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Monday, February 28, 2005

Who Do You Think You Are?

So you feel pain, you feel as if your body is giving way.

What happened to the youthful you who thought adults were ancient?
What happened to the you who thought each moment lasted forever?
Who is this you who limps about complaining of hereditary?

Remember this. When you feel limited in body and affairs it is because you are identifying yourself as a form.

Who are you?

You are not a body
You are not your emotions
You are not your thoughts
You are not your mind

The real you is Love
The real you is Energy
The real you is Light
The real you is Consciousness
The real you is Formlessness
The real you is Infinity
The real you is Uncaused
The real you is Freedom

Can Love feel fear?
Can Energy be annihilated?
Can Light be extinguished?
Can Consciousness cease to be?
Can Formlessness take a form?
Can Infinity be finite?
Can the Uncaused have a beginning and end?
Can Freedom be in bondage?

When you feel limitations of any sort, remember who you are!
Remember Who You Are!

With love,

Saturday, February 26, 2005

A Thank You Prayer

I love the simplicity of this prayer that I was taught as a child.

Thank you for the world so sweet,
Thank you for the food we eat.
Thank you for the birds that sing,
Thank you God for everything.

(by E. Rutter Leatham)

For other prayers:Thanksgiving

Friday, February 25, 2005


Yesterday, I was gripped with a longing to go home. I get this from time to time which come in waves of homesickness. I look around me and feel as if I'm stuck in a dream and I think "What am I doing here? Take me home." Sometimes the pull is so strong that I am tempted to retreat into the Light and be formless. But then I realise I'm here for a purpose. I imagine what it will be like if I withdraw and I feel regret over not having finished my job. I know that no one can do my job but me so I'm staying.

This morning on my way out it was snowing. I seriously don't see what the fuss is about snow. Snow, rain and storms are all reminders to me that this is not home. I know my real home is resplendent with light that knows no darkness, no climates, just peace and love. As I walked to the bus stop I put up my umbrella and focused on the Light from home, my real home. It stopped snowing and the rest of the day has been sunny. Nice try sunshine but you are nowhere close to the radiance of the Light of God!

I guess homesickness is a good indication that I am losing my attachment to Earth. I know it's not yet time for me to dissolve into Light. I am going to have to make the best of what I have. Just like one can buy little ornaments to decorate one's place to make it feel like home, I'm going to have to be the Light that I am right here and right now to make Earth feel like home.

One day I look around and notice everything has transformed into resplendent Light. What a day of rejoicing indeed!

I am Light,

Related article: On Earth as in Heaven

Then is Now and Now is Then - Part 2

""I Am" is the present tense for all time."Christ in You
In the previous article, Then is Now and Now is Then, I discussed how the miracles that Jesus performed 2,000 years ago are still relevant now. One only needs to remember there is only one now, one Christ Mind that is the same yesterday, today and forever.

Christ is God in manifestation. While Jesus realised himself as Christ and had power to heal, cast out demons, teach etc, Jesus was manifesting aspects of the Christ. The Christ is Infinite Self expressing Its nature as love, peace, harmony, abundance, beauty, perfection, wisdom and power. Is any man able to unfold all aspects of the Christ? I believe in every epoch, God is revealing Himself anew according to the individual's purpose. You have someone like Mary Baker Eddy, founder of the Christian Science religion and author of Science and Health, who revealed the healing principles that anyone can apply for self-healing or healing others. You have Joel Goldsmith (Infinite Way) who revealed how one can live as the Presence. Then you have Babaji, referred to as the Yogi-Christ of Modern India, who brought Kriya Yoga to the west via his disciples Lahiri Mahasaya, Yukteswar and Paramahansa Yogananda as documented in Autobiography of a Yogi.

Various attributes of Christ are also being revealed in the many accounts of near-death experiences, out of body experiences, and other mystical experiences. These experiences demonstrate not only that life is eternal but that Love is the only real.

When I read about how others are expressing God I realise more of who I am. You see, it makes no difference what period one is living in as God is present in all time. Christ consciousness is realising oneness with the one "I" that is God. Thus, when Jesus raised Lazarus from the dead, it is "I" raising Lazarus from the dead. When Babaji materialises a golden palace in the Himalaya, it is "I" materializing a palace in the Himalaya. No wonder Jesus says to his disciples the following:

"Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that believeth on me, the works that I do shall he do also; and greater works than these shall he do; because I go unto my Father."(John 14: 12)
Jesus was aware that there are going to be others who will express more of Christ because the more people who express their identities as Christ, the more of Christ we all have and the more we know of ourselves.

To know all that we are as Christ, we must let go of the idea of having an individual mind or that we are separated by time and space. There is only one Presence expressing through all in all time. Thus, when one has triumphed it is everyone's triumph. When one has realised Self it is all of us realising Self.

Each of us is the totality of the Infinite Self that is Christ.

I am Infinite Self,

Then is Now and Now is Then

Last night I watched a documentary on Channel 4 called The Real Exorcist. It was about a boy who was believed to be possessed by the devil and was exorcised by two priests. Apparently, the movie The Exorcist was based on this event. The conclusion reached by one expert was that the drama of possession was one created by the boy and his family who already believed in spiritualism; and with the Catholic priests who believed in possession.

Next was an experiment called The Exorcism where Channel 4 arranged for someone to be exorcised live (at least earlier that evening). The guinea pig was a born-again Christian male who believed he was possessed by spirits which he wanted removed. The minister from the church the man attends did the exorcism, which he called "deliverance." During the deliverance, the minister cast out the "demons" in the name of Jesus. In the meantime, an expert analysed the man's brain waves on a computer to establish whether the deliverance had had any tangible effect.

There followed a debate between ministers from various Christian denominations and other religious leaders. They couldn't agree over whether the deliverance was an exorcism or whether there was any evidence that demons were cast out. The man on whom the exorcism was carried out described his inner state as peaceful. The scientist analysing his brain waves noticed a slight difference similar to when one is in the Alpha state, as experienced during meditation. Another expert thought the test was inconclusive.

One thing I found intriguing about both programmes was the notion of belief. You have to believe in possession in the first place for exorcism/deliverance to occur.

It is written in the bible that during Jesus' ministry, he cast out demons and he gave his disciples power to do the same.

"And he ordained twelve, that they should be with him, and that he might send them forth to preach, And to have power to heal sicknesses, and to cast out devils." (Mark 3: 14-15)
Jesus also made different promises to those who believed in him thus:

"And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues; They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover." (Mark 16: 17-18)
Now Christians take what Jesus said seriously. They believe that when one is born again, one is given authority to heal the sick and be healed. So it doesn't surprise me that in the Channel 4 programme, the minister believed he could cast out demons in the name of Jesus; and it is perfectly reasonable that the man believed he had been delivered from spirits.

I have watched hours of religious programmes and seen people who pray for others and they are healed all in the name of Jesus. I have no doubt about these healings. I think there is an important lesson one can learn from this: there is no time. You see when Jesus was speaking as the Christ - God in manifestation - it was the Christ that worked through him to do the works. This Christ doesn't change. Thus, someone who incarnates in the year 2500 that is Christ conscious will have access to the same Christ Mind. Even those who lived thousands of years before Jesus had access to the Christ Mind. Now, since the Christ doesn't change, the power that worked through Jesus 2,000 years ago are still relevant now.

In the same respect, humanity is still suffering from the same beliefs in sickness, lack and disharmony though the diseases have "evolved" and got new names.

How can one apply what happened 2,000 years ago now? Let us look at one example of healing in the bible. A man who couldn't walk was brought to Jesus for healing. Jesus told the man to get up from his bed/stretcher and walk. The man had faith and he was healed. (Mark 2: 3-12) Someone who has paralysis, for example, reading about this miracle can benefit in the same way from this miracle if he believes in the power of Christ. He can treat the words of Jesus as if they are being addressed to him right now and he will be healed. This is how many of Jesus' follower's channel healing by believing in the power of Jesus which is pertinent now and forever.

I believe God has always worked through various channels. I see this in operation in the Psalms. I believe God inspired the writer of Psalm 91 to remind others what is possible when one trusts in God. Let's take a few lines from this Psalm:

"Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation; There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling. For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways. They shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone." Psalm 91
As I see it, when you trust in God, you are protected from accidents, disasters or bad luck; "dwelling" could be interpreted as either one's home or one's body. The Psalm is also saying that God will provide for your every need. So I take these words very seriously and for me they are always relevant.

I believe Jesus' ministry offers mankind a shortcut to salvation. Why struggle when the battle over sin, sickness and death has already been won. All you need to do is be born again of the Spirit and believe that the Christ that worked through Jesus 2,000 years is the same yesterday, today and forever. You can, therefore, claim healing and deliverance Now!

In Part 2 of this article, I discuss how one can make use of other aspects of Christ consciousness.

With love,

Thursday, February 24, 2005

God is All in All

"And there are diversities of operations, but it is the same God which worketh all in all." (1 Corinthians 12: 6
"Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can ye, except ye abide in me. I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing. If a man abide not in me, he is cast forth as a branch, and is withered; and men gather them, and cast them into the fire, and they are burned. If ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you." (John 15: 4-7)
The Spirit of God exists in all space. All is the Presence. And yet we feel as if we are apart from God's presence. It is impossible to be apart from the Presence since it is "all in all" but we can dream we are apart.

We dream that there are good and bad things. The food we eat is both good and bad. Our very natures are considered to be both good and evil. We talk about God being divine energy and yet we think of the energy as negative and positive. We talk about reality as being both light and darkness. As it is written: "God is light, and in him is no darkness at all." Duality is a dream that has nothing to do with God's reality.

There is a wonderful story I love about when a sceptic tries to poison a yogi called Trailanga.

