no one would know I was that old.

It is impossible for me to age! I can't conceive it. As far as I'm concerned, that reality doesn't exist. The thing about eternal youth is you have to decide what appearance you prefer. If you live till 200 and are ageless, you could look like a 50 year old and still be ageless. I choose to look between 21 and 25.

You could argue that there are disadvantages to staying young-looking. My student friend and I laughed at the thought of me aged 60 and looking like I'm in my early twenties, and how the authorities are not going to believe I'm the same person. They will think I've stolen my own passport. By then I will have to teleport to my destination. (LOL!)

Another disadvantage is when your own friends don't recognise you or won't believe it's you. A while back, I met an old friend I haven't seen in years. She was about to walk by me because she wasn't sure if it was me. She said she didn't think it could be me because the EJ she knew should have aged by now. I said I didn't age.

The advantage of eternal youth is you can do many things in your life. I already have and look forward to lots more. You can also have friends in different generations as you can relate to any age, just like I can relate to my 16 year old student friend. She's even invited me to watch her in a play at the end of this term.

I am fascinated by stories about St Germain who lived for hundreds of years and never died. I can so relate to him. Already, I am ageless with tons of experiences. I can imagine going on for hundreds of years if I want to.

I see ultimate reality as Energy/Source that knows neither sickness nor health. Both are illusions, but I can choose which illusion I wish to experience. I choose health any time. It is impossible for me to be sick!

I like my dream body to look the same. I have maintained the same body weight for a few years. I know that putting on weight is definitely in the mind. Some days I feel heavy but when I weigh myself I weigh the same. Other times I can't feel my body at all, it's as if I'm not there, but my body weight is always the same, 8 stones. (In the UK, 14 pounds = 1 stone). That is my ideal weight for my height and I like to keep it that way. It is impossible for me to lose or gain weight!

I believe my identity as Energy knows no lack or abundance. How can infinity be measured in terms of abundance, it is just too abstract a concept. I believe when you take a life in form, you have to pretend you don't have something so you can experience it. I can choose lack or superabundance. I now choose superabundance in all ways, whatever it means for me, of course. It is impossible for me to experience lack in any way!

My true nature is bliss. In the dream realm, I can choose what emotional state I wish to be in all the time. Though I experiment with other emotions from time to time, I can always come back to my preferred state. I choose joy. It is impossible for me to be unhappy!

Another impossibility is death. I am immortal Spirit in form. Why would I die when death is an illusion? I could choose to go through death so I can take on another body, but I prefer to keep this dream body for however long I wish to and when I've had enough, I can transform into Energy. It is impossible for me to die!

These are a few of my mission: impossibles. When I think of some more I will add them to the list. Just because I have made these choices, doesn't mean I feel those I haven't chosen are bad. Life is about making choices.

Life is great! You can be whatever you want. It is impossible for life to be otherwise!

Quack, quack! Meow! Moo! Hiss! Snort!

I am what I choose I am,
Enocia

Related articles by Enocia: The Kingdom is Right Where You Are, Flying, Falling or None of the Above and The Search for Meaning

Alternate Realities

I've heard a lot about alternate realities or alternate universes. I sometimes feel as if I'm living in an alternate earth compared to other people. I only have to read the newspapers or watch the news and I can see evidence of alternate realities. My mother and I definitely live in alternate universes in that we have our own views of reality. When she's not feeling well she goes to a doctor and takes tablet. In my reality, I remind myself I am Energy and let the Energy become health or whatever, and it is so. You don't have to die or be an ET to experience an alternate reality. You can experience it now.

Recently, I wrote an article called To Get More, Use What You Have, where I discussed whether infinity, as an abstract concept, is translated into the concrete when one makes use of one's resources. I cited the fact that Yahoo had increased my email storage as a demonstration of this principle.

I'm also aware that there are other free email providers who give their customers a lot more storage space. One example is Google. A while back, a friend sent me an invitation to create a Gmail that would give me storage capacity of 1000 mb, a lot more than Yahoo's current 250 mb. I couldn't activate my account with the browser I was using at the time. By the time I got round to activating it, it had expired. (Sorry EJ!) Another friend with Gmail has sent me another invite and I have now got a Gmail, which has a lot more resources. So you could say, I now have the opportunity to express more of who I am.

