Vector8 Journals

Friday, June 24, 2005

Wonder versus Wondering

I wrote in a piece called Living in the Wonder that Wonder is our natural state of being. In Wonder there is no need to worry about life as everything is. You simply bask in the magic of Wonder. As Wonder we are in a consciousness that is usually referred to as oneness.

I also wrote that wondering about why life is gets us out of Wonder. Wondering creates an imagined "split," a dream self who goes about wondering, trying to figure life out. The dream self dreams up untold possibilities of what he believes life to be. The dream self imagines he has to learn from experiences so he dreams up experiences that teach him about his dream life. The dream self imagines his lessons are helping him to expand and evolve towards perfection. His dreams appear to come to life.

While the dreamer can dream up wonderful dreams, the dreams are still about wondering. None of the dreams are real, but to the dreamer they are very much real. The dreamer has forgotten he is dreaming and that he is Wonder. He has forgotten that his real self, Wonder, doesn't need to learn anything as he is all that is. He has forgotten that there are no causes in Wonder, it all is.

As we experience life we appear to have two selves. There is the part of us that is naturally joyful and in bliss; and the other part that struggles and believes life is a school. In most, it is the struggling part that is more dominant. Let's say you're in a situation, a nightmare you've dreamed up, and need to be released. You call out for help. The real self, Wonder, tells the wondering dreamer that everything is perfect. All is well. To the dream self, this doesn't make any sense. How can everything be perfect when you're hurting. Get me out of here! But you'll continue to hear the words "It's all perfect."

It is not that Wonder has got her head buried in the sand, she knows only what is real and perfect. As it is written in the scriptures:

"Thou art of purer eyes than to behold evil, and canst not look on iniquity." (Habakkuk 1: 13)
The real self can't see what doesn't exist, she can only continue to state what is true, that all is perfect. If you take on board what the real self is telling you the dreamer and believe, you will wake up out of that dream. What is unlike perfection is wiped out and is replaced by the real self perfection. Bear in mind that it's not up to you to wonder about the how for it is wondering that got you in the dream state in the first place. Just know that it is all perfect and let the mystery of the Wonder be.

I want to end by saying that in this website, I take on two perspectives: that of the dreamer or wondering and that of Wonder. You will note that as the dreamer self I'm looking at possible reasons and causes while as Wonder I am simply exploring being. Is it a game I'm playing? No. As I was raised in the dream, I took on the habit of wondering and evolving. When I woke up and realised myself as Wonder, I still had the habit of wondering though it is abating.

One thing I know for sure, wondering is a figment of the imagination. There is only the Wonder.

Being the Wonder,
Enocia