"Trailanga unhesitatingly drained, to the last drop, the containerful of burning lime. In a few minutes the evildoer fell to the ground in agony.

"Help, swami, help!" he cried. "I am on fire! Forgive my wicked test!"

The great yogi broke his habitual silence. "Scoffer," he said, "you did not realize when you offered me poison that my life is one with your own. Except for my knowledge that God is present in my stomach, as in every atom of creation, the lime would have killed me. Now that you know the divine meaning of boomerang, never again play tricks on anyone." Autobiography of a Yogi
Do you know how wonderful and freeing it is to know that God is in all? To know that every atom of creation is God/Love is to experience life without fear. Can food have any effect when it is Love and all good?

One thing that puzzles me is this: if God is in all food for instance, how come I have likes and dislikes? I know there are foods I didn't like as a child, such as peas, that I eat now. I don't like avocados and yet I've had it lots of times and even love it when served as guacamole. Isn't that strange? Basically, since God is in all, all food is God appearing. All food is divine energy. I can choose to partake of energy as food or I can have energy in another form as energy without needing to eat. After all, my body is already energy.

God is present in my body.
God is present in every atom of creation.

Love is all there is.

I am Love,

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

If There Is No Time, Is Planning Necessary?

"For in him we live, and move, and have our being; as certain also of your own poets have said, For we are also his offspring." (Acts 17: 28)
Spirit is all in all, meaning He interpenetrates all space. What is time or space when Spirit is all there is?

I'm on a journey from the west end to where I live. The bus journey, measured in human terms, takes about 1 hour. The west end is my past and my destination is my future; and every minute leads me closer to my future. So in this respect, time does exist and can be measured.

On the other hand, there is the Eternal Now of Spirit. While I may appear to be moving forward in time to wherever I want to go, I am not moving at all. I am always in Spirit, in Love. I am always living and moving and having my being in Spirit. I therefore do not expect to experience any obstacles because "where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty." But I have to constantly remember that I live in Spirit.

So of course one can plan provided that one is aware that everything unfolds within Spirit. Mary Baker Eddy puts it this way:

"Thoughts unspoken are not unknown to the divine Mind. Desire is prayer; and no loss can occur from trusting God with our desires, that they may be moulded and exalted before they take form in words and in deeds." Science and Health
If you have the desire to achieve such and such you realise that that desire is from Spirit. You might be inspired to plan ahead as one does for one's journey but always with the awareness that it is all taking place within Spirit. When you are planning without an awareness that Spirit is all in all and the only real, you are subject to the whims of mortals: disasters, delays, sickness and whatnot.

I'm sure there are some who find no need to plan and trust in Spirit to make the necessary arrangements. We are all experiencing Spirit in different ways. I tend to visualise where I see myself already achieving what needs to be done but always with the awareness that it is not occurring in time and space but in the presence of Divine Love.

I believe that when one lives with the awareness that all occurs in Spirit, one is following the one will of Spirit.

In truth, as Spirit we are already where we need to be. What is there to plan for?

I am Spirit,

On Earth as In Heaven

“Spirit is substance, and is not subservient to natural law. (Christ in You, by Anon, p. 86)
“As man evolves, the whole material plane is lifted into a higher condition. The season depends on God in man, and are according to the inner mind. The world is wild and lawless in some regions, so much so that man is subject to the nature or world spirit." (Christ in You, by Anon, p. 108)
“The physical world is governed by its own forces and passions, and not by the spiritual, the only real. For the teaching of this very lesson Jesus stilled the storm with the word “Peace,” since He had control over His own natural and physical self, and afterwards used the God-given right of dominion. You are the channels through which the divine will and energy manifests is one self. To effect this you must become selfless and at one, for the Lord thy God is one Lord and not many." (Christ in You, by Anon, p. 109)
I have been thinking of the climate. I see every moment as emerging from the Eternal Now that is unchanging. Can the unchanging produce different climates? I don’t think so. This means that the change in seasons and climatic conditions are not of Spirit but man-made according to their misuse of universal energy.

The weather forecasters seem to take such glee in announcing "bad weather" and how people must prepare etc. Does Divine Love expect people to live in fear of the weather? Some people might enjoy the weather changes and snow storms but what about those who want to live in an unchanging climate? Besides, the one that is unchanging cannot create a weather that is forever changing.

In the book Autobiography of a Yogi, Yogananda's guru Sri Yukteswar is resurrected and returns to tell him about various realms in the "after life."

"The astral world is infinitely beautiful, clean, pure, and orderly. There are no dead planets or barren lands. The terrestrial blemishes—weeds, bacteria, insects, snakes—are absent. Unlike the variable climates and seasons of the earth, the astral planets maintain the even temperature of an eternal spring, with occasional luminous white snow and rain of many-colored lights. Astral planets abound in opal lakes and bright seas and rainbow rivers."
I have also read various accounts of people who have had near death experiences and have described the realities they've been in as peaceful and the weather as constant. If we are meant to bring Heaven on Earth, surely it is about realising that if the unchanging Spirit is the substance of all, this must be reflected in our reality. There can therefore be no weather changes.

Earlier today I was waiting for the bus. It started to snow and it felt pretty cold. An elderly woman joined me at the bus shelter. She commented how cold it was. I smiled at her but said nothing. I focused on Spirit as the unchanging substance that fills all space. Snow doesn't reflect the unchanging nature of Spirit; it is nothing. The sun came out. The woman beside me pointed out that the sun was now shining brightly. It stopped snowing and the temperature got milder.

I recall a story in John Hargreaves' book "As "I" See It" when he was travelling on a ferry to France. He described the waters as choppy and fellow passengers were being sick. He and another Christian Science practitioner realised the truth that Harmony is the substance of all. The sea immediately calmed down and the rest of their journey was calm. The other passengers returned to normal. Another passenger who wasn't a Christian Scientist noticed that while their part of the sea was calm the sea was still choppy around them, no doubt reflecting those who believe in rough seas. Reminds me of the line from Psalm 91:

"A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee. Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked." (Psalm 91: 7-8)
Making Heaven on Earth is making the choice to live with the truth that Spirit is the substance of all life and Spirit is the only power. Spirit is my identity, therefore I am in all and all is in harmony with me.

Those who choose to make fear their Lord and Master will reap the rewards of their beliefs.

Heaven is right here on Earth.

I am Spirit,

Related articles: Where Do You Put Your Faith?; The Lion Will Sleep With The Sheep

Relative Truth versus Absolute Truth

"And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors." (Matthew 6: 12)
Someone recently asked me to help with healing. I asked Spirit to know what was appropriate for this individual. The answer I received was that she should let go of all grievances and tendency to judge and to forgive everyone and herself.

This seem like I am contradicting myself because in a recent article, Is Forgiveness Really Necessary, I wrote:

"I believe forgiveness is irrelevant when you understand everyone's true identity. Forgiveness is only relevant if I believe someone has done me "wrong." How can someone hurt me when the ego doing the injury doesn't exist?"
Actually, both are different aspects of Truth; forgiveness is relative truth and non-forgiveness is absolute truth. You see, if someone still experiences reality as being separate from Self and that someone has offended her, absolute truth is meaningless. It is the equivalent of buying a car for a five year old child and expecting him to drive the car. Even if the child knows how to drive, his feet wouldn't reach the pedals, nor would society allow him to drive until much later. Thus, absolute truth is not always relevant for some people who have just started on the "path."

Let's take another example of truth in action - healing. On the one hand, healing is necessary if time, space, cause and effect are very real to you. With cause/effect what you think of in one moment is manifested as effect in another moment. Thus, to be healed of the effect you need to get back to the root or cause of the problem. Ultimately, healing is about recognising Divine Love as the cause of all life. Healing is Divine Love in action.

On the other hand, healing is totally unnecessary. The way I see it, since Love is all in all, there is no cause and effect. Love is uncaused. Where is the need to heal when Love is the only one appearing? Every moment is a new opportunity to express Love which is whole and perfect. This is absolute truth.

Relative truth is like a bridge leading to absolute truth. Years ago when I first started exploring spirituality, I came across some books that seemed way too advanced for me to understand. The irony was that they were speaking simple truth but I wasn't open to them at the time. Put another way, the me of ten years ago was trying to understand the me that I am now. The gap was too wide.

The human experience for many occurs in evolutionary leaps. You can't force a teaching on another who is not ready or open. You have to meet the individual exactly where s/he is. Like I said earlier, you can't expect a five year old to drive a car. Relative truth is Love accommodating all manners of beliefs and techniques in order to express Self. Relative truth is therefore an act of grace.

If one is meeting someone else where s/he is, does this mean one is misleading another? Absolutely not! Truth is always about expressing love. From the relative perspective it is about teaching/reminding another to forgive and love without judging another. When one is ready for absolute truth, one realises that Love is all there is and where there is Love, there is no need for forgiveness or healing. What is not of Love can be dismissed as the nothing that it is.

In my articles I'm either addressing relative or absolute truth. There are times when according to my level of consciousness or what I'm inspired to experience at the time, I am demonstrating relative truth; and other times I am expressing absolute truth.

So the individual who has asked me for help is being met exactly where she is at. In fact, I have nothing to do with her healing. I recognise that she is the Presence of Love. As she gains more trust and understanding in Self, she unfolds more truth. I am only acting as her guide.

Whatever truth is required, relative or absolute truth, it is always about being the Love that one is.

I am Truth,

Related articles: Healing by Declaring "No Cause" How I Conquered Fear with Belief

Monday, February 21, 2005

The Secret of Eternal Youth By Bus?

"I Am is the present tense for all time." Christ in You
Life is so simple. The answers are always right under your nose if you can be bothered to stay still for a moment. If you're looking for complicated answers, you will miss the simple answers. It has been my observation that the answer to every imagined problem lies in one's immediate experience.