What is my point here? My new email account with Google is an example of an alternate reality. Whatever I think is true, can be easily refuted in another reality. This is why I never let myself become complacent. It's impossible for me to get complacent anyway because there is always a part of me showing me other ways of being. I wrote in another article, Only One Exists that my awareness is omnipresent, which is always sending me information when I need it. My friends with Gmail are my omnipresent awareness reminding me of an alternative solution. Come to think of it, my writings are examples of living in alternate realities, from one day to the next.

I believe alternate realities are one's Self feeding back data. If you follow up on the signals, you create the reality as a physical reality. In other words the alternate reality that is already present in the eternal now is made visible. Why do you think people talk about creating heaven on earth? Because they have an awareness that an alternate reality exists. Maybe if people took it to the next level and knew that the alternate reality exists now, it will be made manifest.

It is written in the scriptures:

"The wolf and the lamb shall feed together, and the lion shall eat straw like the bullock: and dust shall be the serpent's meat. They shall not hurt nor destroy in all my holy mountain, saith the LORD." (Isaiah 65: 25)

Do you think the writer was on a trip when he wrote this? In a way he was, he was experiencing an alternate reality which exists in the eternal now. I know a reality of man co-existing with what we consider to be wild animals exists now, and can be made visible in this 3-D reality. I've read accounts of humans co-existing with wild animals. Here's one example:

"I then began to ask questions and Emil showed me that he was able to call the birds to him and direct their flight while they were in the air; that the flowers and trees would nod to him; that the wild animals would come to him fearlessly. He parted two jackals that were fighting over the body of a smaller animal that they had killed and were feeding upon. When he approached them they stopped fighting and put their heads in his outstretched hands in perfect trust, then resumed their meal in quiet. He even gave me one of the young wild creatures to hold in my hands. He then said to me, "This is not the mortal self, the self you see, that is able to do these things. It is a truer, deeper self. It is what you know as God, God within me, God the Omnipotent One working through me, that does these things. Of myself, the mortal self, I can do nothing. It is only when I get rid of the outer entirely and let the actual, the I AM, speak and work and let the great Love of God come forth that I can do these things that you have seen. When you let the Love of God pour through you to all things, nothing fears you and no harm can befall you."" (Life and Teachings of the Masters of the Far East)

Even in a reality that is experienced purely on the physical, five senses, level, there are infinite possibilities, let alone when you open yourself up to other realms. Everything is possible if you can figure it out or believe it is.

I like reading about people who have transcended earth as a physical reality and have realised that the universe is Energy. These people let Energy do the work. It's not enough for me to read about these people though, I need to experience Energy doing the work for myself. I have witnessed instant manifestations in my life. Even if I had only one experience of Energy at work, I will still have the evidence that it is possible.

There are those who might think I'm living in an alternate reality and it is not likely to happen within the mass consciousness of humanity, or it will only occur once you have passed away. If that is what you believe to be your reality, then so be it. I prefer to experience new possibilities that I know exist now.

In a universe of infinite possibilities, is there anything one can hold on to? Is there an ultimate reality? I only know what I know, which might not be the ultimate truth, for all I know, if you know what I mean. (smile) I believe ultimate Reality to be Source/Energy/Silence. This is my true identity and it is what I am experiencing. I therefore live by a few principles.

Source/Energy/Love is all there is.

There is no such thing as failure/success, or good/evil, only different creations.

There is always a solution, or an alternate reality, if you're open to it.

I know that all is Energy appearing as different forms. I trust in Energy to take care of my needs. Whether I listen to advice is a different story. For instance, as I don't have a watch or use an alarm clock, I trust in Energy to wake me up every morning at the same time, and it is so. Whether I get out of bed or drift off to sleep and make myself late is another matter.

In an alternate reality, I see my Gmail storage space filled up with articles and stories about my life experiences, yet, I'm not impressed at all. Do you want to know why? Because I know that my experiences are only a tip of the iceberg of the infinitude of Self. They don't call me Infinity for nothing, you know!

I am Infinite Possibilities,
Enocia

For other writings see Vector8 writings

Accident or Omnipresence at Work?

I was ten years old at the time, living in Freetown, Sierra Leone. (You know that tiny country on the west coast of Africa?) We used to take shortcuts through a private primary school, where the pupils wore their own clothes instead of uniforms. They were posh kids whose parents were politicians or very wealthy; or was it their parents were wealthy because they were politicians? (LOL) Anyway, I can vividly remember our headmistress giving us a lecture during one assembly, that it was forbidden for us to take short cuts through that particular school ground. Still, it was a shortcut and a girl's got to do what a girl's got to do.

I can remember jay-walking across the road. I say jay-walk but the concept "jay-walking" had no reality. No one paid attention to traffic lights, which were mere street decorations. Back to my story. There was a stationary van parked on the road. I checked both sides of the road and dashed across. A car appeared from nowhere on the left side but it missed me, but on the right there was another car and it was moving too fast. Too late, I was hit. Then time seemed to slow down. I saw myself falling to the ground and the car's wheel stopping near my head. I heard a voice saying "It's not happening, it's all a dream. It's not real." I was here, there, and everywhere. I believe I was/(am) Consciousness without a body but an awareness. Then I was back in my body.

Back in the dream world, I was weeping, more out of embarrassment than anything else. My nemesis, pupils from the private school, were obviously standing there gawping at me. How the mighty has fallen! I heard muffled voices around me. I felt someone's arms lifting me up and putting me in the back of a car. Then I heard a commotion. I was transferred from the car to an ambulance, which happened to be a few cars behind. I was driven, sirens blaring, to the hospital. I'd often wondered what it would be like in an ambulance - now my dream had come true. I was so thrilled to be riding in an ambulance. It's a shame I couldn't see through the windows. I couldn't wait to share my adventure with my classmates.

At the hospital, I had my wounds cleaned and dressed. I was put in a little room to wait for my mother. There was another woman on the other side of the room who seemed to be in a lot of pain. I received a lot of attention from the hospital staff; nurses and doctors popped in to see me, but they didn't seem to be paying much attention to the other patient.

I was so relieved to see my distraught mother and my aunt. The doctor assured them I was fine and I should have time off school with a lot of TLC (tender loving care). Oh the joy of being off school for two weeks! I indulged in soft drinks, biscuits and cakes, treats usually reserved for special occasions like birthdays, parties or Christmas. My friends came to visit me and we had a lot of fun.

One day, one Sister at the hospital paid me a visit. Wow, I didn't realise I'd made such an impression. The truth was the Sister had been driving the car that had run me over. She was on her way to work that morning. No wonder I had been so popular; the doctors and nurses weren't used to having one of their own run a patient over to the hospital. (LOL) The Sister brought me lots of nice treats so that was OK with me. My mother decided not to take legal action against her as I wasn't badly injured, just a few cuts and bruises.

The story took a strange twist. The Sister who had run me over turned out to be no other than my cousin's boyfriend's aunt, whom the family had never met. (My cousin and the boy eventually did get married. For all I know my accident drew them closer. I doubt that very much, but I can dream, can't I? (LOL))

So there you go, omnipresence at work. Love was all around us. Love was lurking as the ambulance which drove me to the hospital. Love was the driver who at least knew how to take care of her victim. Love protected me from being badly injured. Love was the harmonious resolution when the driver turned out to be "family." Finally, Love was the realisation that what I was experiencing was a dream.

While I wouldn't recommend this dream experience, it shows that nothing is as it seems. "Life is but a dream."

There was/is only the one player in this drama called life and it is Consciousness.

I am Consciousness,
Enocia

For other writings see Vector8 writings

It's a Miracle!

Life is filled with miracles. Look around you, don't you see miracles abound? I do. I guess we tend to think of miracles as good, in the way we define good. I say everything is a miracle it depends on one's perspective.

Why, oh why, do people pay to see magicians when they are so adept at performing miracles. Don't you believe me? I'll give you a few examples.

Go into any hospital and you'll see miracles. To paraphrase what my friend said recently, "It's a miracle people get sick." (Thanks SG for that thought.(smile)) It's so true! Why do we get sick? You say the food I've just eaten has given me food poisoning or is making me ill, or is making me put on weight. How does that happen? Who told you so? The nutritionists, your doctor, the government, the scientific experts, the food manufacturers, the food label? Who?

Everybody knows some food make you allergic and some make you put on weight? Really? Everybody? Says who?