As you probably know by now if you have read any of my writings, I travel a lot by bus. There is a particular bus route where a female voice announces when the doors are about to open or close: "Doors opening!" or "Doors closing!" I believe this is London Transport's way of taking into account the needs of blind people. I'm sure other buses have this facility but they probably have them switched off; this bus route is the only one I've been in that has it on. I was curious to find out what other people thought about the announcement throughout their journey, particularly if it's a long one. I asked my mother. She said the voice got on her nerves. Imagine having to listen to that for thirty minutes!

I have a different perspective. I don't find the announcer's voice annoying at all. As I see it, every time the voice is activated it is always new. How can I get fed up with listening to something when I'm only hearing it for the first time? This may sound strange to some of you who are experiencing life as cumulative, where time passes. I don't. I see every moment as emerging from the Eternal Now and therefore new. This is why I don't get bored travelling by bus. I actually get really excited as I know every journey is new and never been experienced before. I feel the same way when I travel by tube (underground) train or car. I feel a buzz like it's my first ever journey.

You might be wondering what this has to do with eternal youth. It has everything to do with eternal youth, health, happiness and all that one's heart desires. Let's take another thing I do every day, eat. I might only eat once, sometimes twice a day, but to me it doesn't matter what I eat or how frequent I eat as food makes no difference to my life. Every mouthful is new. I relish every spoonful and when I've finished chewing, I forget about it and have some more. Eventually my plate is empty. The empty plate is evidence that I have had a meal but within me I feel empty as if I've had nothing. I could get some more food but it's pretty pointless because I'll feel the same way again - empty. Why is this? Because I don't see eating as a cumulative process. Let's say it takes 20 spoonfuls for me to finish a meal, thus:
At the end of the meal my stomach should either feel so full that another mouthful will make me sick; or I might feel I have enough space for a few more mouthfuls. This is the cumulative process.

Since I experience every moment as emerging from the Eternal Now, I treat every moment as new. This is the result of a plate of meal:

This means I am never adding to or taking away from what I already am. Nothing ever changes. I am neither hungry nor full after a meal. I'm at the same place where I started before the meal and at the same place I was after finishing the meal. If what I am eating is not changing me in any way, it means I can neither put on weight nor lose weight as I am always the same. Why, you may wonder, do I eat? Indeed why? I guess I eat out of habit and out of being sociable not out of necessity.

In respect of aging, I see every day as emerging from the Eternal Now. While for those who measure time, today 21 February might be the 52nd day of the year 2005, the way I see it no time has passed. I am the same whether it's day 345 of the year 2001 or it's day 200 of 2010. I never change.

I believe the reason people age and feel sick is because time is very much real in their reality. They see experiences as adding to or taking away from who they think they are. Is it any wonder people go from looking so pure and innocent as kids to hassled and stressed as they get older? Wouldn't you look stressed if you kept piling on memories? This is not to say I don't retain memories. I remember what is good and what is not so good. For instance, I have it in memory that I love raisins though I haven't had any in a very long time. At the same time I have it in memory that I don't care much for avocados and so I don't eat them. It's all about what I choose to experience in the here and now. I choose to experience chocolates every day. If I choose not to experience them for longer moments, I will still have my love for chocolate in my memory.

It is the very same reason why I don't get tired when I walk whether it's a mile or ten miles. If you're one who measures every step with a pedometer, you shouldn't be surprised if you feel pain or get tired, because time for you is very real. Thus, every step you take is cumulative. On the other hand, since every step emerges from the Eternal Now, I have only really taken one step in my walk. I therefore cannot get tired.

There is no reason why one should age, put on weight or lose weight or get sick unless one wishes to have this experience. It's all about remembering to stay in the moment, thus:

Every moment emerges from the Infinite Now and is ever new.
Every moment is a standalone moment which has no connection whatsoever with the previous moment.
Every moment is a new opportunity to experience another aspect of Self, yet, no experience can ever add to or take away from Infinite Self.

I am the Unchanging Self,

Related articles: A Fun Spiritual Practice; The Search for Meaning; Where There is No Memory; To Remember is to Forget; Now is the Time; I Change Not

Saturday, February 19, 2005

Letting the Formless Be Formless

"For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure." (Philippians 2: 13)
I have never understood why people do body workouts. I've tried various forms of exercises over the years. First of all, I tried aerobics which I believed would keep me fit and healthy. After a while, I stopped going; there was just too much pain and too little pleasure for my liking. I have tried Yoga only once and I felt nauseous after. I vowed never to put my body through such trauma. I've had one session of Tai Chi but I thought it was way too slow for the fast pace I was living at the time. The instructor tactfully suggested that maybe Tai Chi wasn’t my path. While I practised Pranic Healing, I also practised Twin Heart Meditation and Arhatic Yoga which come with preparatory exercises. While I found the exercises fun, I couldn't be bothered to keep doing them as I don't enjoy rituals. Besides I also stopped practising those meditations and preferred doing my own form of meditation.

As a matter of fact, apart from walking, I don't do any other form of exercise.

Last night I felt very restless in bed. I have felt this restlessness for a while. There were pins and needles on my legs and my skin itched like mad. I decided to meditate and get out of my body. Then I had an urge to stand up. I closed my eyes. A voice told me to relax and go with the flow. I felt my body move. Various parts of the body moved in slow motion. I had no control, I just moved as the Spirit moved me. I lost all sense of where I was. I have no idea how long the movements lasted for. I only knew that I was the formless Energy seeking expression. I went to lie down again but the Energy wouldn't let me. I continued with the movements until I felt the need to lie down.

I've recently felt the need to do more walking again. I haven't felt tired as I let Energy move through and as me.

It's interesting how we can devise different exercises and techniques in order to open ourselves to Energy or for the Energy to flow through us. There are really no techniques; just let the formless be formless. It is only natural since all forms are Universal Energy in manifestation.

I am Energy,

Friday, February 18, 2005

Know Thyself

It has been my observation that one can spend many years chasing phantoms. You could spend a long time trying to "wake up" to the truth of being whatever that is, since people have different ideas of spiritual awakening. Or you can spend years following a teacher or spiritual discipline. You can spend a long time trying to understand the universe and the physical cosmos. You can spend years trying to figure out what your purpose in life is. You can spend a long time trying to be like someone else. What a waste of time that doesn't exist! Why not focus on getting to know who you are now?

Life for me boils down to one question: Why am I having this human experience? In a previous article, The Gift - Part 2, I talked about two gifts I have been given: Universal Energy/Spirit and my life as human. I wrote that the problems I've had as humans have contained the very gems that revealed the purpose for my life here on Earth right now. The recurring theme in my life is to consciously live as Spirit where I have no thoughts and let life unfold in silence. Through this process called human life, I get to know my true nature as Spirit.

Getting to know myself as Spirit is so simple. The ego, that false personality passing itself of as real, would have me study esoteric texts trying to understand reality; the ego would have me follow a teacher; the ego would have me follow rituals and dogmas; the ego would have me try to save others before I can save myself; the ego would have me act like an android as we are all clones, right? How can we all act the same when our very human lives are different? Even if we are all expressing Spirit, they will be different attributes of Infinite Spirit because our expressions of life are diverse. We are all Spirit and Spirit never changes; but the way we express Spirit is always uniquely individual.

As I see it, there is only one job in town and it is about "being about the Father's business." By this I mean my life is always about expressing Spirit. It is my job to be Spirit. It is my job to let the human give way to the divine. It is my job to know myself as Spirit. Anything else is meaningless.

It seems that on the search for the truth of Self, I started off from the outer circle and been working my way into the centre of my being where truth is. Within this core is Self. Self has all I need to experience life. Knowing myself is knowing all there is.

I am Truth,

Related articles: Being Myself; The Hard Way or the Easy Way?

The Gift - Part 2

In a previous article called The Gift, I discussed the Gift of Universal Energy that we have all been given to experience life. There is another gift which is just as important: it is the life we have as humans.

I have found painful human experiences to be my salvation. This doesn't mean I believe I should suffer so I can learn from the experience. On the contrary, I believe my life is to unfold Spirit. Omniscient Spirit obviously knew the kind of family I was being "born" into and the kind of experiences I was likely to attract based on the beliefs of the family, race, gender, nationality and social mores of the day. I see my human life as the hidden gem, the gift that I can use to play my part in the game of life.

One weakness I have in my human body is that I get tired very easily. I could be washing the dishes and after a few minutes I'll find I need to take a break otherwise I'll be nauseous or get a headache. The human cause is I am lacking in particular supplements/vitamins. I've tried that route and it hasn't worked for me. Eventually, I realised that when I do a task in inner silence, I feel completely relaxed and filled with energy. I could go on for hours. My path is to work in silence, to be Spirit in all I do. The same applies for instance when I'm walking. The last two days I've walked 6 miles a day without effort because I've done so as Spirit. I have felt as fresh as I first started.

As a child I experienced sexual abuse. According to the human belief system I was meant to be traumatised by it, and it was meant to affect all my relationships. Because I believed in the cause/effect principle I was affected by the experience for a long time. I went from being a victim to an angry survivor. I had psychotherapy for a short while then I woke up to the truth that I am neither a survivor nor a victim. I am Spirit. Spirit is Love. I was able to let go of that experience and be at peace.

Another gift I had as a child was painful shyness. Though I had friends at school I preferred my own company. My love of spending time alone was what lead me to seek solace in meditation and exploring my identity as Spirit. I now have no problems meeting people though I prefer solitude.

I used to have a mad phobia of shops, particularly supermarkets. I could only take them for short spells and I would feel sick. Shopping for food was very problematic. It is only when I stopped thinking about it and just doing it that I was healed.