It's a bloody miracle, I say! It's a miracle you can eat something so harmless and believe that because the label says the food contains x amount of calories or nutritional contents, you find yourself putting on weight or reacting. It's magic, high magic. Do you not see how powerful you are that you can create a reality because you think it is so? A blooming miracle!

What about the fact that germs make us ill? Experts tell us that we have friendly and not so friendly bacteria in our stomach. We need friendly bacteria to help us digest food but the pesky bacteria make us ill if there are too many of them. Tell me, are these so called malevolent bugs not supposed to be found everywhere?

We've been trained that we must wash our hands after using the toilet, right? You might wash your hands, but how do you know others do? You share the same space with people on a daily basis. It could be in the office, public transport, restaurant, the street, taxis, everywhere. Even if you've got your own chauffeur driven car, you're bound to pick up someone's germs. Imagine if we all went around consciously thinking about these bugs, we wouldn't want to go out, would we? You wouldn't want to speak to anyone without covering your body to try to protect you from some bug. How come we're not besieged with diseases? You might argue that the bugs have been eradicated or because we are now immune. Yeah right! I reckon it's because we are not thinking about them. We are not thinking about them because we don't believe in them. See an article I wrote about Why do some beliefs catch on and some don't?

The worst cold I ever had happened a few years ago after I had been studying energy healing. We were taught about thought-forms and elementals which are supposed to lodge in one's chakra (energy wheel) and cause diseases. I came out of the course with super-awareness. Alas, the downside of super-awareness was I was so paranoid about these thought-forms and elementals that I went around with a protective energy shield, which I needed to create frequently. My flatmate had a cold and I did all I could to protect myself. There must have been a hole in my shield because I eventually caught it. It was as if I had caught all of humanity's cold. On the plus side, at least it gave me the opportunity to practise self-healing. (LOL)

I used to be very paranoid about using public toilets. I might wash my hands or I might not. I don't go around thinking of bugs and viruses. I live and let live. I eat what I love. I don't think about the food having the potential to heal or harm, I simply don't give a toss.

Isn't it a miracle that we can make ourselves miserable? The same power that makes one miserable can be used to make one happy. What is misery and happiness anyway? We all have our own definitions, I'm sure.

So you have made yourself miserable and created a miracle called a disease. You make an appointment to see your doctor. Your doctor touches you with his magic instrument, gives you some magic pills and before you know it, you are cured. Glory be, another miracle! Hmmm! Wasn't Jack once sold some magic beans that grew overnight into that beanstalk, which got him into lots of trouble? He did end up getting rich out of it though. Like Jack, we also have a treasure within us that creates miracles of health and sickness.

Hey, here's a thought. If you're not feeling well or things are not working out as you wish, instead of lamenting over your situation, why not celebrate what a miracle you have created? If you can create such a miracle, it's a piece of piss creating the reverse, surely?

The world is a miracle. Creations are occurring all the time. They may be things you like or not. Either way, it's still a miracle.

The world is a marvel to behold. It's a blooming miracle!

I am a Miracle,
Enocia

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Thoughts about Crossing the Road

When I was a child I was taught the rule to cross a road, which was very simple. "Look left, look right, look left again, when the road is clear, walk across the road." I was living in Sierra Leone at the time where traffic was on the left. In the UK, it is the reverse.

The above rule works well when you're crossing a side street in a residential area. What about when it comes to crossing main roads? What if you are a persistent jay-walker like me? The above rule doesn't cut it when I'm jay-walking.

Every morning, I have to cross a main road to get to my bus stop. On some mornings there is a long line of traffic. I could walk to the traffic light which is not too far away, but it's too long-winded for my liking. I would rather jay-walk. I focus my attention on one side of the road only. I have to as you never know when a motorcyclist might appear. (Motorcyclists are hazardous to jay-walkers; trust me, I've had a few misses). Only when I have crossed one side do I focus on the other side, when I wait for an opportunity to walk across.

I find jay-walking gives me lots of practise to stay in the moment. Whatever I am doing, I do it 100%. For instance, when I'm working on a story my attention is 100% focused on writing. If I have an idea to check another website, I stop for however long and focus on the website then I return to what I was doing. When I'm this focused nothing in the world can distract me. No one exists but me.