I have many gifts as a human which are considered to be negative. My gifts have revealed to me that my path is about living as Spirit so that I trust in Spirit for all my needs.

I believe we all have been given two great gifts. The first is that of Spirit/Universal Energy. The second gift is the human life we have been born into. While reading about other people's experiences might be useful, to get a real understanding what one's path is one has to revert to Spirit. Spirit is our real identity and will remind us why we are here playing the human role. We then discover that we are all walking our unique paths.

My path is my unique contribution to the human experience.

I am so grateful for the gift of life as I am experiencing it.

I am What I Am,

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Why It Is Pointless Judging Another's Path

I watched the movie Coming to America again the other night starring Eddie Murphy and Arsenio Hall. It's a real hoot!

An African Prince, Akeem, has just turned 21 years old. He's required to marry a woman who has been selected for him. Akeem objects to the marriage because he doesn't love her and suggests to his father that he goes away for a while, ostensibly to find his own bride. His father agrees that Akeem can have 40 days to "sow his royal oats" and then he must return and get married. Akeem decides to go to America to find the woman of his dreams. He is accompanied by his royal servant and companion, Semmi. They choose Queens in New York.

Prince Akeem is determined to live incognito as an ordinary New Yorker. He insists that the taxi driver take them to the most common area in Queens. The driver advises him that most areas in Queens are common. They find digs in a dilapidated apartment block. Their first experience of their neighbourhood is having their luggage stolen. To avoid drawing attention to their wealth, Akeem gives their money away to some vagrants. Akeem doesn't mind living in poverty. In fact, he finds it exciting living a life he's unaccustomed to and looking after himself for a change. He knows he is on a mission for a short while and then he will return home to his father's palace. Akeem's companion, Semmi, doesn't share his enthusiasm; he is disgusted at the local squalor.

Soon Akeem sees a woman he would love to have a relationship with. Her name is Lisa. Lisa works in her father's fast food restaurant, McDowells. Akeem and Semmi get jobs as cleaners at the same restaurant. Akeem and Lisa become friends. He tries to keep his identity from Lisa as he wants her to love him for who he is. In the end everything works out well; Akeem returns to his palace and marries Lisa.

One thing I find fascinating is Akeem and Semmi's approach to life in New York. While Akeem is pretending to be a cleaner at a fast food restaurant, he never forgets he is still a prince. At one point Lisa, who has no idea he is a prince, describes him as regal. This is why Akeem doesn't mind living in squalor. He also knows this lifestyle is only temporary until his mission is accomplished.

On the other hand, Semmi is not happy about living in poverty or working for a living. He's way too accustomed to his opulent lifestyle as companion to the prince. There's a very funny scene where Semmi is about to send a telegram to the King asking for $500,000 as their funds have been depleted. The receptionist can't take his request seriously and sardonically suggests he ask for more money. Semmi doesn't understand her sardonic wit and takes her suggestion literally; he increases his request to $1 million.

The King and his retinue pay his son a visit in Queens. He is appalled that his son has got a job and living in such a state. The king is so upset with Semmi for not fulfilling his responsibility as the prince's servant that, as punishment, he banishes him to his Waldorf Hotel suite. (Hahaha! Just the kind of punishment I need right now).

Prince Akeem and Semmi remind me of the different paradigms attempting to explain why we are here on Earth. One paradigm is that we have deliberately created these experiences so we can grow spiritually. In order to have these experience, we have voluntarily forgotten our true identities.

Another paradigm is similar to Akeem's experience in the movie. Like Akeem, we are Spirit beings on a mission. Thus, you do whatever you have to do to fit in, even if it means having to work for a living, until your fulfil your objective.

Another paradigm is like Semmi's experience: we are Spirit beings here to express all that we are in superabundance.

This is why I think it is pointless judging another's path. Someone's challenges might seem really harsh to you and you feel you want to help. How do you know it is not the Prince choosing to go through certain experiences? On the other hand, an individual could be like Semmi who only wants to experience a life of pleasure and doesn't care about deprivation and poverty. Before trying to save another, maybe we should stop and consider whether it is Spirit's intention, whether things are not perfect as they are. Obviously, if someone asks for my help I will render assistance as best as I can but always without judgment.

Perhaps the notion of being awake is more about remembering why we as Infinite Spirit are experiencing life on Earth right now.

I love the idea of having the best of both worlds: being aware of my identity as Spirit and having access to all the Good Spirit has to offer, as well as experiencing life based on a mission.

I see life as unfolding perfectly. I judge no one's path as right or wrong.

And by the way, if you haven't seen Coming to America it is an absolutely must see. It's a right scream!

I am Spirit,

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Walking With Love

"I walk with Love along the way,
And O, it is a holy day;
No more I suffer cruel fear,
I feel God's presence with me here;
The joy that none can take away
Is mine; I walk with Love today." I Walk With Love
In the above hymn "I walk with Love along the way" I prefer seeing myself as walking with the footsteps of Love as there is no other reality or power but Love. There is the tendency for us to believe we are walking with God beside us, or that God is our partner. If you have God alongside you then you can choose to do your own thing or revert to God. This is where the notion of "co-creating with God" comes from. Is there such a thing as "co-creating with God?"

First of all, I believe no one creates anything, it's a matter of unfolding what already exists. (See a previous article I wrote called Creation is a Reaction To What Already Is). Secondly, if there is any creation, would an omnipotent being co-create with a clueless mortal who finds it difficult to see Reality as it is? I think not. Mortals only know how to dream realities that have nothing to do with truth. In my view, there is only the uncaused Universal Energy or Love which is everywhere.

I see my job as remembering that there is only Love and nothing else and then trust in Love to unfold reality as it is, not the illusion humans are "creating." So to walk with Love is realising that every step I take is Love's step; every vision is Love's vision; every feeling is Love's feeling; etc.

I once read a wonderful testimony of healing in the book "As "I" See It" by John Hargreaves. A woman is about to start her own business but she has a lot of pain in her legs which make it difficult for her to stand up. She asks John, a Christian Science Practitioner, for assistance. He reminds her that she has never stood on her own two feet. The woman accepts this truth and she is instantly healed.

In order for me to walk with love, I need to understand omnipresence. Divine Love is everywhere. This means that there isn't a single step where Love is not already present. There isn't a single space where Divine Love is not. Since there is only Divine Love, every decision I make is Divine Love in action. I understand Divine Love to be uncaused, beginningless, endless, infinite, harmony, freedom, truth, life, perfection and peace. Everywhere is the totality of this Presence. Why fear when Divine Love is always present?

Let me put it another way. In order to bring the Presence to life as I have written in a previous article (see footnote), I visualise perfect Enocia's everywhere. Whatever I plan to do there is already an Enocia doing it perfectly. If I need to meet someone to work with, there is already an Enocia on the case making this happen. Everywhere I hear Enocia reminding me that "I am Love." Imagine what your life would be like if you knew only you existed. Wouldn't you expect your life to be harmonious, since you wouldn't expect to oppose yourself?

Walking with Love is twofold. First, it is about constantly remembering that there is only Love. Second, constantly remembering animates the Presence of Love into action which manifests into visible forms.

Love is all there is. I trust in the power of Love.

I am Love,

Related article: Exploring the Presence as Healing

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Is Forgiveness Really Necessary?

You get into an argument with someone because you have misinterpreted what another has said or another's behaviour, or someone was in a mood and they took it out on you, or for whatever reason. You are the injured party. You believe the other should apologise and you might consider forgiving him.

On the other hand, it is possible you have a belief that was reflected back at you in the form of a disagreement or aggression with your loved one.


Now this is how I see things. When you're coming from a place of the ego that claims to be your personality, you see others as against you, therefore, you feel sensitive and on guard and ready to attack; or you get defensive. You are likely to react to others based on your inner state only. You are not seeing reality as it is.

Let's say someone has verbally attacked you for no reason, as far as you can see it. What do you do? Do you withdraw and start thinking of vengeance? Do you project into the future various realities how you're going to make the other pay? Do you dream up more arguments with the other and vow you will never forgive the other for hurting you? Do you stop communicating with the other?

This is how I treat a disagreement. I see it as nothing. What do I mean by nothing? In my reality, Love is all there is. Anything that is unlike love manifesting as disharmony has no existence. It is a dream pretending to be real. So I dismiss the incident as nothing.

I had a similar situation with my mother recently. It was a verbal "attack" which came out of nothing and yet it was tempting to make this apparent disagreement into a lot more than it was. What did I do? I knew that Love is and I am Love. In my mind I dismissed it as nothing. I withdrew for a while into silence.

The next morning I treated my mother as if nothing had happened. I got her newspaper for her, which I usually do before going out. When I returned home that evening we spoke like old friends, watched television, and everything was back to normal. Neither of us referred to the incident.

In order for a disagreement to continue both parties need to be in agreement. When someone dismisses the disharmony as nothing, it cannot continue. Dismissing the ego as the nothing that it is, is purely for my benefit in order for me to see reality as it is, that only Love exists. The other might choose to bear a grudge, that's up to the individual. As far as I am concerned, there is no other reality but Love. If the other wishes to keep the drama going she is going to have to find someone else to play with, not with me. When the other is ready to communicate with Love, I am always open.

I believe forgiveness is irrelevant when you understand everyone's true identity. Forgiveness is only relevant if I believe someone has done me "wrong." How can someone hurt me when the ego doing the injury doesn't exist? Being hurt by someone's behaviour is as meaningless as being offended by an actor's performance! Both are inventions that have nothing to do with reality.

The reverse is also true. If I ever forget who I am, when I return to my right mind I realise I as the false personality do not exist, therefore, I cannot hurt anyone. Love is.

I cannot be injured by a nothing. Forgiveness is irrelevant. All there is is Love.

I am Love,

Related articles: It Is All Nothing; Senseless Figures

Loving What I Love

There is a television advert for a particular fast food restaurant that do breakfast rolls. A young man gets his girlfriend a bagel from this restaurant. She is still in bed. She doesn't believe that a fast food restaurant does such fine bagels. She is so overwhelmed that he cares so much about her to have bought her breakfast she blurts out "I love you." The ad ends with a look of panic on the man's face.

What is so scary about saying "I love you" to someone. You say that to your boyfriend/girlfriend and s/he needs to take time out. Why are people so scared to love and be loved? If someone loves another out of wanting to just love without expecting anything back, you're considered to be dysfunctional. Love is reciprocal, the experts tell us. It's a dance that you share, not one person giving all the time and the other just taking. Giving without receiving suggests you have a low self-esteem. I guess psychotherapists, counsellors and analysts need to make a living, don't they?

What's wrong with loving and giving just because you want to? Does it matter if you love someone with all your heart and the other person doesn't feel the same way? Loving someone is a game we play anyway. Since there is only love, everyone is already love. I need never be concerned about being loved as I know I am love. To love someone is to pretend the other needs love or that you need to share love which is already infinite. I am perfectly happy loving in whatever way I choose to express it.

Now, I love the chocolate bar, Sneakers. I could eat it all day. The supermarkets have a special offer for a pack of ten. I've bought those a few times and found myself scoffing four or five bars in one sitting. The more I have the more I love them and the more I love them the more I love them. The human programme will have me believe that I will feel sick or get a headache or whatever. The way I see it, Love can only be love. A headache or pain is not how I define love so I don't expect to be sick from eating what I love. Nor do I expect to get fed up with them. I may try other chocolates but if I want to eat Sneakers forever, that's my business.

I don't need permission to love. I love what I love and I love what I love. If someone finds my loving overwhelming, that's perfectly OK with me. There are supposed to be 6 billion other humans on this planet, not forgetting animals, birds, fauna, books, chocolates, buses, raisins...

I am Love,

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Monday, February 14, 2005

Exploring the Presence as Healing

"We are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord." (2 Corinthians 5: 8)
I've been feeling lots of pins and needles in my body and also a lot of itching. I have applied truth principles and been in inner silence. I find when I call out for help I am released from the irritation or pain. But they haven’t completely gone away. I know there is no cause to pain or irritation. I know there is nothing but the Presence of Love and yet the illusion can feel very much real sometimes.

Then I had another realisation: when I ask for help, the help I receive makes me “absent from the body, and…present with the Lord.” In the Presence/Lord there is only freedom. This goes against teachings that suggest one should experience one’s body and stay with the feelings etc. The body is a symbol only and not the real me, thus, identification with the body gives me a false perception of Self; that I have a separate self. I realise it is important for me to be in the Presence not the body which is pulling me away from the Presence. For the “I”/Presence is everywhere not just in a body.

Yesterday while travelling on the bus, I used the opportunity to practise being the Presence. When I felt the pins and needles again I withdrew from the physical body and explored my I-ness within the bus. My I-ness awareness expanded to outside of the bus and beyond. The body immediately felt lighter and free of all sensations.

You see, when I practise being the Presence I am in effect animating, bringing to life, all that I am. It reminds me of the story of The Snowman. A boy builds a snowman which comes to life and takes him on a trip to the north pole. Practising the Presence is bringing the Presence to life. Though the snowman melts at the end of the story, I like to see the snowman as returning to its innate nature as formless just like the Presence is also innately formless.

Earlier, I wanted to explore by bus a part of London I hadn't been before, but it didn't go according to plan. I felt a force pulling me in another direction. I surrendered and let it happen. I ended up in a part of London I didn't intend being in and saw a man I recognised. The previous day I had a thought about a friend I worked with last year. The man at the bus stop reminded me he was my friend's neighbour.

While I was exploring my Presence on another bus I heard a passenger speaking on her mobile phone. I thought about how people have no qualms now about discussing personal details in public. Then my I-ness continued exploring the bus. Guess what happened? The woman on the mobile swapped seats and sat next to me for two more stops before getting off. It would seem that while I was exploring my omnipresence, I had activated my Presence within the passenger which magnetised her to the seat next to me. Thoughts are therefore very potent while exploring the Presence and should be avoided at all costs unless absolutely necessary.

Since the Presence is omnipresent, it also makes it omniscient. I decided to test this out on my way home. I was already on one bus and needed 3 more buses to get home. I put out a call to the Me at bus stop no 2 to advise what bus I am about to catch. There were a choice of three buses. The Me flashed back an image of me getting on a particular bus. I then sent a message to the Me at bus stop no. 3 to prepare my bus so I didn’t have to wait. The Me at bus stop no. 3 flashed a picture to me showing me on that bus. Then I sent another message to the Me at bus stop no. 4. The Me at bus stop no. 4 suggested that it was much quicker to walk and flashed a picture of me walking home. All Me’s advised me I could follow their advice or do my own thing.

The Me at bus stop no 2 was right of course. When I arrived at bus stop no. 3 it took a while for my bus to arrive. I sent a message to the Me in that bus wondering where my bus was. The Me on that bus said that everything was going according to plan including taking into account the driver's freewill as humans are not always willing to play the game. She assured me my bus was on its way. Two buses arrived. Isn't that typical? You wait for ages and two buses turn up at once! I got on the one in front. At the next stop our driver finished his shift. He complained to the driver taking over that his colleague driving the other bus was 20 minutes late. So that’s what the Me had meant about the driver’s freewill. What a wonderful demonstration of omnipresence in action. When I got off the bus I walked the rest of the way as I had already predicted I would.

Last night, I spent hours exploring my identity as the Presence. I let the Presence take me on a journey in awareness to other dream realities. I was like the little boy in the The Snowman when the snowman takes him on a trip to the north pole. As for the body, it was perfectly at rest while I explored my real identity as Presence. Oh, what bliss!

Here's a thought. I've observed that when babies start walking they tend to explore every nook and cranny. They seem to be into everything. I wonder whether it's because they are finally getting the opportunity to explore their Presence which is everywhere.

When I identify myself as only human with flesh and bones, I am limiting omnipresence that might be experienced as pain or disharmony in areas of one's life. When I am present with the Lord, the body feels lighter and stops behaving like flesh and bones.

I am the Presence,

Saturday, February 12, 2005

Trust is a Transferable Skill

Have you ever reached a point in your career when you want to branch off in a new direction, yet you believe you do not have the necessary skills? You get a second opinion from a friend who happens to work in Human Resources. She points out that you have transferable skills that you can highlight in order to move into the new profession. This gives you the confidence to apply for the relevant job.

Being on the spiritual path involves trusting in a power that is omniscient, omnipotent and omnipresent. We might argue over whether this power is God or whether God exists but we all know Love exists. We may have different ways of expressing Love but we all know Love is very much real. If you've ever been in love you know it feels like you can be anything because you are loved. We are Love.

Some people find it very hard to trust in what is considered to be an unknown entity, even if we call it Love or God. Some have said you need to have child-like trust. Nonsense! Most people have tons of trust in the unknown already. It is a matter of transferring those skills to trusting in Love.

I am now going to put my Human Resources hat on and peruse your CV (curriculum vitae)/resume and point out examples of trusting in the unknown that are transferable skills.

The meteorologist predicts it's going to rain in the next few days and you get your mack out.

The economists predict another recession and you start panicking about your future.

A shampoo commercial promise you will have smooth and silky hair after a few washes with this brand so you buy the product.

A nutritionist expert recommends that if you follow a certain diet for a week you will lose weight, so you rush off to your local supermarket to buy the ingredients.

The doctor says you've got a few months to live and you start putting your affairs in order.

You might argue that trust, in the above examples, is based on the known. The doctor has the xray as evidence; the nutritionist has tested her diet on others who have lost weight; the model in the shampoo advert looks like she's got healthy hair; interest rates have gone up so the economists are right; and the weather forecasts are often right.

The above examples show that people know how to trust in other people's beliefs. Business works on the basis of persuading people to swap beliefs which lead to different experiences. Beliefs are as real as Mickey Mouse is real.

Why not transfer those skills of trust we already have to the Love that we all are? Trusting in Love is trusting in our true Self.

Trusting in Love is a transferable skill. If you want a reminder, just trust the way you trust in the weather forecast.

I am Trust,

Friday, February 11, 2005

Some Thoughts About Giving

These writings are copyrighted to acknowledge that I am the author of these writings but they are for free. They are free because they are mine to give away.

Each article is the equivalent of a master class I have with my expert self. All of the writings are reminders to myself of who I am and what I know. In essence, they are my life unfolding. Plagiarising what I have written is the equivalent of someone else pretending to live my life. That is impossible! There is only one Enocia just as there is only one of whoever you are. So these writings are my gift because they are truly mine to give away.

To give away is to give what I already have. I can't give what I don't have. It has occurred to me that giving from a place of transaction is based on giving and expecting something in return. That's fine if that is what you believe.

In the previous article, It Is All Nothing I wrote that all comes from nothing. We are mostly making things up as we go along. If we can dream experiences out of nothing, surely we can dream having something that we can give away. My life is a dream as the real me is total awareness. If I can dream up experiences which are mine to give away as the writings on this website, what's to stop me dreaming up something else so I can give it away?

I could dream I have Zillions of Pounds to give away where I give £1 million to every single person on earth. It doesn't matter if I don't actually have the money in form now, I only need to dream that I have it and then dream myself giving it away. Thus, what I have to give away I already have. There is no expectation whatsoever how the gift is received in my dream. In my dream, I am giving out of choice.