I've been run over once and had a few misses. Each time I was jay-walking. I believe the reason why I was run over was because I was trying to use the principle of "looking left, right and left" while jay-walking. Not a good idea. That principle doesn't allow you to stay in the moment. When I was run over, one side missed me but the other side got me. Such is life in the fast lane! (LOL)

So I would recommend jay-walking anytime. Well it's not really illegal here in the UK, it's another way of crossing the road. If you're going to jay-walk, stay in the moment.

There is an easier way to cross the road, of course, where I take no thought. No, not using the traffic light or zebra crossings! I said easier. I decide beforehand that the road is clear and it is. All I need do is walk over.

Whatever you do, have fun!

Love Enocia

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Only One Exists

"I will go before thee, and make the crooked places straight." (Isaiah 45: 2)

"And it shall come to pass, that before they call, I will answer; and while they are yet speaking, I will hear." (Isaiah 65: 24)

Only One Exists. It is my belief and what I hold to be true. What do I mean?

I believe the Universe is One Source of formless Energy, which is manifested as different forms in order to express Self. I am this Energy from my perspective only. In every moment, I am the One expressing life.

I believe every entity is the One expressing Source in its own unique way.

Being the One means only I exist. It is always I speaking to myself. I, as Enocia, am present everywhere in every form. Let's say a man, I've never met before, sits besides me. I am not the man next to me but I am my awareness of myself within this man. A week later, I have a thought about the same man and he immediately pops up, from nowhere. How did I conjure him up? It was I, within the person, sending myself his energy signals (thoughts), of course.

I am a huge fan of Star Trek. The crew are explorers, whose mission is to "boldly go where no one has gone before." Similarly, I have projected my awareness out to explore all realities and feed back what they've discovered. Together we are One.

How do I prevent myself from being overwhelmed with all that data? I don't have to have a conscious awareness of them all. I simply need to trust in myself that all I need is within me and are being made consciously available when needed.

So, when I have a thought to do something, it is the equivalent of me sending out my explorers out on my mission. They do all they can to fulfil my mission. My troopers work in unison and are always at one with my will. I am the Father-Mother in command. Haha!

Do my troopers always follow my orders? Yes they do without judgment. They follow whatever I believe to be true. If what is manifested is higgledy-piggledy, I don't blame the messengers. I regard what is manifested as useful feedback. It is up to me to change my mind and give my troopers new commands.

Only One exists. Imagine living in a world where no one exists but you. You can be anything you want because...you're the one in charge. You can consciously create any dream you like.

I am so loving my dreams.

Only I exist,
Enocia

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A Wonderful Poem

A friend at another forum posted this poem, which I can so relate to. It describes me perfectly. :-)

Thank you OM, for sharing it. :-)

Love EJ

God and I in space alone
and nobody else in view.
"And where are the people, O Lord," I said,
"the earth below and the sky o'er head
and the dead whom once I knew?"

"That was a dream," God smiled and said,
"A dream that seemed to be true.
There were no people, living or dead,
there was no earth, and no sky o'er head;
there was only Myself -- in you."

"Why do I feel no fear," I asked,
"meeting You here this way?
For I have sinned I know full well--
and is there heaven, and is there hell,
and is this the Judgment Day?"

"Nay, those were but dreams,"
the Great God said,
"Dreams that have ceased to be.
There are no such things as fear or sin;
there is no you -- you never have been--
there is nothing at all
but Me."

ella wheeler wilcox

A Homage to Bruce Lee

I love Bruce Lee, the actor. He was in a different level. He understood that one can transcend limitations that one is formless. I feel his realisations are depicted in his movie.

Below is an article I wrote a while back, which discusses ideas from the Bruce Lee movie, "Enter the Dragon," which is being shown tonight. Hurray for television!

Thank you Bruce Lee for your gift.

Love Enocia

SHATTERING THE MIRRORS

"Sorcerers' aspirations are to reach infinity, and to be conscious of it." (p. 69, The Active Side of Infinity, by Carlos Castaneda)

"The most accurate statement about what a nagual is [nagual meaning "the leader of a party of sorcerers"], which he voiced the day I found him, was that a nagual is empty, and that the emptiness doesn't reflect the world, but reflects infinity." (p. 73, The Active Side of Infinity, by Carlos Castaneda)

I am on a bus journey, again. As we drive past a particular road, I notice some flashing lights coming from inside a flat. The lights resemble the ones on mobile discos. It's very odd seeing flashing lights in someone's flat! Actually, there were no lights in the flat. What I was seeing was a reflection of a truck outside with flashing lights being reflected through the window in the flat, giving the impression that the lights were coming from within the flat. It was only a mirror effect.