A final reminder is that to give away to someone else is a dream because there's nothing stopping someone else from dreaming. In truth, the power to dream belongs to everyone.

With all my love,

Who Are My Friends?

I am a Lucid Dreamer meaning that I am aware that I live in a dream and am consciously dreaming.

I have two types of friends: my dreamer friends and my lucid dreamer friends.

My dreamer friends are limitless. They are dreaming and not aware they are dreaming. They could be anyone I meet in the street, on the bus, exchange smiles with, have a conversation with, provide a service for (or vice versa), work with, study with, exchange ideas with on the Internet, or have fun with. When I dream up a situation the appropriate dreamer friend(s) appear(s). They are dreams because they are based on the dream life of humans that have no basis on reality but interesting all the same. I have to say that majority of the people I meet are dreamer friends. These relationships soon fizzle out into nothing like dreams usually do.

And then there are my lucid dreamer friends who are aware they are living in a dream. Their intention is to stay awake. They may choose to dream or help others become lucid dreamers. These are my true forever friends.

You might be a dreamer who wants to be awake but to be my friend you have to pass the test. It is not that I consciously set a test but it happens that way. A dreamer might be attracted to a lucid dreamer and want to develop a friendship until the dreamer realises that the lucid dreamer has a different standard to the one s/he is used to. For instance, dreamers don't like to be reminded that they're dreaming. It stops being fun for them. But for the lucid dreamer it is very serious business, and fun, staying awake. The dreamer soon withdraws from the lucid dreamer's reality preferring to be with other dreamers.

For the dreamer, ignorance is bliss. For the lucid dreamer, being awake is also bliss.

As a lucid dreamer, true friendship for me is based on practicality and choice. I choose to have friends who are awake or are focused on staying awake. A fellow lucid dreamer is free to be herSelf without expectations. You don't need to be with your lucid dreamer friend to care about her. Nor do you need to explain your lifestyle, which might seem bizarre to dreamers. A lucid dreamer doesn't mind if you remind her when she is dreaming as she understands that staying awake requires constant vigilance and discipline. A lucid dreamer friend understands if you simply want to be in silence or go into retreat. Lucid dreamer friends simply know how to be.

In the same respect, my partner/boy friend has to be a lucid dreamer. There's simply no point having a relationship with a dreamer who can't relate to me. I would rather remain single.

I reckon cats are lucid dreamers. They seem to live independent lifestyles, following their truth. I've only had one kitten as a pet when I was a child. She lived for a few weeks and then she passed on into another dream realm. The rest of the cats I've loved have been my neighbours' or flatmate's cats. They have all been very affectionate but always based on choice. I believe dogs are dreamers; you have to be to be trained to round up sheep or fetch sticks. Can you imagine training a cat to round up sheep? Get real! Cats are lucid dreamers, alright!

You will always find me around dreamers who are interested in becoming lucid dreamers. If you are focused and disciplined in wanting to be a lucid dreamer we might even become friends. Naturally, you will more than grab my attention if you are already a lucid dreamer.

In truth, we are all lucid dreamers who are already forever friends. It is just that sometimes we forget who we are and act like we are dreamers.

With love to all my friends,

Thursday, February 10, 2005

It Is All Nothing!

Years ago, I was out with my boyfriend at the time when we met up with his old friend who was with his partner. They spoke for a few minutes but he didn't introduce me to his friend. I introduced myself. We shook hands, said hello and goodbye. I was fuming. How come he didn't introduce me as his girlfriend? Maybe he was ashamed of me. Maybe introducing me as his girlfriend suggested commitment which he wasn't prepared to acknowledge in public. I was already insecure enough as it is and this only added more fuel to the fire.

When we returned to his car I asked him why he hadn't introduced me. He said he felt very uncomfortable and embarrassed because he couldn't remember his friend's name. It was that simple.

Let's take a hypothetical example. You have sent an email that is intended to provoke a response but you haven't received a response. It could be because (a) the email wasn't delivered; (b) the email was received, read and deleted without response; (c) Your email address has been marked as Spam, therefore, it is automatically deleted. If you, the sender, is not aware of this you could create stories about the why and how. You could get angry and imagine all sorts of scenarios. Your fantasies attract similar situations confirming your worst fears etc, all because of nothing. Before you know it you are living a life based purely on fantasy. In the meantime, the sender is blissfully ignorant of the sender's delusions.

Let us return to the experience I had with my ex-boyfriend. He hadn't introduced me to his friend because he couldn't remember his name. Before I was made aware of this vital information, I built up fantasies. Those fantasies had a cause: my insecurity based on past experiences in other relationships, going further back to my childhood, further back to a previous life, another previous infinitum. What happened to the resentment I'd harboured towards my boyfriend when I found out the truth, when I realised there is no cause? The emotions, the fickle dreams that they were, dissolved into nothing. I returned to my blissful nature...until the next delusion. Hahaha!

This is how we make a big deal out of nothing.

In Autobiography of a Yogi, the wife of the Yogi, Lahiri Mahasaya, relates to the author how it took her years to realise her husband's identity as God-realised. When she finally "woke up," her husband initiated her into Kriya Yoga. It didn't take her very long though to go back to "sleep" and dream new expectations of her husband.

"I will confess a sin which I committed against my guru-husband. Some months after my initiation, I began to feel forlorn and neglected. One morning Lahiri Mahasaya entered this little room to fetch an article; I quickly followed him. Overcome by violent delusion, I addressed him scathingly.

"'You spend all your time with the disciples. What about your responsibilities for your wife and children? I regret that you do not interest yourself in providing more money for the family.'

"The master glanced at me for a moment, then lo! he was gone. Awed and frightened, I heard a voice resounding from every part of the room:

"'It is all nothing, don't you see? How could a nothing like me produce riches for you?'

"'Guruji,' I cried, 'I implore pardon a million times! My sinful eyes can see you no more; please appear in your sacred form.'

"'I am here.' This reply came from above me. I looked up and saw the master materialize in the air, his head touching the ceiling. His eyes were like blinding flames. Beside myself with fear, I lay sobbing at his feet after he had quietly descended to the floor.

"'Woman,' he said, 'seek divine wealth, not the paltry tinsel of earth. After acquiring inward treasure, you will find that outward supply is always forthcoming.' He added, 'One of my spiritual sons will make provision for you.'

"My guru's words naturally came true; a disciple did leave a considerable sum for our family." An Interview with the Sacred Mother
In the above example, the guru demonstrated how he could dismiss the dream of his body into nothing, which helped wake his wife up from her delusions. The problem with delusions is they can continue for years and years deceiving you into believing they are real, possibly for eternity, unless you wake up to the truth that it is all a dream.

In another part of the same book, Yogananda describes how during meditation he felt himself in another man's body who was about to die. Yogananda couldn't tell whether it was his body or not.

"As I closed my eyes in meditation, my consciousness was suddenly transferred to the body of a captain in command of a battleship. The thunder of guns split the air as shots were exchanged between shore batteries and the ship's cannons. A huge shell hit the powder magazine and tore my ship asunder. I jumped into the water, together with the few sailors who had survived the explosion.

Heart pounding, I reached the shore safely. But alas! a stray bullet ended its furious flight in my chest. I fell groaning to the ground. My whole body was paralyzed, yet I was aware of possessing it as one is conscious of a leg gone to sleep.

"At last the mysterious footstep of Death has caught up with me," I thought. With a final sigh, I was about to sink into unconsciousness when lo! I found myself seated in the lotus posture in my Gurpar Road room.

Hysterical tears poured forth as I joyfully stroked and pinched my regained possession—a body free from any bullet hole in the breast. I rocked to and fro, inhaling and exhaling to assure myself that I was alive. Amidst these self-congratulations, again I found my consciousness transferred to the captain's dead body by the gory shore. Utter confusion of mind came upon me.

"Lord," I prayed, "am I dead or alive?"

A dazzling play of light filled the whole horizon. A soft rumbling vibration formed itself into words:

"What has life or death to do with Light? In the image of My Light I have made you. The relativities of life and death belong to the cosmic dream. Behold your dreamless being! Awake, my child, awake!" The Law of Miracles
If it is all nothing, what exactly is this nothing? People have given this nothingness various names: Uncaused, Brahman, Consciousness, Reality, Source, Emptiness, Void. I see it as the Uncaused. As the name suggests, the Uncaused is causeless. It is nothing. And yet it would appear that infinite forms and universes originate in the Uncaused. This I find to be false.

For some time now, I have been joggling two views of reality which seem to be a paradox. There is the reality of cause/effect: every action has a cause whether you believe in God as a First Cause or human thought as a cause, there is always a cause. Then there is the Uncaused i.e. there is no cause to any experience or action, they come out of nothing. The above examples, where people make a fuss over nothing, resolves the Uncaused/cause-effect paradox. When clearly understood, there is no paradox. The Uncaused is reality. The Uncaused is not the origin of fantasies and dreams. Why? Because the Uncaused creates nothing. To create something requires a beginning and an end. The Uncaused has no beginning or end, It simply is.

Earlier today, I emailed a friend describing an experience I had a while back during meditation when I saw myself as a dark formless entity with vortexes of light emerging from me. These lights appeared to be origins of new universes. I haven't thought about this experience for some time until recently when I've been exploring the Uncaused. What if the universes are dreams which come out of nothing? It doesn't mean that the formless entity is the originator of these dreams, it just appears that way.

There are many stories and myths about who we are and why we are here, and we have created a concept of a God and what S/He is. Many have theorised that the universe has an origin. Either the Universe has always existed, which suggests it is the Uncaused appearing; or it has an origin. If the universe has an origin it is a dream that is not of the Uncaused. Then you are living in a dream of cause/effect where you dream up reasons why such and such is such and such. And so the onion layers of skin build up until it gets to a point when you can no longer tell the difference between truth and illusion. What is truth when it is all a dream?