All around us, there appear to be invisible mirrors reflecting our thoughts and beliefs back to us. They are truly magical mirrors. Say, if you believe in cause/effect i.e. what you sow is what you reap, the mirror reflects your belief back to you. What if you no longer believe in any laws? Then the mirror simply reflects back to you what you are thinking.

Two days ago, I noticed a television commercial for a chocolate called Aero, which I found very amusing. The next day I met this guy on the bus who admired my hair; I have tiny curls that look like bubbles. He said my hair looked like the bubbles in Aero. He was mirroring my thoughts about Aero bubbles.

I recently went into a retailers to buy an eyeliner. The shop also sells black hair products and attracts many black women customers. The owners are Asians (Indian origin). While I waited to be served, I listened to the sales assistant giving advice about hair extensions to a black woman. She asked whether the hair piece she was buying would be sufficient. I heard a thought, "What would you know about hair dressing?" The woman smiled at me and said, "I know what you're thinking. You're thinking "what would he know about hair dressing," right?" I smiled politely back at her.

What I found interesting about that encounter was the mirror reflection. The woman thought she was reading my mind but she wasn't. She was actually reading her own thoughts being reflected back at her. I was acting as a mirror to her. You could argue, how did I know I wasn't thinking those thoughts? Because I don't hold beliefs that one is only limited to what one knows because of the colour of one's skin. They were her beliefs.

Are reflections the same as creations? No, they are total opposites. One is there to trap you in mental bondage while the other frees you. Mirror reflections are tricky things. You catch your thoughts reflected at you and you start thinking of synchronicity and miracles. I've had this demonstrated so many times when I've met people I know, or even those I don't, and they reflect what I've been thinking of. It doesn't mean they are confirming or manifesting anything, they are simply being mirror reflections. Say, you have a fantasy about being a millionaire. You will suddenly find everyone around you reflecting that thought or your beliefs about it. Reflections are not confirmations that you are creating your dream. Reflections are simply effects; and these effects can prove to be distractions if you believe them to be true. It's like staring at yourself in the mirror and believing your mirror image to be the real you. How silly is that?

Creation is a different matter. In order to create you have to step out of the illusion of reflection and be able to see things clearly. Before I explore this, let me digress for a moment.

One actor I truly admire is the late Bruce Lee. I love his movie "Enter the Dragon." In this movie, Lee is a secret agent sent to an island near Hong Kong to investigate drug trafficking. The drug lord, Han, who is also a martial arts expert, puts on fight tournaments as a cover-up for the real action - drug-trafficking. Lee also discovers that the drug lord caused his sister to commit suicide so he is also out to avenge her death. Lee and two Americans guys enter the fight tournament. One American is killed while the other continues the battle. In the final confrontation with the one-armed Han, Lee is led into a room with many mirrors. He is unable to find his opponent as he is temporarily distracted by the mirrors. Han takes this opportunity to lash out at Lee with his clawed hand, wounding him badly. Lee smashes all the mirrors around him. Only then is he able to see Han face to face. The fight is to the death. Lee is the victor.

The last fight scene represents the battle against the ego which will do whatever it can to distract you from the truth. On the "path" to freedom the ego puts challenges in your way. This is represented in the movie by the American who has already been killed off. But Lee is a lot stronger and determined. In the movie, Han uses the mirrors to distract Lee so he can make his attack. Similarly, the most effective tool the ego has is illusion: letting you see what it wants you to see rather than what is true. The ego reflects back to you your thoughts and beliefs, and will not allow you to see what is behind the mirror. To get behind the mirror one way is to smash it so there are no longer any reflections. Then you can see reality as it is.

The moment when the mirrors smashed I was able to see my real identity as formless. It means that now all I see around me is infinity, which is free of concepts and labels. In the realm of illusions, where the mirrors belong, what you perceive as reality is actually your mental concept superimposed on the world around you, which lets you experience your thoughts or beliefs. In the realm of the Formless, when I look at another, a thing, even myself, I see emptiness, the void, the formless, infinity.