Here are few more examples of how we make a fuss over nothing.

My body is Uncaused and yet I experience it as cause/effect. There are times when I only have one meal a day, late at night. I don't even drink anything and yet I still have the urge to have a pee. Why would I want to have a pee when I haven't drunk anything? Science, education and our programming tell us that our body is composed of water, therefore, excess fluid has to be excreted. There is always a cause. I sometimes wake up in the middle of the night wanting to have a pee. If I can't be bothered to get up, I simply switch into silence, the uncaused. My sense of Self is formless and I seem to forget what it means to urinate, hence, no need to pee. When I am meditating or in silence, I have no thoughts about "call of nature." Why? Because the "call of nature" is the dream that has no part in the Uncaused. The Uncaused never created it, therefore, it is coming from nothing and is therefore a nothing. I can dream it is something and continue the cycle of needing to have a pee etc, but it will not change the truth that the Uncaused is.

Take women's periods which is another fantasy. That was never created by the Uncaused which has no beginning or end. Menstruation occurs in monthly cycles. How can the ever-existing, timeless Uncaused have created an event that occurs in cycles? Having periods is a huge fuss over nothing. Periods seem very real for a lot of women. Multi-billion industries have come out of serving the needs of women by manufacturing sanitary towels and tampons, yet it is all based on a dream, one billions of women experience as reality. It is nothing. Naturally, the manufacturers need to keep this dream going so they could continue to make massive profits.

Here I am using the Internet which is supposed to make communication a lot easier between us. Yeah right! Another dream coming out of nothing. Why would I need to communicate when there is only one Consciousness? The One is forever One and therefore speaking to itself. Near where I live there is a black cat I've spotted a few times running across the road. I happen to love cats. I've learned not to waste my breath calling out to cats (or any other animal for that matter). All I have to do is simply say "hello" in thought and the cat always looks back at me. S/he is acknowledging our oneness in the void.

What can I say about the food industry and the dreams about what one should eat or not eat? What about the dreams from the medical industry about sickness and health? I could go on and on but I haven’t much dream time. (smile)

Life is a dream made out of nothing, which makes all of us dreamers. We are dreaming lives - individually and collectively - that have nothing to do with the Uncaused, that is beginningless, endless and unchanging.

Here's the good news: if you can make yourself sick, angry, jealous, fearful, happy, joyful, depressed, out of nothing, it shows how powerful we all are as dreamers. We can dream up grander and more beautiful dreams effortlessly as we already know how to make a big deal out of nothing. The only snag is when you forget you are dreaming and take it seriously. This is when you need the opt-out clause like the one Lahiri Mahasaya used to snap his wife out of her delusion: "It is all nothing." Or as I would say, "There is no cause!"

The bottom line is that life, for me, is about waking up from all dreams. Only then am I truly free to dream or not to dream with full awareness that it is all nothing.


For related dream stories see Senseless Figures; Ask Me No Questions and I'll Tell You No Lies

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

What is Oneness?

It has become very popular for people to acknowledge oneness: "we are one." What is oneness?

My understanding of oneness is that there is only the One, formless Infinite Source/Universal Energy expressing as all. The Infinite One has individuated into infinite other Ones. Here's an analogy that describes the One. Let's say someone has recommended to you a fabulous website like Vector8 Journals. You tell your friends Tom, Dick and Harry about the same site. Each of you has equal access to the same website. You only need to login to the Internet with an appropriate browser and you are viewing the same site. From my end, I can see everything on the site. I already have all, therefore, there is really no need to ask Tom, Dick or Harry to describe to me what is on the website. Only if my browser is faulty will I ask Tom, Dick or Harry to confirm what is on the website.

Oneness with Tom, Dick and Harry is our commonality and unity that we are viewing and sharing the same website. In this respect, we are One. Oneness doesn't mean that we are in parts. We are united in respect of sharing the same Source, but completely self-contained. How each of us interprets the website is up to the individual. (I may exchange views with Tom, Dick or Harry about what we think about the website).

This self-contained individuated Self is referred to as the I Am Presence:

"God has individualized - not once but limitless times - each time stepping forth as a distinct God Identity, unique in and of itself, yet inseparably One with the totality of the Godhead. Each Presence expresses its own supremely divine, permanent sense of Selfhood. It is an "1 AM" Presence. This is the one and only, true, complete and utterly REAL Self each of us can ever express here or in the hereafter."Your Divine God Presence
The problem is when some perceive oneness as one in form, for instance humanity. They see humanity as one and each of us as part of that one. Therefore, in order to be experience oneness or be the One you need to recognise that you are all that is good in humanity. I accept that in the game of life we appear to be playing our parts. In a recent article, In Deepest Gratitude, I expressed my gratitude to every human for playing their part. But I know that it is only a game. Each one passing off as human is actually the Mighty I Am Presence that is self-contained and infinite. Every human is the equivalent of Tom, Dick and Harry browsing the same website where all three can view everything on that website. The notion of oneness as a jigsaw puzzle, where every part makes the whole complete, is false; it is collective consciousness not oneness as I understand and experience oneness.

This notion of oneness as completion of the jigsaw puzzle is what leads people to believe that humanity will destroy itself unless they learn to share the natural resources, be more loving etc. Sharing is irrelevant when you realise that you are already complete and that you already share the One Infinite Source. The only sharing I accept as truth is one when you choose to remind others of who they are - that they are also complete, that everyone is already what they seek.

Oneness is a recognition that, while we all share the same Source, each of us is self-contained, complete and perfect in our own right

I am Source,

Working with Energy Requires Discipline

I have written countless times that all is Energy. From experience I know it takes practise and discipline to see the world in a different way. One meditation practice is to see all as Universal Energy. This Energy is referred to as the "cloud" by St Germain. (see the excerpts at the end).

One has been programmed to believe that all forms have their origin in matter. Matter is finite, temporal and limited. All forms are Universal Energy in manifestation.

Clothes do not come from shops, dress-makers, factories, designers, cloghes are Energy.

Food products do not come from supermarkets, farmers, animals or nature, food is Energy.

Money does not come from employers, banks, casinos, people or trees, money is Energy.

Houses do not come from matter, houses are Energy.

Perfect health does not come from what you eat, doctors or pills, health is Energy.

All is "infinite energy [that which] "is everywhere present (like the ether popularised by scientists of the last century) but nowhere manifest until it is called into action." Excerpts from the Writings of St Germain

Meditation, for me, is a reminder that I am one with this Energy, which already has/is all I need. I feel this Energy pouring through my body and out into the universe.

I feel this Energy pouring through me every moment, whether I have any need or not.

I trust in the infinite intelligence of Universal Energy.

Following are excerpts from "St Germain on Alchemy" by Mark L Prophet.

"St Paul referred to a "cloud of witnesses". This cloud of infinite energy is everywhere present (like the ether popularised by scientists of the last century) but nowhere manifest until it is called into action.

Create! - and the Cloud

To bring about change is a creative act. Alchemy is the creative science whereby man is enabled to obey the original fiat of God "Take dominion over the earth!"

The power of vision is central to our invocation. Therefore we shall create in our minds first a milky white radiance, and we shall see this milky white radiance as an electronic vibratory action of vital, moving, ineffable light. The concentration of the light, which we call the density of light, is that which makes the milky white colour. If the cloud were attenuated, we would be able to see through it as though the scenes around us were enveloped in a fog.

Having created in our mind this form of a bright translucent cloud, we allow it to enfold our physical bodies and to occupy our forcefield. For a moment we become lost in the midst of the cloud, and then it seems as though it has always been there. Its atmosphere is familiar, comfortable.

We recognise that the mind has the power to expand its circle of influence, but we must not try to move far from the parent tree of self. Let this bright and shining cloud at first be nine feet in diameter around oneself. Later, perhaps, we shall expand it to a diameter of ninety feet, then nine hundred feet and further.

In our early meditations we shall concentrate on intensifying the action of the white light in our minds. From thence we shall transfer that action to the nine foot area around the physical form. Once we have developed the sense of this cloud being around our physical form, we shall understand that whereas the cloud can be made visible to the physical sight, our primary concern is to keep its high vibratory action purely spiritual.

Those familiar with electronics and the working of a rheostat will understand that by a simple twist of the dial of consciousness we can intensify the vibratory action of the cloud. In this case we coalesce more light around each central point of light, for our cloud is composed of many light points whose auras diffuse and blend with one another, making the total effect one of a lacy yet highly concentrated white radiance, a pure swirling cloud of cosmic energy.

What is this mighty cloud that we have created, this forcefield of vibrating energy, and why did we create it in the first place?

It would be more appropriate to use the word 'magnetize' rather than 'create' for we are actually magnetizing that which is already everywhere present in space. We are amplifying an intense action of the light from within its own forcefield - more than would normally manifest in a given area. We are therefore drawing upon universal God-power to produce this cloud that first penetrates and then hallows our immediate forcefield in order that we may have a spiritual altar upon which we may project the pictures of reality that we desire to create.

Bear in mind that this cloud can be used therapeutically for the healing of the nations and the soul of a planet, or you can use it as a platform to invoke (as Christ did upon the Mount of Transfiguration) the presence of the Ascended Masters to assist you not only in your alchemical experiments, but also in your administrations to life.

Where you are yet ignorant of just what you ought to produce for yourself and others, you can in a gentle, child-like manner, ask God to produce out of the great pool of his light-energy the miracle of his healing love not only in your life and in the lives of your loved ones, but also in the lives of the multitudes in the world at large.

These periods of meditation should at first not exceed fifteen minutes per day. Once spiritual power is gained through these meditations upon the cloud, try to understand that the creative cloud, once dispersed by your fiat at the conclusion of your creative ceremony, will continue to expand and to expand throughout the universe as a globe of translucent white fire, eddying in ever-widening spheres to contact all that is real and that is really yours.

The cloud, as the manifestation of the power of your creative energy, the fire of your Spirit, will draw into your world the very consciousness of God himself." Excerpts from the Writings of St Germain
I am Infinite Energy,

For other writings see Vector8 writings

Monday, February 07, 2005

The Gift

All of us has been given a gift to experience life: Universal Energy. There is only Universal Energy experiencing life. All is Universal Energy.

Since there is only one having life this means there is no one else having life but me. My identity as Universal Energy means I am infinite power, love and wisdom. I am the totality of Life expressing through me and as me.

I have written in a previous article, Are You Dreaming Again?, that all of life unfolding in forms are dream states. The One Universal Energy contains dreams of beauty and magnificence on the one hand, and dreams of sheer terror on the other. Neither of these are real- they are simply dreams. In order to be free of duality, I must remember that there is only Universal Energy that is pure consciousness without thoughts, beliefs or rules. With unlimited energy to play with, I can unfold grander dreams of Self.

In every moment I am being supported in my journey, depending on how I want to play it. If I choose to live dreams of limitations and illusions, I as Universal Energy, manifest the tools to unfold that dream. If I choose to be the fulness of I am that is unlimited good, I as Universal Energy give myself support on my journey.

There are times when life seems like a total nightmare and disaster. This is because I am identifying with a false Self; I have forgotten that all there is is me, Universal Energy, Love. Unfolding grander dreams is a matter of being mySelf. When I am in silence I automatically have access to unlimited Energy because all is unconditioned Energy. I trust in silence. I can then put out an intention and witness myself as Universal Energy unfold the equivalent dream.

All that I have ever dreamed of is available right now as Universal Energy. It's a matter of being constantly vigilant or awake to my identity as Universal Energy.

I am Universal Energy.
All is Universal Energy.

With all my love,

For other writings see Vector8 writings

Why It is Necessary For Me to Stay Awake

In a previous article, Are You Dreaming Again?, I discussed what it means to be dreaming versus being awake. What do I mean by "awake?" I mean being aware that my identity is Spirit/Source/Love which is formless and that this formless being is expressing through this body appearing as Enocia.

In this article, I am proposing that waking up is not only necessary on a personal level to be free of limiting beliefs, but staying awake also helps to erase thoughts of disharmony we have all contributed to within the human collective consciousness.

Two nights ago I thought I would go to sleep by staying awake, if that makes any sense. I had no intention of meditating but I wanted to have the benefit of inner silence without the effort. I know that Self never sleeps. I can be one with Self all day but when it comes to bedtime, this is when we part company. Hahaha! You see, I love sleeping. I could sleep for days if giving the chance. How to reconcile my love for sleep and staying permanently awake where I don't start dreaming again? This is a tricky dilemma. I stayed in inner silence while lying down. The old habit of falling asleep while lying down kicked in. I felt as if I was fighting myself. The moment I fell asleep and started dreaming, a part of me woke myself up. After some time I surrendered and said to Self to keep me awake as I know I'm already awake. I promptly fell asleep. I dreamt I was awake while I was asleep. What an odd dream. I had other dreams too which I can't recall now. I woke up to find my eyes open and I was in total bliss. Could I be in two states at the same time? Not likely. One is real and the other is illusion. While I was lying in blissful silence with my eyes open, a part of me had been dreaming. Remind you of something? This is what life is about, isn't it? Our real Self is awake while we are dreaming ourselves into all sorts of situations. (smile)

Lying blissfully awake while I was supposedly sleeping reminds me of babies. A baby might be perfectly happy lying in his cot gurgling away or nibbling at his toes. Only when he is in need of something will you hear him cry. I was like a baby in complete bliss while someone else was dreaming. That state of being in bliss is staying awake.

Have you ever had a thought of someone and had an emotional reaction? The reaction could be pleasant or unpleasant? I have. It's a habit I have formed based on memory. The person could have changed but in my thoughts the person remains the same and behaves in the same old way. One way I have devised to free myself from this habit is to be in silence. The moment I have a thought and I'm tempted to react in the old way I escape into silence. Sometimes it takes several attempts for the habit to disappear but persistence achieves the objective. When I am in silence I am free from memory - pleasant or unpleasant.

I used to suffer with eczema. I used all sorts of skin products and sometimes they disappeared for a few months and then they were back again. I would find the product was no longer effective and get my doctor to prescribe a stronger dose, which worked until it stopped working...etc. I then tried another version of healing by denying the belief. When I no longer had the belief in eczema, it disappeared. One thing that plagued me from time to time was itching. It was like getting rid of the visible effects while still having the symptoms. The way I see it, to deny the belief of something is replacing one belief with another. Beliefs are thoughts. Beliefs are dreams. I now use inner silence because in silence there is no cause. In silence there are no thoughts, beliefs or dreams. Where there are no dreams in thought there can be no thoughts in forms.

For those who use Truth to heal, you find that if you, the one upholding Truth on behalf of the patient, have the form very much in your thought, the healing will not work. In the scriptures, Jesus puts it this way:

"For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you: But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses." (Matthew 6: 14-15)
In other words, if you haven't let go of the form in your own thought, if the disease is very real for you, there's no chance of letting it go on behalf of another because Universal Energy can only express through you what you believe to be true. But when you are in silence, there are no thoughts to let go of. It is a short-cut method if you have the discipline. The Father principle/Universal Energy can then flow through you and heal your patient with the human equivalent of no thoughts, which is no manifestation of the disease.

On a much wider scale, when one is awake and stays awake i.e. in silence, the state of no thoughts is made manifest in the human realm. You have an intention of what dreams you wish to erase. Then you retreat into inner silence. Silence flows out as pure Energy which erases the dream effects. Silence is Love therefore this Energy will be experienced by those who are open to it and will be inspired to dream new dreams. As always everyone has freewill. You can choose to dream new blissful dreams or you can continue to dream fearful dreams. I like how this is explained in the following excerpts from "Life and Teachings of the Masters of the Far East:"

"The divinity that shapes your destinies is not a mighty person molding you as a potter molds his clay but a Mighty Divine Power—within and all around you and around and in all substance—which is yours to use as you will. If you do not realize this, you cannot have confidence in yourselves. The greatest cure for inharmony is the knowledge that it is not from God and that God never did create it.

"The brain has the quality of receiving and recording the vibrations of any object that the eye conveys to it. The vibrations of the lights and shades and colors are all recorded. It also has the quality of reproducing these vibrations and projecting them out again, this time through the inner vision; then we again see the picture the eye has conveyed. You are reproducing this in your camera every time you expose a sensitized plate. That plate receives and records the vibrations that the object you wish to photograph sends out. After the vibrations are received and recorded on the plate, you must fix the results on the plate, if they are to become permanent so that you can see them. It will be only a short time before you will find that the movements and colors of the objects that you photograph can be recorded and projected by first fixing and then returning or projecting the lights and colors at the same rate of vibration at which they were received and fixed.

"It is the same with thought and word and act. Each selective set of brain cells takes up and records its corresponding set of vibrations and, when these vibrations are repeated and projected, they can be reproduced just as they took place, if the cells are held directly to their duty.

"There is also another set of selective brain cells that can receive, record, and fix the vibrations of the thoughts, acts, motions, and pictures that other bodies or forms send out. These vibrations can be again reproduced and projected and you can so arrange these cells that you can reproduce the words and motions of these bodies or objects and even the thoughts of those that send them out. Through these cells you can assist others as well as yourself to control their thoughts. It is through these cells that accidents and calamities are brought about, such as wars, earthquakes, floods, fires and all the trouble that mortal man is heir to. Someone either sees a thing happen or images it as happening; the corresponding vibration is fixed in the cells, sent out to be impressed on the corresponding cells of other brains, then again projected back, until the thing is so fixed that it happens.

"All these things can be avoided if the thought that sustains them is immediately withdrawn and the vibrations are not allowed to be fixed upon those brain cells, so that those particular vibrations cannot be again projected. It is through this set of cells that all calamities are foretold." Life and Teachings of the Masters of the Far East, Volume 2

So you can see how staying awake can help manifest harmonious human experience so long as it is with the awareness that harmony already is. In other words, I cannot create what already exists.

Ultimately, being in silence is going beyond the human realm of thoughts and cause/effects. It is being what we truly are - awareness. Awareness is self-sustaining. Actually, there is no need for sustenance as awareness is infinity i.e. limitless. Only when one is dreaming that one is apart from infinity does one need to be sustained.

Humanity is and has always been one with the Infinite. It is only our beliefs that have fooled us into dreaming we are finite beings. What happens when you're dreaming something you don't wish to experience? You wake up and it's gone. Even when it is a pleasant dream, and there is not enough energy to sustain the dream, you wake up and it's gone. I'm saying all experiences are dreams. You could choose to dream lovely dreams or not. Being in the silence gives you unlimited energy so you can dream impossible dreams, if that's what you choose. Or you can choose to stay in silence and channel that pure energy to help others dream impossible dreams.

Another thing about being in silence is that when you have access to unlimited energy, you can dream effortlessly. There is no need to struggle. You observe as Energy is manifested as the very thing needed. When Energy is doing the work, all things are possible.

I have discussed that being awake means being in silence. How do I stay awake? I remind myself when I am dreaming. I either say "You're dreaming again!" or "Wakey, wakey!" The most important thing for me to remember is to be fully conscious when I am dreaming; that I am choosing to have that experience.

Staying awake is the purpose of my life.

I am Silence,

Related articles: The Mortal is Immortal; Why Blanking is Good For You; Where There is No Memory