Since I am still in the world I am still part of the world. Others will continue to see me as a reflection and read what they have projected on to me as truth. I can't help what people read into their reflections. I only know I am no longer playing that game as all I can see around me is the void.

Within the void, which is Spirit, one can create without distractions. Concepts, beliefs and mirror images create separation from Spirit. This separation is defined in esoteric literature as maya (on the material plane); glamour (on the astral plane); and illusion (on the mental plane). Where there is no separation, you are one with your true Self, the formless Spirit; and you can create instantly with no obstructions. This is freedom.

The mirrors have been shattered.

I am free. Freedom and creation are one.

I now live in the realm of the formless.

I am Infinity,
Love Enocia

Previously posted at Shattering the Mirrors

Living in a Timeless Realm

I stopped wearing a watch a year and a half ago, but hey, whose counting? I did carry a timepiece in my bag just in case, but it stopped working months back. I didn't see any point replacing the battery, as there are so many public clocks around. Besides, I live with someone who collects clocks and watches!

The first thing I noticed when I stopped wearing a watch was how much time I spent looking at my wrist. I was an addict going through withdrawal symptoms like experiencing involuntary jerky movements; or in my case, looking at my wrist at regular intervals. I reckon when I used to look at my watch, it wasn't because I wanted to know the time, it was because I was picking up on people's thoughts all wanting to know the time. Every moment, someone is asking "What's the time?" If you're someone who is sensitive to other's thoughts and don't know how to filter them, what time is it again? Hehe

I was soon cured of the habit of looking at my wrist.

Naturally, I operate within the world system which works by time so I have to be aware of the time. But the way I now work is I intend what time I would like to get to my destination, or achieve such and such, and then switch off.

Can you imagine what it feels like to travel on a bus, for instance, and not be aware of the time? Bliss! I enter a realm of events blinking on and off. Now you see something appear, now it disappears. Now you see it, now you don't. It's an eternal moment of Now.

Now that I am no longer fussed about checking the time, I use time with purpose. I let the Universe show me the time when it matters. Last night was a typical example.

My mother was having guests round during the day. It was in honour of my uncle who passed away recently. In our culture, they commemorate the 40th day after someone's death with a feast. (Some people continue having yearly commemorations for years to come). My uncle had specifically requested that he didn't want a 40 Day Ceremony, which takes a lot of organising. My mother decided she wasn't going to have a feast, but she was going to mark the day by inviting a few friends round. My idea of fun is not sitting around talking about the dead, who isn't dead, so I told my mother I would be back by 10 pm. I was hoping all her guests would have gone by then.

I went to the west end in the evening to sit in the coffee area in my favourite bookshop, where I scoffed 5 doughnuts in one sitting. Yum! I planned to leave around 9 pm. I was busy reading and lost in time. At one point I put my antenna out, wondering whether it was time to leave. The Voice within told me I would leave in 15 minutes. Soon a member of staff came round to announce that that particular section of the shop was closing down for the evening. I asked him what the time was and it was 9.15 pm. Hmmm! There must be a reason why I have delayed my departure by 15 minutes.

I caught my buses home. On the way, I put out an intent that my last bus would arrive as soon as I was at the stop. The opposite occurred, I saw my bus leaving. Why would I deliberately make myself miss my bus? There has to be a rational explanation. If I waited for the next bus, it will mean hanging around for another 15 minutes or more, which is to be expected as there is a reduced bus service at this time of night. I decided to walk and at least arrive home in 15 minutes.

When I arrived home, I heard voices. Now it all made sense. My mother still had guests. They left as soon as I arrived. I had been obeying my earlier intent all along by giving my mother and her guests space. I had deliberately delayed my journey to synchronise with all. Had I waited for the other bus, all would have worked out perfectly.

So you see, I don't have a watch but I am very much aware of what is happening. How? By awareness that my nature is omnipresent. I am always sending myself signals. This is how I can predict what time my mother will arrive home as I am already with her sending myself signals.

Before I stopped wearing a watch, I could always wake up at a certain time without an alarm clock. Letting go of my watch was a leap of faith, trusting in myself. Like I said, there are always clocks around if I ever need them.

The timeless realm is a realm where everything is happening perfectly in sequence, when it involves others, or as events. I have a choice to relate to events as time and space when I need to, or to disconnect and become an observer. Either way, it's always a lot of fun.

I am Timelessness,
Enocia

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